I have a C&P exam coming up that I’m stressing over. I have a lengthy history of contemplating suicide, sometimes with a plan and sometimes just wishing I’d die, before calling the veteran’s crisis hotline or talking to my HUDVASH caseworker. Does it matter that I don’t have records of those crisis line calls and rarely reported them to my va mh provider? My provider is well aware I use the crisis line, but I don’t report each of those specific calls to her. Also, I scratch and pick at my sk