ptsd I Am Back

[calnight]

OK.

THINGS HAVE BEEN GOING ALRIGHT IT HAS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR AND A HALF SINCE GETTING THE IU. THANKS TO EVERYONE HEAR AT HADIT. THE VA HAS LEFT ME ALONE JUST THE ONCE A YEAR LETTER ASKING ME IF I HAD BEEN WORKING. BEEN SEEING MY VA SHINK ABOUT EVERY 3 MONTHS LIKE TO SEE HIM MORE BUT ITS A 160 MILE ROUND TRIP FOR ME. I MADE SURE TO TELL HIM ABOUT THE MCDONALDS INCIDENT I HAD. I LIVE IN VERY SMALL TOWN POP 5000 SO I GO TO THE LOCAL AND ONLY MCDONALDS IN TOWN TO GET THE KIDS THERE FOOD WELL GET HOME OF COURSE THEY FORGOT THE NUGGETS. SO THE PTSD WAS ALREADY INFLAMED THAT DAY SOMEDAYS ARE WORSE THAN OTHERS. LEFT THE KIDS AT HOME DROVE BACK TO THE MCDEES WENT INSIDE AND WENT POSTAL. NOW REMIND YOU ITS LUNCH HOUR ITS PACKED. IT WAS NOT A PRETTY SIGHT. AND OF COURSE THERE WAS SOMEONE TELLING ME TO SHUT UP ANOTHER CUSTOMER. WELL IT WAS ON WE STEPED OUTSIDE AND LETS SAY WHEN IT WAS DONE HE WAS NOT STANDING. THE MANAGER REFUSED TO COME OUTSIDE DONT BLAME HIM. WELL I LEFT BEFORE THE COPS CAME. AND NOW I CANT GO TO THAT MCDONALDS ANY MORE. AND WHEN IT WAS ALL OVER AND I CALMED DOWN I FELT LIKE SHIT ALL OVER NUGGETS. MY WIFE WAS PISSED. ITS HARD TO EXPLAIN BUT ITS LIKE A SWITCH ONCE ITS TURNED ON IT CANNOT BE TURNED OFF. BUT EVERY TIME I HAVE OUTBURST LIKE THIS MOST ARE NOT THIS SEVER AFTER I CALM DOWN I FEEL HORRIBLE. I LOOK BACK AND THINK HOW STUPID THAT WAS AND WHAT A IDIOT I LOOKED LIKE. PTSD SUCKS. NOW I HAVE REALLY GOOD VA SHRINK ANYONE WHO IS ARE IS GOING THE VA MENTAL HEALTH IN RENO LET ME KNOW THIS GUY AS BEEN ON MY SIDE ALL THE WAY. DR. VANBIBER IS HIS NAME. I TELL HIM THIS STORY AT HE STARTS LAUGHING AND TELLS ME NOT TO GO TO ANY MORE MCDONALDS. AND THEN TELLS ME TO STOP WORKING OUT. EVER SINCE I STOPED WORKING I HAVE BEEN WORKING OUT 5 DAYS AWEEK. BENCHING OVER 300LBS. I AM IN BETTER SHAPE NOW THEN WHEN IN THE CORP. ITS MY DRUG OF CHOICE FOR MY PTSD. IT GETS ALOT OF THE ANGER OUT. BUT HAS FAR AS THE MCDONALDS INCIDENT IT MAKES GREAT MEDICAL EVIDENCE JUST IN CASE THEY WANT TO REVIEW ME. THANKS EVERYONE.

[john999]

Cal

It sounds like your frustration level is really low. Are you taking any drugs that might be driving you? Some of these things will put you on edge. Just don't carry any bats or guns in your car.

[calnight]

Cal

It sounds like your frustration level is really low. Are you taking any drugs that might be driving you? Some of these things will put you on edge. Just don't carry any bats or guns in your car.

HEY JOHN,

THIS IS ALIST OF DRUGS THE VA GOT ME ON. I DONT TAKE ANY THING ELSE NOTHING ILLEGALL.

MIRTAZAPINE 15MG

CLONAZEPAM 1MG

QUETIAPINE FUMARATE 100MG

CITALOPRAM HYDRBRMIDE 40MG

NO GUNS JUST FORKS AND SPOONS

[bm6546]

OK.

THINGS HAVE BEEN GOING ALRIGHT IT HAS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR AND A HALF SINCE GETTING THE IU. THANKS TO EVERYONE HEAR AT HADIT. THE VA HAS LEFT ME ALONE JUST THE ONCE A YEAR LETTER ASKING ME IF I HAD BEEN WORKING. BEEN SEEING MY VA SHINK ABOUT EVERY 3 MONTHS LIKE TO SEE HIM MORE BUT ITS A 160 MILE ROUND TRIP FOR ME. I MADE SURE TO TELL HIM ABOUT THE MCDONALDS INCIDENT I HAD. I LIVE IN VERY SMALL TOWN POP 5000 SO I GO TO THE LOCAL AND ONLY MCDONALDS IN TOWN TO GET THE KIDS THERE FOOD WELL GET HOME OF COURSE THEY FORGOT THE NUGGETS. SO THE PTSD WAS ALREADY INFLAMED THAT DAY SOMEDAYS ARE WORSE THAN OTHERS. LEFT THE KIDS AT HOME DROVE BACK TO THE MCDEES WENT INSIDE AND WENT POSTAL. NOW REMIND YOU ITS LUNCH HOUR ITS PACKED. IT WAS NOT A PRETTY SIGHT. AND OF COURSE THERE WAS SOMEONE TELLING ME TO SHUT UP ANOTHER CUSTOMER. WELL IT WAS ON WE STEPED OUTSIDE AND LETS SAY WHEN IT WAS DONE HE WAS NOT STANDING. THE MANAGER REFUSED TO COME OUTSIDE DONT BLAME HIM. WELL I LEFT BEFORE THE COPS CAME. AND NOW I CANT GO TO THAT MCDONALDS ANY MORE. AND WHEN IT WAS ALL OVER AND I CALMED DOWN I FELT LIKE SHIT ALL OVER NUGGETS. MY WIFE WAS PISSED. ITS HARD TO EXPLAIN BUT ITS LIKE A SWITCH ONCE ITS TURNED ON IT CANNOT BE TURNED OFF. BUT EVERY TIME I HAVE OUTBURST LIKE THIS MOST ARE NOT THIS SEVER AFTER I CALM DOWN I FEEL HORRIBLE. I LOOK BACK AND THINK HOW STUPID THAT WAS AND WHAT A IDIOT I LOOKED LIKE. PTSD SUCKS. NOW I HAVE REALLY GOOD VA SHRINK ANYONE WHO IS ARE IS GOING THE VA MENTAL HEALTH IN RENO LET ME KNOW THIS GUY AS BEEN ON MY SIDE ALL THE WAY. DR. VANBIBER IS HIS NAME. I TELL HIM THIS STORY AT HE STARTS LAUGHING AND TELLS ME NOT TO GO TO ANY MORE MCDONALDS. AND THEN TELLS ME TO STOP WORKING OUT. EVER SINCE I STOPED WORKING I HAVE BEEN WORKING OUT 5 DAYS AWEEK. BENCHING OVER 300LBS. I AM IN BETTER SHAPE NOW THEN WHEN IN THE CORP. ITS MY DRUG OF CHOICE FOR MY PTSD. IT GETS ALOT OF THE ANGER OUT. BUT HAS FAR AS THE MCDONALDS INCIDENT IT MAKES GREAT MEDICAL EVIDENCE JUST IN CASE THEY WANT TO REVIEW ME. THANKS EVERYONE.

Hello calnight, Just curious about you having to drive 160 miles round trip to Reno to see the VA shrink. I also live the same as you from Reno in Calif. Are you in GV or Aub. I am having problems finding a VA shrink at the Aub clinic to stay in 1 place long enough to introduce ourselves with the exception of travelling to Reno. I'm not a big fan of travelling to Reno on the van except I can't drive there myself because of my conditions. Anyway, just curious how you got hooked up with the shrink in Reno. They wouldn't let me go to any of the shrinks in Reno but they didn't have any available in Aub. Imagine that!!

Thanks in advance for any help....Brian

[yoggie2]

Glad to see you back! wondered where you went.

[calnight]

Hello calnight, Just curious about you having to drive 160 miles round trip to Reno to see the VA shrink. I also live the same as you from Reno in Calif. Are you in GV or Aub. I am having problems finding a VA shrink at the Aub clinic to stay in 1 place long enough to introduce ourselves with the exception of travelling to Reno. I'm not a big fan of travelling to Reno on the van except I can't drive there myself because of my conditions. Anyway, just curious how you got hooked up with the shrink in Reno. They wouldn't let me go to any of the shrinks in Reno but they didn't have any available in Aub. Imagine that!!

Thanks in advance for any help....Brian

I LIVE IN SUSANVILLE THE CLOSEST RO IS RENO ABOUT 80 MILES ONE WAY. I BELIEVE DR VANBIBER GOES TO THE AUBURN CLINIC NOT SURE. CALL THE VA HOSPITAL IN RENO ASK THE OPERATOR TO TRANSFER YOU TO MENTAL HEALTH DEPT. SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TOLEAVE A MESSAGE THEY WILL GET BACK TO YOU. ASK IF DR.VANBIBER GOES TO AUBURN OR IF YOU CAN BE SEEN BY HIM. WELL WORTH THE DRIVE VERY GOOD DOCTOR SEEMS TO BE ON THE VETERANS SIDE MORE THAN THE VA. I HAVE SEEN 3 DIFFERENT VA SHRINKS BEFORE HIM ALL WERE ASSHOLES. ALSO THERE ARE NO CLINCS CLOSER THAN RENO I THINK THE CLOSEST IS IN REDDING OR CHICO BOTH ARE OVER A 100 MILES FROM ME. THAT IS WHY THEY ARE TELLING YOU HAVE TO GO TO AUBURN SINCE ITS CLOSEST TO YOU BUT I WOULD FIGHT TO BEEN SEEN BY WHO EVER YOU WANT. ITS ABOUT A 2-3 MONTH WAIT FOR DR. VANBIBER WE ALL KNOW MENTAL HEALTH IS OVERLOADED RIGHT NOW. JUST TELL RENO YOU REALLY NEED TO TALK TO A DOCTOR AND AUBURN HAS NONE AVAIBLE.

[Pete53]

Calnight:

Glad that you are back on Hadit and also happy that you are getting good treatment.

As far as McDonald Nugget Adventure it appears to me you learned from it so that is good and the fact that you were able to get yourself extracted is also positive.

They sell pretty good chicken nuggets in the grocery store and you can heat them in oven. Another tip is we buy a lot of takeout from a local Texas Hamburger place and if they short me I write a note and tell them they owe me 1 Large Fry or whatever and they always give it to me so that is a remedy.

[bozoc]

Calnight,

I can sympathize with you. I see the shrink on a regular basis and take psych medicine and it has made a huge difference to my well being. However, I can still completely lose it now and then and I scare even myself when I do.

We live way out in the country. I was walking my two large dogs down to the mailbox one afternoon a couple of months ago. The dogs are a Presa Canario and an American Bulldog. They are large and look very intimidating but are fully trained and have never hurt a fly.

This huge guy who I have met before saw us and stopped at my gate and waited on us to get there. He doesn't live out here but he has land and cows just down the road. I have only been out here for two years but from stories I have been told by others this guy has been intimidating folks out this way for years. He is very large and physically imposing.

When we got to the gate he got out of his truck. The first thing he said was if he ever saw my dogs around his place he would shoot them. I quickly told him he was talking about members of my family and if he ever harmed them in any way he might as well commit suicide because I would find him and kill him dead right where he was standing. There would be no discussion and no time for explanations. The bad thing about it was I was deadly serious. I then told him if anything ever happened to my dogs, whether he was involved or not, I would kill him. So it was in his best interest to look after my dogs like they were his own.

I carry a 45 automatic in my back pocket when I'm out walking our place (45 acres). He started walking quickly back to his truck and reached in and picked something up. I thought to myself that here it comes. I had my hand in my back pocket and had taken the safety off my 45. He walked back around the truck and had a Walmart plastic bag in his hand. He handed it to me and said "I want you to have something". Inside the bag was a huge lot of brand new fishing lures. I looked at them and said thank you very much. He has never stopped again but he waves every time I see him and I wave back.

I felt a little bad after he left but I wanted him to have no doubts whatsoever about leaving me and my family alone. I am afraid if I had't been receiving treatment I would have just shot him off the bat. So I guess my story is like yours. I have gotten somewhat better but I don't think I will ever be normal in many ways.

[Wings]

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I just came back from a run and hide mission on the coast; left last Tuesday when visibility was 100ft for all the forest fire smoke. I'm in Nevada County, CA. Susanville is also in the thick of it, right; thousands of acres burning . . . Got myself and my daughter packed in less than 1 hour and got outta dodge quick! The fire season has me hypervigilent 24x7 all summer long!

Anyway, I had to use a public restroom on the coast; the concrete floors were covered in 1 inch of water, with no warning signs. I slipped and fell on my backside and hip. The county worker with shiney new truck and hella nice government job LAUGHED at me out loud. I tore him a new one: said I would sue his azz so fast his head would spin, told him I'd have him fired in no time flat. I mean I was ANGRY and let him know CLEARLY that I meant business. He PROMISED to get a sign that warned old folks like me they might fall and hurt themselves. I was rational until he laughed at me. It was a rough week with the 13 y/o teenager and 2 dogs traveling . . . Use my Base ID, and stayed at the Coast Guard Training Center in Petaluma (3 dollars per night, ate in the Galley for 2-3 dollars per meal) ... And 100% ers get FREE STATE PARK priveledges in California. Sometimes it's good to get away cheap if you use your benefits. Sure felt good to come home though.

~~Wings

Edited July 5, 2008 by Wings (see edit history)

[john999]

Paxil is a good drug to take away those homicidal impulses. It lets you laugh at them instead of wanting to kill them. I need to take some now since my neighbors are shooting off fireworks.

[Wings]

Paxil is a good drug to take away those homicidal impulses. It lets you laugh at them instead of wanting to kill them. I need to take some now since my neighbors are shooting off fireworks.

Fireworks are plain ol' stupid, and a massive trigger for vets who have seen the real deal. Stay safe John. take some Ppaxil and wear earplugs! ~Wings

[Pete53]

WIngs hope that your backside feels better.

[Wings]

WIngs hope that your backside feels better.

Thanks Pete! I got plenty of padding lol! But my hip hurts a little, time for that osteo exam! How are you and Mrs Pete doing in the heat this year? ~~Wings

[Pete53]

Wings:

As you know summer I am not at my best but I have learned that there is more than one way to skin a cat. Two years ago when I had 600 and 700 electric bills we put more insulation in attic, we added a power ventilator late last year and we have 2 window units that are high efficiency for our bedroom and computer room.

Our big a/c is used very sparingly and actually turned off most of time. Right now with temps near 100 it actually runs about 1 to 3 hours total a day. Its turned off at night also.

Looking back I think that the high cost of electricity was part of my stress. When the State of Texas regulated the electric companies my electricity cost 4 cents a kilowatt. Now that we have been deregulated it costs me 14.65 cents and when my contract is up the going rate will be 18 cents or more.

The funny thing for me is that with panic disorder I have always had to adapt. I shop in grocery store at 3 AM to avoid crowds and usually don't go to public places unless I take my dog or I am with family.

Next week my sisters are coming from Mexico and El Paso and we are planning a trip to Ft Worth to look at an Art Exhibition on the Impressionists. The plan is to go very early in morning and if I feel bad I will just go out to car and wait. It does not get to hot before 11 or 12 even using daylight savings time.

Its only 92 right now and not to bad. I don't consider it hot in Dallas till it hits 95.

The good part is everyone in my family are doing good. My Uncle who is 88 has cancer and refuses more chemo and I have a younger cousin with cancer responding well to his treatment. I am the oldest of 56 Grandkids and we are all still here so far. We have 5 aunts and uncles in their late 80's hanging in there living pretty good lives till late 70's and 80's.

My cousin is making a painting for us of my first granddaughter. Our new puppy is now almost 4 months old and I plan to make her a bona fide service dog that can go with me anywhere.

I am even considering a really radical idea in October of going to my High School Reunion which would be the first one in 46 years for me.I have had Panic Disorder now for 39 years but its been depression that kicks my ass in summer. I still have not figured that out.

Best to you and yours,

Pete

[Wings]

Wings:

As you know summer I am not at my best but I have learned that there is more than one way to skin a cat. Two years ago when I had 600 and 700 electric bills we put more insulation in attic, we added a power ventilator late last year and we have 2 window units that are high efficiency for our bedroom and computer room.

Our big a/c is used very sparingly and actually turned off most of time. Right now with temps near 100 it actually runs about 1 to 3 hours total a day. Its turned off at night also.

Looking back I think that the high cost of electricity was part of my stress. When the State of Texas regulated the electric companies my electricity cost 4 cents a kilowatt. Now that we have been deregulated it costs me 14.65 cents and when my contract is up the going rate will be 18 cents or more.

The funny thing for me is that with panic disorder I have always had to adapt. I shop in grocery store at 3 AM to avoid crowds and usually don't go to public places unless I take my dog or I am with family.

Next week my sisters are coming from Mexico and El Paso and we are planning a trip to Ft Worth to look at an Art Exhibition on the Impressionists. The plan is to go very early in morning and if I feel bad I will just go out to car and wait. It does not get to hot before 11 or 12 even using daylight savings time.

Its only 92 right now and not to bad. I don't consider it hot in Dallas till it hits 95.

The good part is everyone in my family are doing good. My Uncle who is 88 has cancer and refuses more chemo and I have a younger cousin with cancer responding well to his treatment. I am the oldest of 56 Grandkids and we are all still here so far. We have 5 aunts and uncles in their late 80's hanging in there living pretty good lives till late 70's and 80's.

My cousin is making a painting for us of my first granddaughter. Our new puppy is now almost 4 months old and I plan to make her a bona fide service dog that can go with me anywhere.

I am even considering a really radical idea in October of going to my High School Reunion which would be the first one in 46 years for me.I have had Panic Disorder now for 39 years but its been depression that kicks my ass in summer. I still have not figured that out.

Best to you and yours,

Pete

Pete, Be radical, you've earned it ;-)

That kind of electric bill would have me panicked as well. You seem to be a very rational man, keep plugging away at cost savings ideas, I appreciate your sharing what you have learned. I try to avoid crowds at all costs, so you'll prolly see me in the grocery at 4-5am, but now 3AM is just twilight zone lol! HUGS!! ~Wings

[bozoc]

Pete, I love your attitude, your tenacity, your knowledge of the process and your compassion for others on this board. You sound like a great guy with a wonderful family. Not to mention you are a fellow Texan. The heat around Smithville in south central Texas has just been stifiling this summer. We haven't had a drop of rain in weeks now.

Wings, if that is your real picture, you don't look like "old folks". I look like old folks, but not you. Hope you are feeling better. I think travelling causes me as much stress as anything. The last thing I need travelling is to have an incident like you had. Sounds like you handled it well.

[bm6546]

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I just came back from a run and hide mission on the coast; left last Tuesday when visibility was 100ft for all the forest fire smoke. I'm in Nevada County, CA. Susanville is also in the thick of it, right; thousands of acres burning . . . Got myself and my daughter packed in less than 1 hour and got outta dodge quick! The fire season has me hypervigilent 24x7 all summer long!

Anyway, I had to use a public restroom on the coast; the concrete floors were covered in 1 inch of water, with no warning signs. I slipped and fell on my backside and hip. The county worker with shiney new truck and hella nice government job LAUGHED at me out loud. I tore him a new one: said I would sue his azz so fast his head would spin, told him I'd have him fired in no time flat. I mean I was ANGRY and let him know CLEARLY that I meant business. He PROMISED to get a sign that warned old folks like me they might fall and hurt themselves. I was rational until he laughed at me. It was a rough week with the 13 y/o teenager and 2 dogs traveling . . . Use my Base ID, and stayed at the Coast Guard Training Center in Petaluma (3 dollars per night, ate in the Galley for 2-3 dollars per meal) ... And 100% ers get FREE STATE PARK priveledges in California. Sometimes it's good to get away cheap if you use your benefits. Sure felt good to come home though.

~~Wings

Wings, I too am in Nevada County, Ca... Grass Valley to be exact. The smoke is really bothering me. I am a heart patient and it really bothers my lungs to breathe. I go to cardiac rehab twice a week at the hospital and they are telling us to try to go easy on the exercises and try not to walk very much. Are you close to GV?

I'm waiting for the day the VA rates me at something other than 0% so I can use some of the State Park priveledges.

Glad your home safe...Brian

[Rockhound]

calnight: I don't know if you caught my speal on what is happening on the Green Team at the Reno VA Hospital, but they no longer have any general practitioner Dr.'s who are trained to meet our special needs other than our psychiatric problems. The medical needs other than psychiatric issues are going to be taken care of downstairs by the Red and Gold team Dr.s.

My PCP Dr. Dr. McGennis resently quit in protest, because she was to only Dr. left to handle all the patien's non psychiatric needs. They were litteraly working her to death and it was getting so bad, since she had to see so many patients, she could no longer give them the care and service we deserved and there apparently was no relief in sight.

Now we will be seen by Dr.s who do not have the training to cope and understand our special needs. We will be added to the list of regular vets who already have a hard time getting to see their Dr.s in a reasonable amount of time. I'm sure once the word gets around that the Vets from the Green teem will now be added to the list for the Red and Gold teems, theri is bound to be some animosity when Vets already with the Red and Gold teems find it more difficult to see their Dr.s and taking longer to get appointments made.

I just lost my Psychiatrist who went on maternaty leave, who may or may not return, since I found out she is not credentialed, but is an Intern, of which I did not know and was not told of this fact. I had to find out by accident when I was discussing my results of some neuropsych tests I took.

Up til now I would agree with you that the Reno VA Hospital was one of the better hospitals, but now I have my reservations as to their standing, at least as I am concerned.

If I didn't have an aversion to male Dr.s which is very close to a phobia, I might have asked to be seen by your psychiatrist, but then he would have to treat me also for this near phobia I have.

Getting late or early, depending on your schedule and time zone, so I will stop my rant on what I feel is a great injustice to those of us on the Green teem.

Oh by the way, I take Quetiapine also and there are times that it puts me on edge, to the point I have to take a sleep medication to counter it so I can get to sleep. go figure.

Rockhound Rider

[calnight]

WINGS, THE SMOKE IS REALLY BAD IN SUSANVILLE IT FEELS ALL OF CALIFORNIA IS ON FIRE. ITS BEEN ALMOST 2 WEEKS I CANT EVEN SEE THE SUN. I TRY TO KEEP THE KIDS INSIDE. HOPE YOU CAN GO HOME SOON.

ROCK HOUND I HEARD ABOUT WHAT THERE DOING IN RENO. WHEN I FIRST STARTED GOING TO RENO IT WAS A ASIAN LADY DR. THEN SHE LEFT AND SHE WAS REPLACED BY A OLD RETIRED NAVY DR. I THINK HE WAS ONLY THERE FOR ABOUT A MONTH. NOW MY SHRINK GOES OVER ALL MY MEDS SINCE THERE IS NO DOCTOR. I HAVE HIGH BP AND HIGH CHOLESTEROL AND HIGH TRIGYLERIDES SO HAVE TO TAKE MEDS FOR ALL THAT TO. I THINK ITS BEEN OVER 6 MONTHS SINCE SINCE THE MENTAL HEALTH DEPT AS HAD A REGULAR DR. ITS TO BAD ABOUT YOUR PHOBIA. BUT IF YOU CAN GET PAST IT DR.VANBIBER IS REALLY GOOD REALLY LAID BACK OLDER GUY HE HAS BEEN DOING IT A LONG TIME. I REMEMBER WHEN I FIRST STARTED SEEING HIM I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF MY APPEAL TO GET IU AND 70% FOR PTSD. I ASKED HIM TO WRIGHT THAT I WAS UNEMPLOYABLE FOR ME AND HE HAD NO PROBLEM DOING IT. AND EVERY TIME I SEE HIM HE TELLS ME THAT IF THE VA REVIEWS ME TO LET HIM KNOW SO HE CAN WRIGHT A STATEMENT FOR ME. WHEN I GO SEE HIM ITS MORE ABOUT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY WIFE AND KIDS THEN ABOUT THE PTSD. I FIGURED IT TO BE THAT HE KNOWS THAT WITH OUT FAMILY AND SUPPORT THAT THE PTSD WOULD BE ALOT WORSE AND ITS TRUE I WOULD BE IN PRISON WITHOUT THEM. THAT HOW I KNOW HE IS A GOOD DR. NOW THAT I HAVE BEEN SEEING HIM FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS HE NEVER ASK ME ABOUT MY NIGHTMARES AND FLASHBACKS YOU KNOW THE TYPICAL BS EVERY SHRINK GOT TO DRILL YOU ON. WITCH JUST PISSES YOU OFF. ITS MORE ABOUT HOW TO LIVE WITH YOUR PTSD AND HAVE THE BEST LIFE YOU CAN. NOT ABOUT A MAGIC PILL THAT WILL CURE YOU. THE OTHER VA SHRINKS WERE LETS GIVE YOU THESE MEDS COMEBACK IN A MONTH OR TO. THEN WHEN YOU COME BACK THEY ASK IF THEY WORK AND IF YOU SAY YES YOUR CURED AND IF YOU SAY NO LETS TRY ANOTHER MED UNTIL YOUR CURED.

[Rockhound]

calnight: Even though I made a special request for a female Dr and psychiatrist, I may not have a choice. I just hope if I end up with a male Dr. or Psychiatrist, they will work with me to help me get over this aversion to male physicians.

We're having some wind that helps the smoke clear from the small valley I live in. It's is north of Reno about twenty or so miles and I can look over the boarder into CA. Our Valley is like a big bowl and if it wasn't for the wind we most often get, With my restrictive lung disease and breathing problems through my nose, I would be like a prisoner in my own home attached to my oxygen condensor. I usually only need it at night for nocturnal hypozia, but with the smike, I've had to go on it when I have to move about my home. I have a fifty foot air line to drag about and another fifty foot if I need it.

I'm glad I have a swamp cooler, it helps to filter the air through the wet filters. but I only use it during the hottest part of the day, I can't afford to run it continuously.

OMG I just looked at the itme. I better take my sleeping pills and get some rest, before my cat decides it's time for me to get up and feed him. LoL You either get up or he waits until you forget about him and then he attacks any uncovered part of your body escept your face. It's just his way of showing you who is boss, he doesn't try to bite hard, but his teeth are like razor sharp and he can't help but draw blood sometimes.

Well good night calnight and everyone. Hope you aren't bothered by the smoke like we are.

Rockhound Rider

[Wings]

WINGS, THE SMOKE IS REALLY BAD IN SUSANVILLE IT FEELS ALL OF CALIFORNIA IS ON FIRE. ITS BEEN ALMOST 2 WEEKS I CANT EVEN SEE THE SUN. I TRY TO KEEP THE KIDS INSIDE. HOPE YOU CAN GO HOME SOON.

Was gone for a week; got home on Tuesday. Had one day of clear skies, now back to deep smoke. You gotta love the firefighters, that's some heavy battle.

I'm searching for a small pop-up, tow along camper for my Jeep. I'm getting ready to head out again for the coast, if I can get past the other fires. It does feel like the whole State is burning. Can you get your Base ID Card for MWR? ~Wings

Edited July 6, 2008 by Wings (see edit history)