ptsd Non-Combat Ptsd Mdd Psychotic Features Greenramp

[82airborne]

Sorry

Edited January 30, 2013 by 82airborne

[82airborne]

psych doc got a couple of facts wrong but this is basically my stressor

psych doc got a couple of facts wrong but this is basically my stressor

Edited January 28, 2013 by 82airborne

[82airborne]

I'm waiting for another psych eval from another hospital. I will post result when I get those then I will also post my c&p exam results.

[Berta]

Yeah....medic, Army...WIA and KIA in accident .........friends ....... that is a major stressor here for sure...........

Do you have any of this documented in your Mil Records????

It could also be in a Morning Report.

Your MOS however, might say it all for VA...........................

Your claim should be solid. Lets just hope the VA understands it.

This will take a VA MH diagnosis too.Hopeully by the C & P doctor .

You are dealing with a lot. A lot most people can never understand. But WE do.

[82airborne]

The first attachment is where they requested medical treatment. After that I got a article 15. I wouldn't do anything they told me I put in for chapter 16-b bar to re enlistment to get out. Prior to that when I was a line medic for B company. My friend got shot while in training in the thigh me and another medic treated him. The basic Iv and tourniquet and monitor until transported. But it was to many accidents that was going on. By the time that crash happen. I was knocking people out yelling in the hallways for a particular seargant to come out. My recollection of all that went on that day is foggy. But many soldiers was affected that day. My sergeants didn't understand. They didn't understand what was going to happen to them if the kept pushing me!!!!! I see my sergeant in my head so much but he's in a wheel chair with his arms cut off. It's like he making me feel guilty for not taking that jump. I SEE HIM SO MUCH EVEN THO I KNOW HE DIED BUT I DON'T REALLY SEE HIM AS GONE. SOMETIMES I BELIEVE HE IS ALIVE. That's why when the VA make me try t o prove what went on. I LOOSE IT IN MY LETTERS. I PRETTY MUCH GO CRAZY FOR A KOUPLE WEEKS AFTER I HAVE TO WRITE THEM LETTERS TO THE VA. IT'S ONLY ONE PERSON WHICH IS MY BROTHER THAT KAN MAKE ME STOP AKTING KRAZY. IT'S BEEN DIFFIKULT dealing with life when I got out. WHEN I FIRST GOT out I was burning my self karting redrum in my arm REDRUM IS MY KNICK NAME TILL THIS DAY. I KAN keep writing about this madness how all I wanted to do was be a soldier. MY DAD GOT PURPLE HEART HE WAS IN VIETNAM Brothers one in the army the other was the navy. THINGS JUST DIDN'T WORK OUT. LIKE PLANNED. MY ANGER IS TREMENDOUS I ATTACK IN SEKONDS IF STARTLED OR I FEEL THREATENED. MY FAMILY DON'T EVEN HANG AROUND ME BEKAUSE THEY KNOW HOW EXPLOSIVE I AM. WHAT MADE ME START GOING BACK TO COUNSELING. MY MOTHER MADE A KOMMENT AND I BLEW UP I WAS IN A FIT OF RAGE SNOT KOMING OUT MY NOSE LIKE A RAGING BULL. FOR NOTHING JUST BEKAUSE SHE SAID THEY WAS GOING TO LOCK ME UP FOR SAYING KRAZY STUFF ON FACEBOOK. my mind was where I put them in the same mind frame I'm in but they are not. THEY TALK ABOUT LOVING CARING GOING OUT PARTYING AND IM TALKING ABOUT SMASHING SOMEBODY FACE IN. THINKING IT WAS FUNNY. BUT IT'S NOT IT'S JUST SICK THOUGHTS. I PRAYED TO GOD FOR DEATH SOMEDAYZ CRYING TEARS ON MY BALCONY. THIS ISN'T THE HALF OF IT. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS OR WHO IS AT FAULT FOR MY RAGE. I NEED KOUNSELING. I'm tired of feeling like I do. THANX FOR LETTING ME VENT. THIS STUFF BEEN BOTHERING ME FOR OVER TWENTY YEARS. MY HANDS HAKE EVERYDAY ALL DAY.

WHILE IM WRITING THIS I GOTTA GIVE LOVE TO

DOCTOR SANCHEZ B COMPANY HE LOST HIS LIFE THAT DAY. HE WAS A REAL SERGEANT GRUNT INFATRY MAN. 12 miles ruck medi bag was nothing for him.

[82airborne]

no matter what happens this plane was my ticket to the otherside i keep this picture with me where ever i go

Edited January 26, 2013 by 82airborne

[82airborne]

THIS HAS BEEN ONE HELLISH NIGHT. EVERY HOUR ON THE HOUR IM HAVING TO TAKE A PISS IN BETWEEN GETTING UP GOING TO PISS IM HAVING NIGHTMARE AFTER UCKING NIGHTMARE. PAIN IS UN BEARABLE. TONIGHT IF I HAVE TO LIVE MY LIFE LIKE THIS WAKING UP EVERY HOUR JITTERY NIGHTMARES. I WOULD RATHER DIE. NOT THAT I WOULD KILL MYSELF BUT FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. THIS IS DRIVING ME INSANE. HOW MUCH KAN A PERSON TAKE. I GOTTA DO SOMETHING WRITE MY CONGRESS LADY MAYBE THE PRESIDENT. IM ALMOST AT MY BREAKING END AND PEOPLE DON'T EVEN KNOW IT. NO MONEY JUST ENOUGH TO PAY BILLZ. NEVER ENOUGH KASH TO HAVE FUN. IM STUCK IN THIS HOUSE DAY AFTER xxxxxxx DAY I BEEN IN THIS BASTARD FOR GOING ON FOUR GOT DAM YEARS. I CAN LEAVE BUT SOMETHING KEEPS ME INSIDE. I'VE NEVER FELT THIS GOT DAM MAD. IT'S LIKE I GOT MAD FEVER. I DON'T KNOW WHETHER TO CHECK MYSELF IN THE HOSPITAL OR WAIT TILL TOMORROW I GOT PAIN MANAGEMENT ORIENTATION TOMORROW. HOW THE HELL DID I GET TO WHERE IM AT.