Yesterday I relized that it had been eight years since I walked out of work to join the military (Not that I wasn't planning to do so any ways. but when the towers fell I felt I had no choice but to step up for my family and country. I could have held out and got some college for a higher pay grade upon entry, but the times did call.
I injured my back during training, I finished all of my academics but could not complet the phyisical tests. needless to say I was Med. boarded out against my will. like most trainees that get med boarded It was grilled into me that I was useless. I tried to stay in, thinking that if bruce LEE could come back from a back injury so could I.
It was decided by the VA that I am 20% disabeled. being trained in the medical field I found that to be wrong, so I appealed to no avail(they raised one rating while dropping another). I spent years trying to fit back into normal society, failing every time. How can a person that is trained to have there hands inside another humans body, under fire, ever fit in.
So I decided that I would try Vocational Rehabiltation. Maybe I thought, maybe there might be a away. but after two years of waiting I am still unemployed, barely making it by.
When I first went to VOC Rehab, all I needed was a computer, and schooling. every time I go and see my Voc Rehab counsler I get sent back to the doctors. whom either dont care, or tell me the same thing that I wont get better just worse.
at times I hoped that the VA would see my plights and "Be like oops out bad" and raise my percentage.
I guess I just don't know what to do. I don't fit in, I've gone crazy, and I... just need help.
Lawrence E. Seward