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Years And Years.. And So So Many Tears

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I must share Giovanna and I's story. We actually met on the internet when I was in the nursing home referred to in the 1151 claim. She knew there was something "physically" going on, but I was very hesitant to share what was happening. She and I were in contact multiple times per day sharing music and thoughts for several months on a program called ICQ. Finally, she said she knew there was something wrong and quietly requested I share the secret with her. At the time I was at the doctors' total mercy knowing I had to get the antibiotics to live or I would certainly die a slow and painful death. How do you tell somebody this?

Gio in her heart and soul, knew this was serious and I was not twisting any truths with her. At the time, she had be doing allot of flying and had saved up enough miles to get a round trip ticket between the US and Colombia. Gio had no idea who I was and decided to offer me that ticket flying me down to get help. The Great Escape was being planned. Gio knew I was a desperate soul and chose to hold me close and shower her good graces upon me so I could get the Meds (Long term IV antibiotics) I so desperately needed. When I arrived in August 1999, she met me at the airport outside of Cartagena and had two of her friends support me as they took me into her room lying me down on her bed. She did not even know who the heck I was and scooped me up like a lost feather.... She was my friend, nurse, phisical therapist everything rolled into one. (((((((((((((Gio))))))))))) <- this is a big hug for Gio. So many times did we share this symbolism together on-line.

She organized and brought doctors into her home to review my case. As Berta knows, I knew there had been an error and I did not want to die of an untreated CNS infection that had been knocking me to the ground for years at that point.

Imagine, this was all taking place at the "dawn of the Internet Age" Before 9/11, before the internet was high speed, What was high speed for us at the time? A 48Kbs phone modem. There was definitely much less "Border Security." So what did she do? She sent me several CASES of 1 gram ampenicillin tablets to get me by until I could make down there. Of the 4, 500 tablet containing cases she sent only one got snagged by customs. That too has a story behind it trust me.

There is so much to share that I really need to outline this. It is a movie with defiance, pain, heartbreak and true love wrapped into one. Giovanna Ghisays-Zarur was my one and only true love who saved my life and in the end I could do nothing to save her's. So heartbreaking truly. A grieving process I must open up to clearly.

Gio's intervention in my life is a movie no doubt and the total story, as those of you who have read in the attached pages is not over yet. I even hope more than anything that my case brings a new vision of what the unknown mystery disease MS is. I have sufficient information for a doctoral thesis but what is important is to divide and conquer that monster. Imagine I was in medical school and dropped out. At this point, those credentials, had I finished, would serve me well, but that was a long time ago..

The hard drives I mentioned above have all our history and including our initial contact on the internet as we knew even then this was a story people would desire to share.

Please excuse my skipping huge sections of the history, but it is good for me to be caught in the "swirl" of events which are still unfolding as I write this message to my friends on Hadit.

Yes, I see I need to write and tell the story. Surely, reading the attached documents, you can tell there was something very subliminal taking place. Very twisted and beautiful art unfolding at the same time.

It is turning out to be almost a symphony.... A very special piece of music that reaches up into the heavens above and deep into the soul. The notes are so strong, powerful and mix so divinely, they take my breath away.

If you can get access to it, locate the CD "Celine: These Are Special Times" (1) It has 16 songs for the Holidays and listen to "Oh Holy NIght." When I listen to it and think of Gio and know she is very close to God and Mother Mary.

Love life my friends here on Hadit.

Touch somebody you love and share a special moment these holidays.


I feel much better now thank you.... I hope you do too. Bless all here.

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Sweety Bee is proud of you, Josh.

A long time in coming Josh!!!! CONGRATS! When one is right ,they are RIGHT and you knew the VA had been negligent. "There are things I cannot tell you as you would think I had gone over the ed

Thank you to all those who wrote. Berta all the time there was no doubt a horrible error had occurred. When you have an HMO break into your home, steal your medical records, change them, and put the

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Glad your still alive - you FINALLY won and the WRONG has been admitted.

Gio - has to know this, even in heaven.

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Yes Notorious Kelly, It was an epic romance. Love story true to life that covered the depths of the soul revealed. I would love to publish a book and one about Giovanna's history and life. Gio was a "fighter" and so very brave.

Giovanna was a very special woman who was a major force helping those in recovery beginning in Colombia expanding to initiate groups all over South America and working with others in the Groups structure to unify the battle supporting those fighting against the dark monster of addiction. Before she passed away Gio had spent years on the World Board of that group, reaching out her hand supporting those who were truly suffering.

Gio's passing was not only a major personal loss, but a loss for the world.

You want a laugh with me about her? Let me post a photo of her that shows you what she would say whenever and wherever she felt the urge to speak out.

She was Super Great...... It makes me laugh when I see her like this.

We bought a home in Colombia and this is photo was taken while the kitchen was torn apart during the remodeling process.... he he he What a wonderful girl!


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I believe God blesses the rightous with thier true soulmate, and you were blessed. you will be together again, in Paradise, serving God. The only thing between you and her right now is time,. be joyful, rejoice. and celebrate her life on earth but look forward to your life in heaven.

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