mrs rockman (widow of vet)

WOW!...The temperature in my driveway was 111!!. Now after reading this, no grass cutting today..just a cold glass of iced tea!

I just want to say that I hope everyone has a good week and good claim results..

Today is Mother's Day and with this I would like to wish all mothers out there a happy and healthy day!!

Well...Today I turned 63..such a bittersweet day. This is the first birthday in 30 years that I have not spent it with Rockman! Even though he is in my heart, it just is not quite the same.

I just feel so Blessed to have this wonderful site...it makes me want to tear up a bit, but then it also makes me smile! I know I will never give up and now research is on for more action!

Well...it has now been 7 months 8 days..some days are super clear & then some days I am still in a giant fog. This site is such a Blessing..Thank you all!!

Today I started a three week Genealogy class and so far I am really loving it!

Well...now I am about to begin my second six month period of grieving as a widow of such a FANTASTIC Vietnam Veteran, Husband, Father, & also big brother!! Yes, I am still profoundly grieving, but I am trying to begin to be able to start"organize" things in my house.

I am so excited...My DIC came through today! Now, I can begin to relax some!!

Well..I made it through my first Valentine's Day..one small milestone, but a milestone anyway. Taking it one day at a time.

I am so very sad right now with Valentine's Day coming up Thursday! Rockman may not be with me physically, but he will always be in my heart!!

The Hospice Grievance Support Group tonight was sooo good! I did not care about "opening up" in front of strangers, buy I can tell you that I had no problem with it at all! I wish I had gone earlier and cannot wait to go back in two weeks!!

With my DIC "waiting" mess, I am glad tonight is my first Group Grievance session with Hospice. Boy do I need it tonight!!

Well.. I made it through the holidays..it was rough, but I am trying to think of something positive everyday. I begin my grievance counseling next week through Hospice and I am so ready for this and really excited!

I am just hoping I will be able to get through the holidays this year! It will be the first time in 29 years that Rockman and I have not celebrated the holidays together!

I am just putting one foot in front of the other and I am only taking one day at a time!! We had Rockman's Celebration / Memorial on Nov. 24th & was a beautiful tribute to him. H e had a Military Ceremony and his nephew was in the Honor Guard and was the one who presented me with the flag. Now is the timee to try and start the long healing process! I love you Rockman!

Hooray! I have finally completed my DIC application and have it mailed off! This is now one less thing that I have to concentrate on & a Big Thank-You goes out to all who tried to explain to me the process..I was a little dense in getting it figured out!!

Thank-you Hadit-Getting help with my DIC filing and my dumb questions!! I am trying to not make easy hard, but at this point in my life- life is a bit confusing!!

Well- I went to my first Teleconference for my grievance counseling. It went better than I had thought, for I really did dread going today. All I have to do is call the chaplain and tell him when I need to talk again. The worksheet really did help explain the grieving process where I can understand. Cannot wait until I go again!

With my Grievance Counseling starting this Friday-I am so worried that I may just "go to pieces" there! I know that this will be a first step in the healing process and one that I do need to take. Thank you all for your support and kind words! I will post after my counseling.

Good News! I can now get grievance counseling through Telehealth at Rockman's CBOC! Finally I talked to the chaplain service at the VAMC!

I'm very anxious today. I am on my way to the Health Department to pick up copies of Rockman's Death Certificate. I know when I actually see it in writing, the I know for sure that this is "real" and not some sort of a dream that I am in. Prayers are needed this way!

Well- I made it through Friday, the 28th, Rockman's would have been 63rd Birthday! This was so hard, but his sister & I put candles on a Birthday cake for him and sang him Happy Birthday!

I just have to get through Friday, Sept. 28th! Rockman would have turned 63! This is such a difficult journey and I miss him more every day! I love you David!

I wanted to post an abstract picture that our daughter,the photographer, took of her dad in July 2012. I wanted there to be a "face" to his story! I miss you so much, David!!