carl1124

I left hand and arm are in pain the doctor said it was C5 and C7. Not are they in pain but I keep dropping things I lose my grip all the time and if feels like it pin and needles. As for Service connected to my back no I just fell on some ice in the parking lot. I don't qualify for SSDI because in is going to be less then a year I hope.

I am not sure if I am in the place here so forgive if I am not. Right now I unable to work. I took a fall in mid Dec. and herniated disc in my neck I spent time in the ER room here at the Portland VA and my Doctor put me out of work till at least Feb 7. I went last week to Neurosurgeon at the VA hospital and was told I need surgery, The Neurosurgeon called today and told me it will be at least 6mos till I can get in for the Surgery. I am 40% rated Service connected for my back at 20%, 10% for my hearing and 10% for botched surgery while in the Navy for lower pain said for hernia. My job told me that I am going to loss my job today. I don't what to do I don't meet the SSDI and it will take to long. Any suggestion. Help.

Try 4 disc bulge in the neck my left had works just sometimes and not. Been waiting for 2 weeks to see a doctor been to the VA ER room here in Portland 2 times due to pain being so bad that I can not sleep and vomit due to the pain. Going it to Shock. The ER Doctor did X ray and a Cat scan, MRI till the figured out what was going on. I am not going bitch about the Care I received it was free. If I had to pay OSH for this care I would be paying till I die.

I am not going to file a claim for myself and PSTD and MST. It happen too long ago I have very little of medical records. I got a hold of my VA medical records the doctors made me look nuts there is shit in there that I never even said. So why drive my self over the edge about it. There is nothing I can do about. They have all the power as I am finding out. Hell I can not even get a Veteran Service Office to call me back, I have been to their Office I don't think they even work they are never there:. Good luck.

I don't think I have a leg to stand on when I file this claim. All I have is my behavior change and my alcohol rehab after that spent about 8 years just going from command to command keeping my head low so very few would notice me. I don't know what more I need to win a ptsd claim.

Okay I am about to file a claim with the VA about for my MST. I never reported it due back in 1986 the command would have found out and being Diego Garcia was not the best place to be and have no support system. I went to alcohol and drug rehabilitation about a year later. I kept quite about what happen to just about 2 month ago. I am now seeing a VA counseling. No I don't see her enough. I take antidepressants daily for about two year now. I guess what I am asking is how do I prove my case.

I need a Service Office I have called and left messages and emails to my county VA. Servicer Officer, DAV, VFW. No one ever calls me back I can not get a hold of any one. I need to open a new claim and try to get old one uped from 10%. Any help out there.

I hate my bad dreams I went to bed 12am and up at 3am. The older I get the harder it is.

Well the V.A has seen me and is taken care of me now with M/H. They went me come in Once a month. I don't know if I am going to put in claim on PDST yet. Just going to see the Doctor was hard on me did not sleep the night before at all.

I called and called today to get appt. and they said that are going to call me back at 3:30 today. every time I call they never call me back.

So I called and got put on hold and then I was told that someone would call me back some time soon.

One of my big problems I have is talking to anyone about. I am going to call and ask to see Social worker and get things going.

Up till about a 2 week ago I have never talk about this, but it has affected my life with ever thing I do. I was 20 I was station in Diego Garcia. I was sitting on the beach when I was Sexual assault by two men. After that I started drinking hard and end up in Rehab for 6 weeks. I still did not talk about then I was a fearfully that I would get kick out of the Navy for being nuts or homosexual, "Please remember that was 1986 and the Military was on the hunt for any one that might be gay". I am unable to hold a job for 2 years at time and now take Citalopram for depression. At times my depression is so bad I think it would be easier if I just ended it all. I have all kinds problems when it comes to men. I don't trust many people and sit in my computer room most days. I feel safest when no one is around me and God help anyone that sneaks up on me. I have real bad mood swings . Last week I went to the V.A. and told them what happen and the meds. I take. Who did I get for a Doctor was retired Navy Capt. that did not know what to say or act. He looked at me like I was some kind of freak. I know that I need help with this I can not do by myself any more. It has taken 20 years to talk about it, and taken so much of my life away from me. There is so much help out there for women, but I am finding very little help for men. :(