grunt0311sf

i just recieved my c&p results im 70% mdd with secondary ptsd, 20% lowerback, 20% left shoulder. I also have bi-lateral hip arthritis which was caused in service but they deny it. I spent 2 months in the va hospital under the dual diagnoisis program which they kept me an extra month. Before the 2 months there I have been recieving out patient care for over five years. My regular therapist and doctor requested me to up my percent. While in treatment the counslers put me in for unemployability before I did my exams. I did recieve a unemployabilty paper in my decision package dont know if that matters. My gaf score is 40. I also did neuro testing which i was diagnoided with mild cognitive disorder nos, closed head injury. I thought after you had the rating to meet the criteria for iu you automatically recieved it. Iam happy I visited this site now I have a little more heads up of what I have to do. I have delivered pizzas for the most my time out of service, which I cant do it any longer I cant I told the counslers I would put a bullette in my head before I ever do that job again. So I do look for work but I cant find a damn thing I can do. I've went to college 3 seperate times but didnt make it due to concentration problems. I have no where to go. I need to be able to live without worrying without feeling guilty for how my life has turned out after my disability happened. I guess if the veterans could find me a job I could do and was gainful and give my quality of life back somewhat. Granted no one cant stop pain and most everyone in here knows that, and that will always be with most of us, we should still be able to live a life with some promise. I'm not going to count my chickens before their hatched all i can do is hope for the best. In final do I have to go through a c&p exam again.