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[Sexual] Should I Tell My Therapist? Help Me Understand


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I didn't know we could post this type of stuff. I never had this before MST. I was a virgin before MST. So please don't think i'm some sick freak.

Ever since my MST I craved relationships with women that would 'put out' multiple times a day. I never got enjoyment from it. But it was somehow a release valve for me. Everything I see, hear, read I usually somehow turn it sexual in my head. IE: like the billboards with milk on a woman's lips, seeing a woman sucking a drink through a straw, ect. Just about any skinny, nice looking woman turns my mind to doing her. Never any forced idea. Oddly enough one woman I was with wanted to pretend and I tried, but couldn't 'finish.' lately I have random day dreams or thoughts when I see a woman I am attracted to. It usually consist of her willingly pleasing me and somehow I feel like I rescued her.

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Sorry to hear of your troubles bud, but I would tone it down just a bit for the site. Lets just say that something happened to me when I was 10. I too am a man like you, and dealt with this issue for a long time by wanting women to always find me attractive, or going from woman to woman. What you have to do is talk to a really good Psych Doc or Counselor, and find ways to deal with your current issues, or find hobbies or good people to be around that can distract your mind, and keep this stuff from happening over and over. God Bless and Good Luck.

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The rescuing her part sounds MST related. If you feel comfortable with your therapist bring it up. It is very personal but it's causing you distress and intimacy issues so it's important.

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