Coopsta

I'm really suprised i didn't list PTSD i am wracked with PPTTSSDD .....i have ad it for a long time..PTSD has effected me for as far back as i can remember...

I have submitted EVERYTHING you can imagine to VA in support my claim ....up to and including letters from my former company commader who attested to how much i struggled in boot and how i was singled out .. yet still i was denied....i'd love to REALLY UNLOAD on this site as to how i feel about the way VA does their buisness, but i won't , have you ever heard the term " it's not what you know it's who you know" ....let me just say that is precisely verbatum. I'm not here for a bitch session and quite frankly if their are a chosen few who think i am well stop reading this post now and do yourself a favor and MOVE ON ....i am sick and tired of fighting the system( over 5 yrs now...( i dont care about eople fighting for over 20 yrs we're not talking about them we're talking about me at the moment ) , VA ESPECIALLY , yeah yeah yeah i know all about how it's back logged with thousands of files ....granted i know thats true .....hire more people or have people do volunteer work..... Anyway perhaps i'm asking for to much, although i seriously doubt it, i just want my just due like the rest of do....about a year ago i got my congressman involved and would you believe from the time i called him ad he got invlved to the time i got the letter of denial of course it took 2 and a 1/2 weeks ....wow ....can you imagine that ......that got on the ball then ddnt they ...amazing when they have to move they do.....wouldn't want to piss off the boys on the hill...........listen i'm not trying to be difficult .....and maybe i have waaay to much time on my hands ...granted i am damn sure i do.....the fighting is wiping me out.....i have help from some damn good people who have been around the block a few times....my VSO here in Massachusetts .....i'll leave it at that ...he is uselss ....he's just another goverment employee collecting a $$$ check ....period nothing more then that.....he spends more time on vacation then he does in his office and i told him that ....if i get the chance i'll tell him again ....he never returns my calls and only when he does its weeks later and i forget why i called him to begin with.SSDI ...i've been on for about 5yrs now .....i dont work and i cant either i have adhd/ depression, Bi-polar,major depression,anger,on all kinds meds... Coop

yes you're correct...

The other day i received a long letter of support from my treating pyschiatrist who is the director of the PTSD clinic here on the east coast who by the way has her personal frustrations as to why i was denied IU to begin with, she has strongly feels my GAF is between 41-45 but gave me a firm 48 with room improve yet feels i will not work again as a result of circumstances in bootcamp i will NOT share on hadit ....my social functioning in the community she is adimant is poor and my ability to live within society is a struggle. I'm sharing with the men / women of hadit because i know for certain i am NOT alone with the everyday struggles....in my Drs office ( my pyschisatrists ) as i sat there she asked me to explain what had happened to me in BOOT so i tried to " so i have something richard" she said and all of a sudden i detached and disacosiated and i remembered NOTHING my wife and Dr told me i started crying fr about 10 mins and started shaking and couldn't stop....this was a blur to me ....as a matter of fact when i stopped according to my wife / Dr they bth asked me if i was alright and i looked at bth of them like they were crazy ...anyway guys i guess all i am saying is i'm tired of fighting is what i said to the Dr and my wife ...all i want is to stop fighting the system i just want to move on with my life and somehow or other live my life in a normal fashion if thats even possible. With my GAF score,although only used as a tool and being on SSDI, i submitted supporting letters from alllllllllll kinds of family members , my wife, friends, therapists, myself, etc etc etc...will this letter from my pyschiatrist help me with the IU ...i'm already 40% SC ..... i hope this helps ....thanks again Coop PS: is it neccesary to post some or al of the letter my shrnk had written for me on here to get a better understanding ...? ?