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[Atropine]

Hello I served honorably in both the USMC and the NG.

I currently am assigned group five for health care although my claim for compensation is still being reviewed. I just received SSDI dating back to 2008 so I have a big lump sum coming soon.

I was awarded SSDI based on PTSD that was diagnosed by a VA mental health professional (actually several of them). Those clinicians diagnosed the PTSD as being severe and chronic and it began with a sexual assault that put me into the hospital way back in the eighties. In short a male Seargent beat the snot out of me then raped me (I am male).

Initially I declined to speak about the assault but was convinced by my VA PCP to speak with a pschiatric nurse, whom I admitted to being raped just a few months into the service. I have been seeing a private therapist at V A expense for the last year or so (weekly) as well as medications to treat the symptoms.

I have a variety of medical issues and currently take morphine and hydrocodone to control pain. I was complaining on the phone about being out of my pain meds. The manager of CBOC called me and harrassed me about my complaints. I obtained a Restraining Order against the VA manager under Oregon statute that prohibits such harrassment.

Six days after the CBOC manager was served with the Restraining Order to prevent abuse, I received a certified letter from the chief of staff that informed me I had beem "flagged" and effective immediately I no longer had a PCP or any of a number of mental health services that I had been using including my psychiatrist. I was also specifically banned from attending the suicide prevention group that I had attended weekly for nine months. Completely cut off witha sarcastic sentence giving me two telephone numbers I could call to obtain servces again by route of a 160 mile round trip and being escorted by an armed guard.

In the letter they said the reason was the Restraining Order. It had disrupted the clinic staff so I got my services cut with absolutely no way to make the multiple trips mentioned and no warning.

after weeks/months I began to suicide by slashing my arms and torso with a razor then began downing the pain meds. an astute friend realized what I was doing and called the authorities. I spent nine days in the civilian psychiatric ward paid for at VA expense. I just couldnt take it anymore and felt great comfort at the thought of never waking up. What a horrible mistake, but understand that my psych meds were new at the time and the doc had just cut the dose in half on one before being flagged. I was a mess.

It gets much stranger but the cos and the cboc manager that initiatted that flag no longer work for va, but I am still flagged until "...you can prove that you will not be a future threat to the va." (their words)

At least they fired those guys but looks like I dont get va doctors anymore.

[carlie]

Welcome,

I am moving your post to the Claims/Benefits forum

an notating tour topic title with a TRIGGER warning.

I suggest going up the food chain at your VAMC to get your

health care provided.

If the state of Oregon or your county, went so far as doing a complete processing

of the restraining Order and serving it to a doc at your CBOC - then it is clearly

retaliation on their part - to deny medical care to you.

Again - I'd go higher up the food chain and would most likely also call the

VA's suicide hotline, tell them the feelings I am having and that the VA is denying

my acces to mental health care USUALLY provided to the veterans in my area.

Also check out

www.vetcenter.va.gov for accessing services there.

Hello I served honorably in both the USMC and the NG.

I currently am assigned group five for health care although my claim for compensation is still being reviewed. I just received SSDI dating back to 2008 so I have a big lump sum coming soon.

I was awarded SSDI based on PTSD that was diagnosed by a VA mental health professional (actually several of them). Those clinicians diagnosed the PTSD as being severe and chronic and it began with a sexual assault that put me into the hospital way back in the eighties. In short a male Seargent beat the snot out of me then raped me (I am male).

Initially I declined to speak about the assault but was convinced by my VA PCP to speak with a pschiatric nurse, whom I admitted to being raped just a few months into the service. I have been seeing a private therapist at V A expense for the last year or so (weekly) as well as medications to treat the symptoms.

I have a variety of medical issues and currently take morphine and hydrocodone to control pain. I was complaining on the phone about being out of my pain meds. The manager of CBOC called me and harrassed me about my complaints. I obtained a Restraining Order against the VA manager under Oregon statute that prohibits such harrassment.

Six days after the CBOC manager was served with the Restraining Order to prevent abuse, I received a certified letter from the chief of staff that informed me I had beem "flagged" and effective immediately I no longer had a PCP or any of a number of mental health services that I had been using including my psychiatrist. I was also specifically banned from attending the suicide prevention group that I had attended weekly for nine months. Completely cut off witha sarcastic sentence giving me two telephone numbers I could call to obtain servces again by route of a 160 mile round trip and being escorted by an armed guard.

In the letter they said the reason was the Restraining Order. It had disrupted the clinic staff so I got my services cut with absolutely no way to make the multiple trips mentioned and no warning.

after weeks/months I began to suicide by slashing my arms and torso with a razor then began downing the pain meds. an astute friend realized what I was doing and called the authorities. I spent nine days in the civilian psychiatric ward paid for at VA expense. I just couldnt take it anymore and felt great comfort at the thought of never waking up. What a horrible mistake, but understand that my psych meds were new at the time and the doc had just cut the dose in half on one before being flagged. I was a mess.

It gets much stranger but the cos and the cboc manager that initiatted that flag no longer work for va, but I am still flagged until "...you can prove that you will not be a future threat to the va." (their words)

At least they fired those guys but looks like I dont get va doctors anymore.