Thanks for the words of encouragement everyone. I see now that I made a huge mistake my first time around that i will not make again. You see, I sugar coated my problems. I was so worried about making myself seem worse than I actually am rather than being 100% honest. So I guess I screwed myself.
I am making another claim. I would appeal, but since this one is still being processed I can't appeal it yet. Plus I am making more claims. For instance, I had no idea depression was claimable. So whenever this one gets rolling I am going to let it all out. Instead of telling them "how well I deal with my issues" I am just going to flat out tell them about the nightmares, anxiety, how I have no friends outside what I made in the Army, and how my family is even sick of how I choose to stay in my room 24/7 and not even communicate.
I'll get a better rating. It's crazy to even think that my friend could get 100% for PTSD after seeing someone die and I can't a break, even though I was good friends with the person who died, was right their with him when it happened, and had to help collect/carry what was left of him to the body bag.
Side note: I just realized that the only reason the VA exists is to help veterans. Yet I know for a fact that their main priority is to protect the government and save them money. It boggles my mind how much of a contradiction that is.
Any tips moving on would be most appreciated. I don't want to go in there and make them think I am fine when I am anything but again.