retiredat44

You posted a question in 2012 asking about the TCE link and Parkisons.. well, it looks like they finally linked my exposure after all these years.. it still hasn't been rated, and more contentions to go... at least I can finally answer you with a better answer...

I found more info on my claim, seems way more up to date:

va.gov/track-claims/your-claims

I hate reading my case, and my files, it breaks me up, total despair from the hell.... it tears me apart...

and I know I sound like I am whining but everyone has a breaking point...

I was reading through a couple large boxes of my medical records and see the info on my docket number, and what they have written for the case, the judge, the BVA, etc..

I lived it, so when they write it loos so twisted and facts are often wrong, and look twisted to benefit them.... they also leave things out, gloss over, or make it look like am a bad guy...

there are a few instances where the judge did help me. I think, I really can't tell until all is done.

It rips my apart mentally makes me want to just fold up... It to much,,,, too, too much... it really hurts me to see an organization write whatever they want knowing that no one can change it, only they can. So, anything wrong, anything that should be change for the sake of decency, honesty, or benefits of the doubt is left as is never to be corrected.  It is like they consider us all liars…. but what really hurts us al is the way they have went from treating vets in wars that came before us, they look at us like we are less honorable and lie more.. and so they will make sure we get screwed, just because they can......if I am getting screwed, it has to be everyone..... it just can't be me? Hell, I never reported every injury, yet the ones I did report and have medical documents are still discarded and treated like the doctors lied too...

again, maybe my words will not be needed, maybe I will be vindicated... but I can honestly say given what I have been through, I could not have done much better in my fight... there were times I should have been going to see some BSO filing documents, but there were time I tried and was turned away... because they didn't have time or they just sucked, or they were no longer there and I was handed off like garbage into the trash.. lots of time lawyers saw my case and either told me they didn't want a case that took more than 1 or 2 years max... or they just would not talk... could not find doctors for IMO's no matter how much I tried.. and I was trying all while being extremely sick, in a wheel chair or fighting for my life.. The doctors for the IMO's were arrogant expensive and refused to follow the directing I needed for format. They were charging $2,0o0 dollars up front and $600.00 an inch, where I have many feet of documents.

I read my BVA docket and remands and it breaks me heart. I lived through all of  the hell, and the words do not convey it. Just pages of labs, doctors notes, progress reports... and like I said the BVA Judge, the VA, RO, VARO< well they do not read the documents, so what good did it do to sign the releases. I even sent some back as new, they didn't read them, so they qualify as new. At least that is my take on evidence. Evidence like I am on trial for being sick and injured.

MY father got out of the Navy at the end of Korea, never went to a doctor, 3o year later, he filed, they talked to one doctor and they gave him benefits, I spent my whole life trying to get help from doctors and they just screw me. That gives me the impression that older vets got more help and respect, newer vets the shaft. I could be wrong.

I read my case was finally put on a faster tract, Well, the last filings are 10 years old,, that is faster? (supposedly they put my case on the faster BVA tract, sped up  because of my circumstances of have deadly diseases.) I don't know, seems like it's on the slow boat. The surgeons honestly led me to believe that patched me up and I only had a few shorts years left. But I made it 2x longer.. I don't know why. But I can only lay around too sick to enjoy life. But I try a little. Food and drink and exercise al make me sick,,, doesn't leave much.

I get so confused about the interaction and when the BVA sends remands back and forth... for a while, after I have my BVA hearing with the judge (my memory fading but I think it was 4 years ago..)..., he kept sending remands back to the VARO. I told the judge the VARO never read my documents.. so I sent the BVA some copies of summaries that were in the boxes of documents that VA already had for many years, but I would bet my life they were never read. I also resent the dental surgery documents (the judge told me I should, but also told him they refused me plea for help when t he intestinal disease destroyed my teeth 20 years ago, the surgeons wrote in the dental report that they were destroyed by the intestinal disease ). so anyways, sent the BVA those copies ( early last year) and this is the first year I never got an SSOC back from the VARO. Like I said, I only resent documents that they va never read, it was only way I could think of making them read them...By April of every year for the last few years I either had a C&P, an SSOC, denial, or other, this year (April in five days) and nothing has been sent to me, from BVA or the VARO, which means something is changed and I haven't been sent anything and no SSOC, which means to me, no denial. 

When I looked at the Gov website,, I only see about remands in the past.... they always look like they are years behind in whatever they put on that website for our case.

Apparently, I could get a letter from the BVA ? Or a letter from VARO, or both, or none? it could be today, tomorrow or ten years....

If only they had one set of rules we could understand...

Well at least I didn't get one of those SSOC's, which I suppose is good news,,, but the best news would be, that this two decade long nightmare would be over.... and I get what they stole...

btw, I thought they would speed up your case if you have a deadly disease,,, wasn't so with me... (I asked them for in a letter)

Necrotizing Pancreatitis, Budd Chiari Syndrome (liver disease), Splenic Vein Thrombosis and more.

looks like my appeals went to the BVA judge, for the last time. after two remands that took two years... I sent in a bunch of new documents in to the judge (through my P.O.A.), I did not trust the R.O. to read them, or care about them. I feel better with the BVA judge than the whole R.O. that screwed it all up since day one. The BVA judge get's it back in his hands in April 2018.

Necrotizing pancreatitis, Portal and Splenic vein thrombosis. neurological disorders, uncontrollable movements. Spent 6 months in a VA hospital bed 2008, year in a wheel chair, learned to walk and eat again after 6 months on feeding tube. Latest 2017, Now add Epstein-Barr virus, more tests show it too, as I knew my immune system is bad. and am too sick often to do much at all.... still have to go to the liver clinic later this month, need a liver biopsy. Spleen is enlarged too. 

I am still awaiting for the BVA to make decisions,, my claims have already been returned from remand to the BVA. Awaiting...... my BVA hearing was March 2016.

I have a bunch of C&P Exams to go to, for the remand. What pisses me off is that not only have I been under their care for 20 years, I lived as an inpatient for 6 months in the VA hospital... you would think that living there a long time would be enough! My C&P exams start this week and next week.

here is a link to a copy of the SOC they just sent me, I am trying to figure out how to send private messages here.. https://www.dropbox.com/s/srtkk0tu7oqfvx2/VA_Form9_Use_This_edit_scan0003.pdf?dl=0

waiting for my DRO hearing decision, on at least 3 out of 6 issues... I think at least 3 were no dendied at the dro hearing, the other three maybe going to BVA.. but need verification some frakkin day whent he VA DRO actually gives a decison ont he three that never got an SOC... one year ago was that hearing..

waiting for my DRO hearing decision, on at least 3 out of 6 issues... I think at least 3 were no dendied at the dro hearing, the other three maybe going to BVA.. but need verification some frakkin day whent he VA DRO actually gives a decison ont he three that never got an SOC... one year ago was that hearing..

still waiting for a frakkin decision, sent a letter 2x to my vso asking her to find outif I qualify for my case to be advanced due to illness, no reply... from anyone..

still waiting for a frakkin decision, sent a letter 2x to my vso asking her to find outif I qualify for my case to be advanced due to illness, no reply... from anyone..

Diverticulitis is my latest diagnosis, adding to my already long list of misery...

Diverticulitis is my latest diagnosis, adding to my already long list of misery...

in month 10 of waiting for the DRO to make a decsion on my DRO hearing from Dec. 8, 2010. Just how long does it frakkin take to make a decision? wtf are they doing at the San Diego Region Office?

in month 10 of waiting for the DRO to make a decsion on my DRO hearing from Dec. 8, 2010. Just how long does it frakkin take to make a decision? wtf are they doing at the San Diego Region Office?

My DRO Hearing date will be Dec. 8, 2010

I suffer from tremors and shaking,,I was treated by doctors in and out of the military.. I have balance polems and weak muscles.. sometimes I break down if I try to much pysical activity and just beome a shaking mass of flesh...

I have more appointments with neuro doctors. Nurses kept asking if I have Parkinsons,, Maybe MS I think, but Neuro doctor says I have Myotonic Dystrophy.

While I await my DRO hearing coming very soon..

my website:

http://virtualairforce.byethost11.com/

My new VSO is gfetting me a BVA video hearing with Wash DC office in a few motnsh for my appeal. She wil also represtn me int he hearing, and she has my IMO and says it is a good IMO... Things maybe looking up and when the BVA appeal hearing happens, I will update.. I jus tneed patience and to keep al my appointments and don't do anything stupid when I feel low..,, I must push forward.... thank everyone here..

Denied! But the VA did not use all of my evidence! The overlookled and missed most of the evidence that was in my favor!

Waiting for my Claim Ratings results, I had my C&P exams in July 2010.