neoncosmo

Thanks Sunnyh, I added the files.

How do I add a file from my computer onto this thread?

Hi all, I am new here and wanted specific advice on my condition although I have read lots of other forums. This grammar will not be right, I'm sick, I'm tired, and I just want to get through this crap. I submitted a claim recently and it got denied. PTSD, partially due to MST, partially due to harassment and belittlement. I went into the service with no 'noted' conditions, although I am finding out through years of ongoing therapy i was abused as a child. Mind you, there were no "noted" abnormalities upon entry. I did say several times that at 9 i tried to hang myself...whicih i found out recently is a true memory. The denial was because the guy who did the report contradicted himself several times throughout the report and said I didn't have PTSD but I did and it was due to childhood trauma and that the PTSD I got in service was proven by XYZ that occurred in service, ultimate position,..denial. I do have a diagnoses of PTSD, I have gone through bouts of homelessness, unstable relationships, substance abuse (which I am afraid to report for fear of blame being put on use of acid and alcohol and marijuana), severe pain to include Degenerative disc disease (where my separation comes from, medically separated, honorable) IBS -almost died because I was so sick a couple of years ago and had dropped 60 lbs out of nowhere and the diagnoses was 'marijuana abuse'. severe weight gain in service, pregnancy scares, stds, body augmentation requests, sporatic marriage and divorce to a man i knew a number of weeks, poor evals and often reprimanded, the list goes on... i was called the barracks whore, i feel so much guilt and shame about it, i feel like the females were put in service so the males wouldn't terrorize the females. we were told we would be broken down to be built back up but the second half didn't happen. the only time i felt any worth was when i was sleeping with someone and 99% of the time i was so wasted i had no clue what was happening. i have put together spcific citations from the VA website of similar instances but I am going to be as thorough with this rebuttal as possible because this is stupid to have to go through again. I recently had my first baby with a husband who feels he got the short end of the stick in a wife and cps is involved because i am terrified i will hurt my 5 month old because of my anger outbursts. i cannot be alone with him. i am doing a voluntary thing with cps so i can get the healing and help i need so i can be a good mother to our son. So, what all should I include in my rebuttal?