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retiredat44

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  1. I may have some very good news coming soon ! Until it is written in Stone, I can't say anything, and don't have much info yet.

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      retiredat44

      thanx,, but I would feel bad if I said something that did not pan out, I can say, I was a told by a very reliable source that my fight is coming to an end and on my side... I paid for expert help and they came through. it was a big chunk of $$ but worth every bit. But, until it is in stone,.... etc..etc... I would be able to spread some wisdom if it al works out,,, otherwise,,, it not worth much... I would be very happy to tell others some of what I learned, if it helps them. I hope I will be able to share the experience.

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  2. The VA/BVA claims, appeals created a big problem. I was diagnosed when I was Hospitalized for 6 months 2008 in the San Diego VA Hospital for Necrotizing Pancreatitis. During the BVA appeals, someone changed some of the wording from 'Necrotizing Pancreatitis', to 'Chronic Pancreatitis'. I need that corrected as they make a lot of decisions on diagnosis and medical issues. I am awaiting for the word from the BVA through my VA representative who worked my BVA case for me.

    In Oregon they have VA representatives when you choose representation, like when you can choose a POA through the DAV, American Legion, or the VA has them too. I had no choice, a few years ago I needed help and they were the only help I could find. Now the BVA has only approved and given me the 1151 claim and denied the rest. The only claim left is TDIU, which no one would help me with because up until late last year I was only 60% (I have been un employable and totally disabled from 1995). Now I am at 90%. (it took until 2019 for the BVA to get it changed to 90%) But they low balled me badly, and I believe it is not only bad decisions at the BVA, but also because they wrote down the wrong disease in the decisions.

    I cannot move on to the next POA, until the BVA has said they are finished with my claims (so my VA representative can be let go because the BVA appeals are finished), and I believe that the next step will have to be an NOD for the BVA decisions that used the wrong term, diagnosis. And that will be corrected with help by a paid POA I have retained (highly respected professional who is going to be my POA as soon as I can fire my current POA), but they cannot help me until the other POA is no longer my POA. I am awaiting word that all decisions have been made up until this point, by the BVA, so I can bring in some very good help with my appeals. Note: I have never before appealed BVA decisions before. From this point on it is new to me. Getting these bungled screwed up mistakes corrected. I don't understand how they can get away with doing this stuff !

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      retiredat44

      OK, so I went to the latest C&P exam, 3 days ago. The VA says they are going through my appeals and adding the pain I have been through, as pain is also suppose to be rated and added to your rating, so I brought in my medical records going back to t he 1980's showing the pain I have suffered from the injuries and diseases going al the way back and have been on morphine and narcotics for 40 years for severe pain. I brought in the medical records, even though they have had copies I submitted in the 1990's from outside hospitals that treated me and operated on me. So, I have a trail of constant medical care for both diagnosed and undiagnosed severe pain. If they rate me properly it should put me over the top, no problem. But, I don't trust them, even with the stacks of medical records, they will find a way to screw me, but I guess after a few months I will find out how they rate the undiagnosed and diagnosed pain. These are not just a few sheets of paper from the doctors, they are boxes of medical records showing al the exams, procedures, diagnoses, and medications. For decades. They also took my blood to check my liver for the C&P, since I have pancreatic disease.

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  3. The VA/BVA claims, appeals created a big problem. I was diagnosed when I was Hospitalized for 6 months 2008 in the San Diego VA Hospital for Necrotizing Pancreatitis. During the BVA appeals, someone changed some of the wording from 'Necrotizing Pancreatitis', to 'Chronic Pancreatitis'. I need that corrected as they make a lot of decisions on diagnosis and medical issues. I am awaiting for the word from the BVA through my VA representative who worked my BVA case for me.

    In Oregon they have VA representatives when you choose representation, like when you can choose a POA through the DAV, American Legion, or the VA has them too. I had no choice, a few years ago I needed help and they were the only help I could find. Now the BVA has only approved and given me the 1151 claim and denied the rest. The only claim left is TDIU, which no one would help me with because up until late last year I was only 60% (I have been un employable and totally disabled from 1995). Now I am at 90%. (it took until 2019 for the BVA to get it changed to 90%) But they low balled me badly, and I believe it is not only bad decisions at the BVA, but also because they wrote down the wrong disease in the decisions.

    I cannot move on to the next POA, until the BVA has said they are finished with my claims (so my VA representative can be let go because the BVA appeals are finished), and I believe that the next step will have to be an NOD for the BVA decisions that used the wrong term, diagnosis. And that will be corrected with help by a paid POA I have retained (highly respected professional who is going to be my POA as soon as I can fire my current POA), but they cannot help me until the other POA is no longer my POA. I am awaiting word that all decisions have been made up until this point, by the BVA, so I can bring in some very good help with my appeals. Note: I have never before appealed BVA decisions before. From this point on it is new to me. Getting these bungled screwed up mistakes corrected. I don't understand how they can get away with doing this stuff !

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      retiredat44

      Thank you...

      I am so sick from, this war ... I let a few days go by to look at the response,.... technically they won they beat me to a pulp and put me in the dungeon...

       

      I am happy the good people respond with really good info on how the system works with claims and the laws.

      I also am locked up, cannot move the claim forward until I get word that the BVA is done, then I can let my current rep, POA go, fire them, and move on to a new Rep (They are ready when I tell them that my current rep is fired). Even with this info, there is still nothing I can do. I have to have a rep do it, as the system is, even if you have the info, there is NO now way to work with the VA/BVA. etc...  they call you, you don't call them...

      To anyone else with along fight ahead of you.... Good luck..... even with the facts on your side...

      I am going back to laying down sick...

      I got called for another C&P, I think it might be for the TDIU, I try to apply for so many times and was told no... I was too low a percentage (they said I had to be at least 70%), though I have been unemployable since 1990. As usual they didn't give me an appointment anywhere close to my home, they made it a 180 miles round trip.

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  4. totally exhausted and sick almost al the time still. Sleeping a lot,, need sleep a lot. Can't see doctors,t he VA quit seeing us, along time ago and with this virus stuff, no help at all. My legs suffering in severe pain, and sometimes for weeks at a time I have to sleep with my feet touching the floor or else I can't sleep and scream in agony. PAD? I begged them to help with my legs. That seemed to have started when I was in a hospital bed most of a year unable to eat, and on a feeding tube, and unable to walk for one year. One year ago, in the summer, I had severe bronchitis and green slime filling my airways and puking green slime with high fever, the va refused to see me, and went to a local hospital where they took xrays and found bronchitis. With this virus the va basically told us to stay away and not go there.

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      retiredat44

      for now I am just regular sick,,, last summer was the summer of sever bronchitis, and they would not see me.. other people go on summer vacation... I spend it sick in bed... just saying the va will not help, and with the virus thing,, they won't help at all.... My legs are a little better,,, but if they go back to the pad suffering....  I don't know if my legs need some meds to stop the blood from clotting... or severe muscle cramps that keep me from not being able to sleep... just that the va should be helping us, and not keeping up away and refusing to help... why punish us because of the virus... next bad episode I will not have time to beg for help... I go down and feel like the va is punishing us vets... like we are suppose to not get sicker until the virus is gone... which is crazy...I hope they get my benefits finished so they can pay my daughter's schooling before I die... once I get too sick and die my family will not be able fight for the last 10% which would fix the problems of her school costs the va never paid... or maybe there are clogs in the legs which means something will come up and give me a stroke.... it gets very bad... and excruciating... at least I have not gotten that virus.... in a very small town away from the big cities.. Thanx for caring...I will get up and go outside,,, for a few minutes... I will get very tired and come back in pretty soon,,, cya later...

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  5. I still had some remands, and had a C&P for several issues January 2020, some issues going back to claims from the 1990's. I haven't wrote anything down in the forms, comments, because I don't know anything, yet.

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      retiredat44

      the va sent me an ssoc for the remaining issues, as they doctor shopped and kept sending me to c&p's until they got the answers they wanted.. like 10 c&p's over the last few years asking the same questions. the BVA would not answer my email about my new ssoc, and they finally answered saying they are all screwed up because of the virus and cannot respond yet, they are tying to get the employees to do some work from home. I sent in the tdiu, as I stated in my other thread from a couple days ago. the same tdiu I have asked them about and put ion my forms and begged for help over the decades, and did it myself,,, no more waiting for help. And faxed it to I guess it is in Wisconsin on the address and fax number on the official form. They are so invested in stopping me from getting full benefits they are trying every dirty trick.

  6. 10-06-19

    VA and my doctor when I lived in the VA:
    note: I suffered greatly and I had unexplained internal bleeding and six months of fighting fo rmy life. the doctors cut into a part of my body, that connects the liver and pancreas, 
    when I signed a paper giving permission to drain a large cyst onthe head of my pancreas. The internal bleeding lasted along time and went sepsis. I now see this doctor did un approved studies and I was one off the victims 
    at the VA. I had many, many conversations and exams done with Dr.Ho. I wrote along letter this past Summer, to the VA and Dr. Ho. about my disease and care, and the VA may have known about this criminal  case, but kept it from me.
    The VA in San Diego knew me, and sided with me and wrote me aletter I submitted to the BVA Judge shwoing that the health problems I suffer from the surgeries and care 'More than Likely' were from the the procedures from that VA Hospital.
    The BVA, who is suppose to make decsions on my disability claim ahs been draggin their feet and at decade hass passed while they drag their feet. The BVA also has other letter, (Independant Medical Opinions) that are used by legal arguements 
    showing professional opinions on whter some it either less like and more than likd=ely caused by this or that. The VA has al the time and deep pockets to get al the professional opinions paid for by the government and a Veteran much seek and 
    search out, pay for these out of their own pocket, and can cost into the tens of thousands of dollars, so the deck is stacked against cveterans who file disability claims. The VA , BVA Board of Veterans Appeals (sort of like a high court)
    for Veterans, which has almost the final word, with another court which can be apepaled at great expense if you can provide more evidence. Evidence is used like evidence to prove soemthing, sort of liie cycincally guilty uhntil proven innocent.
    So, I now find this exculpatory evidence that a big doctor who worked on me (for a long time) is in trouble for unauthorized medical work and studies on sick veterans. Me being one of those very sick veterans that has liver and pancreas disease and has procedures done by this
    very same doctor for along period of time as botu an inpatient and outpaitent.

    The short of it, if the VA/BVA knew and didn't tel me while I fight for my case, it is evil and wrong, if they didn't know they should have known. As I suiffered greatly over al these years and the same symptoms as described in the investigation.
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    https://inewsource.org/2019/10/01/veterans-affairs-investigation-san-diego/?fbclid=IwAR3dIVQi4xECowjvEJpaaJYKBdq7M-hK9_mCCgw-6wWLrs7xkzTAl8-KjKg
    =====
    said.
    Seven years of whistleblowing
    After learning the latest on the congressional hearing, Buck told her story for what seemed like the hundredth time.
    She was a liver researcher at the San Diego VA in 2013 — and a member of the VA’s research safety review board — when Dr. Samuel Ho proposed a study on veterans with alcoholic liver disease that would examine leftover biopsy tissue from the ill patients.
    As Buck read the research proposal, she grew concerned that Ho planned to perform medically unnecessary liver biopsies for the sake of research, putting the patients at risk of internal bleeding and other complications.
    Buck contacted her supervisors, warning them not to approve the study. It was approved anyway.
    “I was hopeful for like, I guess 15 minutes,” Buck said. “But when I started talking to the people that could have stopped this, they just kept patting me on the head pretty much and telling me, ‘It’s okay. You convinced us. We’re not going to do it that way now. But now we’re going to do it this way.’”
    Over the next five years, she and Chojkier reported their allegations to at least three federal agencies, were interviewed twice by the Office of the Medical Inspector and sent complaints to other research institutions involved in the study.

    Months after the medical inspector’s office issued a report on her allegations in early 2018, Ho retired from the VA and took a job at a university in Dubai. He and the VA researcher who took over the project, Dr. Bernd Schnabl, would not comment for this story, nor would a San Diego VA spokeswoman.
    The OMI’s investigation concluded that “no substantial danger to public health” occurred at the San Diego VA. But when the special counsel’s office reviewed that investigation, it said the OMI hadn’t fully addressed the whistleblowers’ allegations.
    The OMI had already issued two reports, but the special counsel’s office told the OMI reinvestigate and produce a third report, which is not publicly available yet.
    “These reports focus in so narrowly on small questions and miss the big questions, and it’s seriously concerning,” said C.K. Gunsalus, director of the National Center for Professional & Research Ethics, after reviewing the OMI’s investigation into the liver study. “They all have most of the hallmarks of really bad investigative reports that miss the mark.”
    An internal report from the San Diego VA obtained by inewsource in February verified Buck and Chojkier’s main complaint: medically unnecessary liver samples were taken from sick veterans without their permission. The report said “serious noncompliance occurred” during the research, which put patients at risk — contrary to what the medical inspector’s report had said.
    “It wasn’t professional,” Buck said about the OMI’s investigation. “It wasn’t what the veterans deserve. It wasn’t what the whistleblowers deserve. It wasn’t what the country deserves. I can’t imagine what they were thinking.”

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      retiredat44

      I am not sure what the hell is going on,, the bva has my case, and today my representative said she would send this info to the judge... she is no sure if they made a decision yet... I could get any lawyer to give me the time of day before...

      I have more to say.. and am suspicious about why the va gi clinic where both I was and that doctor wrote me an IMO a few months ago.... but maybe they knew and wrote the imo on my behalf because they know more about what happened to me... I sent a note to the investigators, not sure if they will contact me. I hate looking and talking to lawyers... the imo the va got against me basically said shit happens... that was before I found this.... they said even though they cut the wrong part and I never signed a release for anything other that to drain a cyst, accidently cutting t tube was still possible.... yeah right and this doctor is cutting off parts for his Frankenstein project and the va claims protects him... If only someone who knew what to could help... anytime I asked no one would pay attention.... Thanx for the thoughts...

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  7. I get so confused about the interaction and when the BVA sends remands back and forth... for a while, after I have my BVA hearing with the judge (my memory fading but I think it was 4 years ago..)..., he kept sending remands back to the VARO. I told the judge the VARO never read my documents.. so I sent the BVA some copies of summaries that were in the boxes of documents that VA already had for many years, but I would bet my life they were never read. I also resent the dental surgery documents (the judge told me I should, but also told him they refused me plea for help when t he intestinal disease destroyed my teeth 20 years ago, the surgeons wrote in the dental report that they were destroyed by the intestinal disease ). so anyways, sent the BVA those copies ( early last year) and this is the first year I never got an SSOC back from the VARO. Like I said, I only resent documents that they va never read, it was only way I could think of making them read them...By April of every year for the last few years I either had a C&P, an SSOC, denial, or other, this year (April in five days) and nothing has been sent to me, from BVA or the VARO, which means something is changed and I haven't been sent anything and no SSOC, which means to me, no denial. 

    When I looked at the Gov website,, I only see about remands in the past.... they always look like they are years behind in whatever they put on that website for our case.

    Apparently, I could get a letter from the BVA ? Or a letter from VARO, or both, or none? it could be today, tomorrow or ten years....

    If only they had one set of rules we could understand...

    Well at least I didn't get one of those SSOC's, which I suppose is good news,,, but the best news would be, that this two decade long nightmare would be over.... and I get what they stole...

     

    btw, I thought they would speed up your case if you have a deadly disease,,, wasn't so with me... (I asked them for in a letter)

    Necrotizing Pancreatitis, Budd Chiari Syndrome (liver disease), Splenic Vein Thrombosis and more.

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      retiredat44

      yeah,, I am scared of asking the 1-800 .... I honestly feel like I am still breaking... yes I hear you... I should,, I have no courage left... I feel like the times when the doctors told me there was no more hope and just count the days.... yes, this happened to me a few times...

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  8. I am still awaiting for the BVA to make decisions,, my claims have already been returned from remand to the BVA. Awaiting...... my BVA hearing was March 2016.

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      retiredat44

      MY original VA claim filing was in 1995-1997. Next group of filing 2009, after 6 month hospitalization.

       

      01-01-11_My_Medical_Records.jpg

  9. I have a bunch of C&P Exams to go to, for the remand. What pisses me off is that not only have I been under their care for 20 years, I lived as an inpatient for 6 months in the VA hospital... you would think that living there a long time would be enough! My C&P exams start this week and next week.

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      retiredat44

      One of the exams, neuro the doctor was a prick and would not listen...

      One doctor English was his second language , I could barely understand his thick Indian accent. I think the C&P exams are rigged, and a scam.

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  10. I have a bunch of C&P Exams to go to, for the remand. What pisses me off is that not only have I been under their care for 20 years, I lived as an inpatient for 6 months in the VA hospital... you would think that living there a long time would be enough! My C&P exams start this week and next week.

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      retiredat44

      I went to 3 C&P exams, and they were finished.. I know a couple should have been favorable, at least I thought so...

      Now they called me back and told me I have to redo one of those, they said that doctor is no longer there! I think they are trying to stop me from having a favorable exam! Has anyone had to go back and re-do an exam?

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  11. here is a link to a copy of the SOC they just sent me, I am trying to figure out how to send private messages here.. https://www.dropbox.com/s/srtkk0tu7oqfvx2/VA_Form9_Use_This_edit_scan0003.pdf?dl=0

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      retiredat44

      dammit, some pages are upside down, and have to be flipped other side, it canned both sides of the forms, so they have to be flipped using the adobe reader, or other... anyways I have to fill out the Form 9 and asks which evidence and type of hearing... I am having great problems thinking...

  12. I'm so tired of waking up in pain every morning.

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      retiredat44

      for many years I have not aonly awoken in pain every morning,b tu many nights I am awakened al the time,, every few hours.. and it is not just pain, it is illness, sickeness, feeling sick... if it's close to med time I reach for the meds and I am either up or try to sleep.. soemtimes I can't sleep for many, many hours, other times I can't get out of bed for several days... this is my life..

      pancreas pain combined with back pain... intestinal pain.. morphine helps... but it ju...

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  13. I'm so tired of waking up in pain every morning.

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      retiredat44

      for many years I have not aonly awoken in pain every morning,b tu many nights I am awakened al the time,, every few hours.. and it is not just pain, it is illness, sickeness, feeling sick... if it's close to med time I reach for the meds and I am either up or try to sleep.. soemtimes I can't sleep for many, many hours, other times I can't get out of bed for several days... this is my life..

      pancreas pain combined with back pain... intestinal pain.. morphine helps... but it ju...

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  14. VERY EXCITED & RELIEVEDVA has paid by local hospital bill from last year..Didn't help my PTSD very much- but now I can breathe a sign of relief!!!

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      retiredat44

      Iv'e been through that before.. it was hell when all the bills piled up and me sending copies to the va, and I was fighting for my life while all this was happening...

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  15. VERY EXCITED & RELIEVEDVA has paid by local hospital bill from last year..Didn't help my PTSD very much- but now I can breathe a sign of relief!!!

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      retiredat44

      Iv'e been through that before.. it was hell when all the bills piled up and me sending copies to the va, and I was fighting for my life while all this was happening...

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  16. My DRO Hearing date will be Dec. 8, 2010

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      retiredat44

      had SOC (only for 3 out out 6 issues)for dro hearing sent to me January 2011. Awaiting for DRO decisions. If I win any, I expect them any day, the rest are set to go to BVA hearing.

  17. Sleepy today, months of not sleeping is perhaps catching up on me. Sleeping all day, hopefully tomorrow my energy will come back. Just a long night last night.

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      retiredat44

      i have lost my energy for half of my life.. I can barely function.. I drag on every day only wanting ot lay down and rest,, to odrained to function,, can't sleep the whole time, and can barely move without chronic pain, fatigue, and just dragging my dead bones arouds.. some disease between my pancrease, muscle disease,, dystrophy... and eveything drains me so bad I wonder who and why I continue to survive,, it's maddening..

  18. While I await my DRO hearing coming very soon..

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      retiredat44

      also my story got cut off..

      that 46" LCD HDTV came through a contest I entered and won it 3 weeks before I went into the VA hospital for 6 months. I ended up spending the year in bed and when I got out that TV was wonderful and it still is!

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  19. While I await my DRO hearing coming very soon..

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      retiredat44

      I cannot get my story link to post correctly so here is the website: search for my story using the word TOXIC on the website:

      http://www.veteranstoday.com

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  20. While I await my DRO hearing coming very soon..

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      retiredat44

      While I await my DRO hearing, I have a couple things to say:

      first: I had my story published:

      http://www.veteranstoday.com/2010/10/26/chemical-exposure-one-veteranâ€%-99s-story/

      second:

      I have this picture of me with a big screen tv... with one of my combat flight simulators on it..

      the story that goes witht he big screen tv is:

      I was scheduled for a pancreas operation and I had entered a contest for a LCD HDTV, with my local cable company...

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  21. Denied! But the VA did not use all of my evidence! The overlookled and missed most of the evidence that was in my favor!

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      retiredat44

      In response to being denied on my VA Disability Claim.

      NOD response:

      In response to being denied on my VA Disability Claim.

      The Denial letter has no mention of the other chemicals I worked closely with for four and one-half years. The other chemicals in my claim were never investigated according to the Decision.

      As a Fuels Specialist and working with huge quantities of Jet Fuel (JP-4, diesel, and leaded gasoline). I was often soaked in fuel, as bein...

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  22. Well another day waiting on the VA

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      retiredat44

      I expect my rating to come around the end of September.. give or take.. until then,, I just stay sick and insane..

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  23. Hurry up and wait!

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      retiredat44

      Yep, hurry up and wait,, dammit...

  24. Waiting for my Claim Ratings results, I had my C&P exams in July 2010.

  25. stressing about my c and p exam

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      retiredat44

      I felt is if there was no way they could have read all my records and probably had no clue that I have enough records to spends months reading and a truck to haul them in.. so I felt shortchanged before I stepped into the c&p exam room... I still have no idea if the doctors read all my records..

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