rickB

Hey, Berta, Pete, MikeH, and of course, TBird. Just when you thought it was safe, I am back! Speaking of meds, they got me so sedated that I went out from work on disability as of last Friday. Gonna start the process for 100% PTSD shortly. For some reason, I could not get to hadit.com from work for the past year or two. Now I can get plenty of rest and get on the board again. See you around the forum!

Have not done a thing, yet, Berta. I may wait until I stop working in a few years. I can 'retire' from work in about 3 more years. I have been on my current meds for the past 3 years and the mix works for me. However, I am caught in this trap where the meds enable me to keep working, at a cost due to the side effects, and work hits most of my triggers. I struggle with depression in spite of the meds. If I take heavier doses, I am pretty useless. My VA clinicians have been trying to get me to get out of the business (I support a war gaming facility....this week we were doing chemical wars....ugh....by Tuesday I was a complete mess). My value to the facility is my clearances. The workload is light, and I work a schedule where I am off every other Friday. However, the special clearances expose me to all kinds of crap that triggers my symptoms. Kind of a catch 22. I like the people I work with, we do have some fun. I get paid well. The work load is less than any other job I have had, much less work load stress. However, I am butt deep in the GWOT and WWIII/IV. Its a critical job, a necessary job, but it does not have to be me doing it, I suppose. Speaking of butt deep, Berta, I expect you are over your head in snow up there in the Wild north? Howdy to all. I did miss you, but not the turmoil........one war at a time! ........rick burk

After a long break I am back on hadit. Last time I posted, I was 70% PTSD, 10% tinnitus, 0% hearing loss. I am looking to push to 100% PTSD. Still working, but it is taking a toll on me. I just had to take a break from the VA stuff for a while. After the move to the new board format, I had run out of gas. Will have to look around for Berta, Pete, Flip, Mike, etc. to re-connect.