Yes Pete isnt that great hehe. I think I was like 20 probably. My Va doc can write a statement for me also the Va has given me a non service connected pension and im under 65 so they do know im permenently and totally disabled to have recieved a non service connected pension. I just think its dumb to offset dollar for dollar from the ssdi I don't want it at all. I get what your saying pete it may just be so " on the money" with the incident of suicide with a strong medical opinion to say that is where the initial symptoms began. How would you write up the strong medical opinion what would you say? Well I think the argument before was trying to narrow down medical records from Balboa that never surfaced,but my Va doc has said hes writing a new argument for this report of suicide threat.