Cwt Program

[Barbamatt]

I am a 40% sc veteran (30% for Severe Major Depression/Anxiety Disorder NOS). I have an education and work experience. However I have an extremely hard time finding and keeping a job. Most of my job experience is health care related. I was a Hospital Corpsman in the Navy.

I get stressed out easily and get anxiety in work situations. I have had panic attacks and have had to miss work some. I have been fired for my poor work performance. I really want to do well at a job. I get along with my co-workers and I respect authority.(I don't mouth off at the boss and try to do what he/she assigns me) My problem is I get overwhelmed easy and make stupid mistakes or forget to do something when I am stressed out.

I have had mental health treatment for the past 4 years or so since I've been out of the military. I have even been hospitalized for suicidal thinking/attempt. I don't want to die, but when I get in a bad state I sometimes think of it.

My question is how can I get into a CWT program. I have been told that my mental illness is not sever enough, or that I have too much education. I tried Voc Rehab and it did not really help me get a job. I found one on my own, but lost it.

What do they consider "sever enough". Do I have to wait until I lose my house and become homeless? Do I have to have delusions? or what. What is the instruction say about the program.

I really do battle with a service connected mental illness. I may be high functioning at times, but not all of the time. I don't do well in a highly stressful job. Once I am out of the stressful situation I start to get better and they say that I am doing fine. But once the stress comes back I start having trouble again.

I am out of work and am having trouble finding a job with my work history. Even if I found a job, it may not last. This is making me stressed and feel useless. I have a lot of guilt and frustration with not having a full time job. I don't think that I can fully recover from depression until I find a job that I can do...and I don't even know what type of job that I can qualify for that will help.

I am thinking of contacting the CWT program office tomorrow even though it scares me to even try and be turned down yet again. I get told to get a job because I am not disabled enough to get a higher disability, but I have problems with work.

I'm sorry if this is a rant, but I do have a question in here. It is just that I am so frustrated that I don't know where to turn.

[MRRRR5]

I have had mental health treatment for the past 4 years or so since I've been out of the military. I have even been hospitalized for suicidal thinking/attempt. I don't want to die, but when I get in a bad state I sometimes think of it.

Hello Barbamatt and thank you for your service.

Based on your statement above, I would recommend you contact your primary care provider to get a referral to see a behavioral health specialist if you are not already seeing one. Good luck to you and I wish you all the best in dealing with your condition.

[tanker2]

barb you are not ranting. its good you talk it out. i wish you the best.

[Barbamatt]

I just left inpatient care for my depression. My social worker spoke to my psychiatrist and she agreed to send me a CWT consult. What should I expect next? Has anyone been through the CWT program?

Edited March 4, 2013 by Barbamatt