Thanks for the advice brothers. My symptoms are basically, feeling numb all the time, anxiety nearly every day, extrodinary anger issues, suicidal thoughts occasionally, serious memory problems, insomnia and sometimes nightmares, homicidal thoughts all the damn time, hardcore boozing, terrible migraines, paranoia(doors gotta be closed, shades closed, eyes on entry points, always armed) random mood swings and generally being a prick. Those just some of the mental things I got going on, not to mention physical ones