First, I'd like to thank Hadit...this site has been a God-send in many ways since I filed my PTSD claim in October 2016. Making this as short as I can, my now ex-husband almost killed me while we were both on active duty, overseas, with 2 small children. I reported it. After a short time of him being out of the house, I was told that unless I could afford to fly to the states and get a divorce I had 2 options: 1. Pursue charges against him, in which case, because he had more rank, I would have to move out of base quarters and leave my 2 kids...unless I could afford a car and place to live with them and daycare alone. Not a possibility. 2. I allow him to move back into the house.
To be honest, I didn't even remember this ultimatum until after I'd filed my claim...and I've been retired for 16 years, and this happened some years before retirement. Over the years, I functioned, some say well. I took care of my kids like the momma bear that wouldn't leave them alone with an animal. After retirement, I pursued divorce, and started feeling like life might be looking up. But, as time went on, little signs of the effect of his almost killing me turned into big signs. I've become somewhat of a loner, even distancing myself from the family I moved 'cross country to be near. Focus...yea, can't do that. Sleep...only after hours of laying awake or copious amounts of wine. I've had a hard time keeping a job because I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop.
So, now I'm waiting for my claim to be completed. The doctor who saw me for PTSD (there are other physical claims unrelated) said he can see the effects, and "will do everything he can to help me." I learned the other day that the VA has accepted my stressor. Beyond that, I keep waiting for some sort of update. None of the 3 medical reports show up anywhere, and E-Benefits list medical paperwork as over-due. It's OK...I know there's a process. I'm writing all of this just to say thanks, and to ask if my feeling like I'll never be myself again (whoever that was) is normal. Thanks.