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Pain, just trying to reduce the head pain. On a positive, the weather is windy but so pretty out.

Redemption

Redemption

EMG wasn't the worst thing I've ever felt. I may have some answers to my leg problems though.

Waiting on the needles for the EMG on my legs and I'm a little nervous. : /

Gonna be so tired today, docs, work, and school, and crap I still have to finish up on a paper for school. Anyone want looking for an assistant job? : )

I just noticed it's april fools day. Almost forgot. Let's see if the VA bad guys look in the mirror and figure out who is the real fool. Knowledge is power folk. Don't let them take that away from you.

My comment yesterday. I know exactly why I am holding together. Its is because of my little girl. It is because of the love my parents and my sister & husband & kids showed me. Lastly, it is because I am tired of being taken advantage of, by the VA and anyone who abuses basic rights.

Better days are coming

Lung function test, EMG, blood tests, new home, new life, the end of bad relationships, and no idea how I'm managing to hold together. : /

Way too much

Working on Art paper and actually making some progress

Enhancing calm and trying stay focused. Hard times are coming and I need to perform POI's. Function checks.

New Focus and making the best of my situation

No luck. Awake again. Back pain,stupid steroids and whatever is causing this crap.

Melatonin didn't work tonight. Im gonna be tired for the doc's appt this mooring. 7 hours to go. Maybe I can get some sleep.

Feels like another one of those nights.

Checkup resulted in 225K platelet level. Out of the woods for the moment. I can take a rhetorical deep breath.

Hoping to actually sleep through the night. Melatonin to the rescue.

So looking for a change or career? Would it be sleeping with the enemy if I pursued a program analyst with the VA? hmm interesting atleast

I am starting to get the feeling that restless nights will be an overwhelming part of my near future.

I am always amazed at the love that my parents and family give so willingly. I am recouped and ready to fight again. (mentally anyways)

Feeling better today, spirit wise anyways.

Strength. 3:45 and I can't sleep. At least my NYC family came to be with me.

Gathering Strength! Not going down without a fight!