ptsd Blocked Ptsd Thoughts Please Help !

[marinevet1 0]

Hello

While serving on tour in Vietnam as a team Aid Man

I encountered many injuried and death. I blocked out

as much as I could all my life totally.

I have a self letter for my PTSD C&P next week.

It detailed my life, before, during and post military years.

My Company Commander Capt Mc Vey USMC was MIA never to be

found or his body to this day. MIA 3/2/1970 SN 521448976

Here the site info http://www.1streconbnassociation.org/KIA.List.htm

I was close to him as he was our team leader. I never forgot his

efforts. But along the way the others injured an death i seem to

some how blocked out in my life all these years, names KIA

and WIA I cant bring them to remember. All my issues and

medical probelms related to this has created my severe

Bi Polar and PTSD problems.

(POST) I'm in PTSD classes, a MEDIC'S and regular PTSD session 2

times and week. at the VA....I just cant unlock them.

My questions is how do i explain this when im asked to give detail of my

patrol and missions and death an carrying of body bags all that goes along with

explaining to him. I have prepared a letter like a self nexus of my life i wish to

submit to the VA this next week to have part of my case.

I dont know if its alright to submit it HERE..but it's 4 pages long and explains

the best I can... I dont feel good explaining it. It took me many hours of preparing

this, maybe more than 100 hours. Can I just give it to HE/She I can write it while being

alone but can 't talk to others of it.

Any help is welcome. If i cant what and frezze up and just cant open and speak much.

I have to try ..but what if i cant..Cant he read my VA Psy report and know what med's

and know what my Psy said and know already in my C file?

I know he can see me and know I have issues. but wooow im really stressed out and

in 8 days I will never sleep the few days before I go. Anybody have this problem ?

Last does any body know where to fine June 1970 After action mission reports for the

1st Marine Reconnassance Battalion..1st Marine Division Charlie Co daily mission reports

If i can find i can find and give the info to help me remember.

I found all months for 1970 but i cant find anywhere June..

I have tried the 1st Recon Bn USMC Vietnam, Everywhere

Found here everything but June 1970..

1st Marine Division 1st Reconnassance Battalion Charlie Co. 2/1 69/1970

http://www.clemson.edu/caah/history/facultypages/EdMoise/marspec.html

This is the month i need. does any body know a link to anywhere for this for me

PLEASE provide its the only link i need to bring back the info to read and remind me.

I found a buddy on the same team. but he dont want any reminder of it

or to help me with a buddy letter..I have his name rank and service number

and other reports of us being on patrols together..But it was bad and he to

doesnt want nothing to do to in remembering it.

if i can just fine it they will see my patrols and KIA and WIA reports from our

Patrols and i can get and try better remembering it, it been 40 years since June

and blocked out.. Im stuggling the best i can

Marine Vet 1

[LarryJ 5]

You don't need all this stuff, okay. You are stressing yourself for no reason. Please, listen to me, you will not have to "re-live" every damn minute of your experiences, not the names, not the rank, not the serial numbers. First of all, the examiner DOES NOT HAVE TIME to listen to all this, nor do they want to hear it. You are NOT going to this C&P to be "treated" for your PTSD. This is not a "psych visit" nor is it a "group grope", okay? All you need to get across to the examiner is the fact that you were afraid of being killed or injured by the bad guys. Just tell the examiner where you were, what your duty(s) were, and that you were scared shitless.

That is all.

That is REALLY all, seriously.

Now, go to bed!

[Doug 0]

Good advice, Larry. The stress can get out of hand for these mental health C&P exam's if we don't keep it under control. Good luck marinevet1.

[Berta 2,958]

Larry is right!

here is the link to the new PTSD regs:

If for any reason, the VA questions your stressor experience then you can write to JSRRC and even the Marine Corp Commandant (I posted those addresses here under JSRRC posts) for a confirmation of one of your stressors.

Your MOS and DD 214 alone, with a VA diagnosis of PTSD , might be all you will need.

[marinevet1 0]

Larry is right!

here is the link to the new PTSD regs:

If for any reason, the VA questions your stressor experience then you can write to JSRRC and even the Marine Corp Commandant (I posted those addresses here under JSRRC posts) for a confirmation of one of your stressors.

Your MOS and DD 214 alone, with a VA diagnosis of PTSD , might be all you will need.

Thanks Berta

Actually I just had been in touch with Carrie Weletz... who was in this Video on the PTSD July changes.

that you gave me the link to see the Video, on the PTSD change.

She is going to be my attorney if i am denied... It's a funny world that you provided me this

The Good LORD must be looking over me ....Again I thank you for your time

I will let you know the outcome of my C&P and rating..

Carrie Weletz told me from my info, to her I should have no problem getting a 70%

plus be able to get TDIU ....for 100% schedular ....just like you said......

Now the GOOD LORD must be looking over me.......

She said just only answer what they ask ....dont give any info on your own

that they dont ask for. And she said I will walk through it without problem

Thanks again to all !

USMC

Semper Fi