roger 63sierra.
I am panicking like a little pansy, especially given I have a wife and daughter, but without my VA benefit I don't see a way of making things work. The second Doctor was actually telling me about cuts to medicare and impeding cuts to the VA system since its unsustainable (I am SSDI as well). I might have overreacted to the whole situation, however it still feels like they think I am "ok" simply because I went to school from 2009-2010 at the University of Miami and graduated with a 3.6 GPA I majored in history, but I had no friends and spent my entire time reading journals (which is what I do now, but I have not been able to write effectively in since early in 2010). I actively avoid people, in fact the VA in wpb I have been avoiding since I moved to jupiter, fl in 2011..
I am also angry/concerned because my wife did not go in with me, even though she is my caregiver and my right hand who does EVERYTHING for me.. today was just one big xxxx up on my part. I know better, as I have lurked these forums for years.. I did everything wrong and now I will probably lose it all.
thank you guys for your supportive comments btw, I already feel better.. I still feel like i am xxxxxx, but at least there is a silver lining: My wife was told to submit a dbq or something asking for TBI instead of the labrynthitis since she had gone in after I stormed out of the internist office. I don't know what that is or how it will affect my claim, maybe someone here knows about that?