whatsupwithat

Hello folks, during service I became a Type-1 insulin dependent diabetic. Anthrax vaccinations shut down my pancreas. After separation, I hit rock bottom with alcohol and the prism of street drugs. This irresponsible me 'saw the error of my illegal activities' August of 09. Facing a strict prison sentence I emerged from rehab a sober law-abiding citizen again (from alcohol and street drugs) 6 months later. A year or so after separation, and early in my diabetes I was prescribed hydrocodone 5/500 then 7.5's for diabetic pain. Of course, at the same time I signed the VA rights release. I called to renew my hydro prescription religiously for approximately 8 years. Eight months ago I needed renewal and was informed by my 'physician' that I would have a urination and lab before he would renew. I performed the request, got my medication but the next day mail told me I violated VA policy, marijuana use: so no more VA narcs. I do smoke and will never understand why we can self medicate with alcohol freely without medical benefit accepting the horrible risks associated but someone can't med with MJ when it's a proven diabetic nerve-pain reliever among other uses. Such a political contradiction. Regardless, last weekend I seriously screwed something up in my lower back, went back to the Jack C. in Muskogee and after being denied by my 'physician', his boss and the patient advocate, I have been labeled as a narc hunter. Yes, I have had a couple of Ozzy episodes with these providers and admin, and...5-6 YEARS ago, the 'label' would have been true. I haven't had anything but OTC in my system since November 11, excluding Naproxen and Methocarbomol from the VA-E.R. Wonder drugs that don't do anything to the jack-hammer in my back. I have legitimacy with this lumbar injury, but have cried wolf too many times? Is this the kind of mentality vets are dealing with? Could someone let me know if there is another course of action besides relaying my new injury with these 'buddy-system' dictators? I don't care about being monitored for illegal drugs, if these people would look past my history and actually do something for my back. The pain has caused me to loose a decent welding gig, which I can weld anywhere but really don't feel like spending a fortune on a private physician just to be able to work. Who can I talk to about signing the release again, or is it just a one time deal? I'm at my breaking point.