ptsd Fear, What Is The Reason

[sgmdae]

I have held my Vietnam time inside since 1969. I have had very little conversations about it. I was so proud of what I did by the direction of the officers in charge.

My real fear, is now I suppose to tell the true story, of what happe in Vietnam

I am scared to death, that I will lose my stern, non flexible demeener.

I have been trying to talk myself out of asking for PTSD treament

Do I really need to do this. My life is almost over. Is it going to worth it, \

will it do any good. My fellows brothers are dead, I didn't help them then, how is this help them now

My nightmare of killing a female NVA, will never go away, and I will never know if its true. I just can't remeber

[sharon]

It may help you to go into counseling. There you may be able to reconsile your repressed memories. The Vet Center is a good place to start.

[sgmdae]

I have my first Vet center appointment tomorrow, after the intake survey.

That why I am pacing, and can't seem to get my normal 2 hours of sleep

I know I need too, but it such a slow process, and looks that another job is coming to end

I don't know if I have the stanima to continue trying to work

[carlie]

I have my first Vet center appointment tomorrow, after the intake survey.

That why I am pacing, and can't seem to get my normal 2 hours of sleep

I know I need too, but it such a slow process, and looks that another job is coming to end

I don't know if I have the stanima to continue trying to work

sgmdae,

Most times receiving service's at the vet center is like a homecoming for many.

It is usually totally different than any services received at the VAMC's.

Tomorrow's going to be a good day for you.

carlie

[sgmdae]

sgmdae,

Most times receiving service's at the vet center is like a homecoming for many.

It is usually totally different than any services received at the VAMC's.

Tomorrow's going to be a good day for you.

carlie

Carlie

Thank you for the encouragement, it just a step that I will need to make myself do

The more I think about, the more I remember, I just left the Vietnam Memorial wall web page,

trying to figure out where I would of been placed, if I would of took Sp/4 Dennis's bullet

It was meant for me, he got in the way

[sgmdae]

Everyone should be safe tonight, I am wide awake and on guard to first daybreak.

No sleep for me tonight,but because of my great RVN experience, i will be able to maintain 100%

capabilities tomorrow, or I guess today. Only if we could relive our great times in life, as we do our sad pass.

[cowgirl]

sgmdae, I send you a calm prayer for your journey. I second Carlie's motion that its going to be a good day.

Cowgirl'up2009!