C & P Today At 11:00am

[shortpig]

I'm not as nervous about the outcome as I am about setting in a strangers office sharing my life with them. Thanks to my Advocate my Ducks are straggling all over the place but I have to take some of the ownership of that myself. I decided to take the whole day off work so I wouldn't have to rush back to work after the appt. I suspect it will be a total emotional drain on me therefore I wouldn't be much help at my job.

I know I'm just rambling, it is 5:15am and I haven't had enough coffee yet or smoked enough cigarettes yet to be wide awake and ready to go.

I have heard that our local office is one of the best in the nation at working with their veterans and helping them. I just don't want to receive any further abuse from a military type institution for something that wasn't my fault. This would cause me to run away very quickly and go back in hiding.

Hoping all of you have a great day and will let you know how it goes.

[shortpig]

J right now I would be happy with 50% so they cover my healthcare costs. It would give me enough additional income to cover the time I lose from work without pay to see my psychologist and travel back and forth to her office which is about 50 miles round trip. I lose 4hrs from work everytime I go.

I realize they don't pay for loss of relationships and enjoyment on a daily basis. They should but of course they don't see it that way. Or the added cost of all the fencing I put in so I can feel secure and safe in my home.

[luvHIM]

It is my prayer that all is going to go in your favor. It is good that you have your daughter and son-n-law there for you.

I know one of my issues is (according to the testing I did) is that I don't trust and am very suspicious of others. Doc said it is a characteristic of PTSD, which I have been diagnosed as having, but I think paranoia should come with the territory...especially if MST is the stressor.

I agree that the outcome is contingent on the raters interpretation of the C&P exam. Hopefully, he/she will do what is favorable to you and you will be awarded at least the 50%. I'm seeking 50% as well. Haven't heard anything yet but I am hopeful. In the meantime, best regards and stay the course.