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Thanks everyone for the advice, it is appreciated.

Thanks Carlie, I do appreciate the insight. This somewhat helps my decision to go seek help for this and I will talk to my chaplain again once my appointment comes up.

Well, I have been reading this forum now for about a week while I have been doing research into why I act more agressively than normal and sometimes feel quite depressed and disconnected from the world. When I had talked to a Chaplain he had said that I might have something called PTSD and should talk to him about it more. So I started to do research. Overall, I have had childhood trauma (Beatings, Some things I cant remember, and 9/11 Happening when I was younger and loosing a friend and his father to this). I have also had military trauma (I believe) due to my job. Some trauma I cant talk about but I go in and out of combat areas, bring wounded and sadly deceased soldiers back home and have nightmares about it constantly. I dream of talking to the soldiers I have hauled, and also people loosing their lives while we are on the way back to a base hospital or even coming back from the dead and talking to me and no one notices aside from myself. Some of the triggers to this are seeing the events of 9/11 on the TV or media, and also seeing videos or videogames of ground war. My main concern is that if I seek help through the appropriate agencies in my branch of service, I will be simply dis-regarded since none of this is real combat related trauma. I have seen people talk of battles where they have lost friends, and co-workers. And even had people die in their arms, but none of this has happened to me and I cant understand why I feel the way I do. But I dont want to seek help, then simply be forgotten since I cant do my job and get no help once I get out since it might be a "Personality Disorder" or something from before I was in the military.