Thank you all for your replies...
News Update from my office
My boss has been reading the regulations on how to get rid of me... He wants to put me on ODP Now..(oportunity to display proficiency) and retrain in math.. he dont understand, I cant remeber things as well..Yes Ill pass those courses like others before but if you ask me a questions a month later and I cant remember the answer...
I feel hes singled me out for the next firing and im wondering why? I Think Its Because of my PTSD.....There are other techs not so smart in our office...(im trying to being nice)... and I show them what to do and sometimes save their life cause they about to make a huge mistake with electricicty and shock themselves or blow up a transformer or ruin the equipment...and those are senior techs been working there 10 years pluss testing High Voltage, 2000 VAC with a freakin multi meter thats set for 600 vac..or trying to test insulation on a cable and they testing the wrong wire.(feeding back into the power pole)...lol... but to my boss im the one whos incompetent because my memory isnt so good...I can see and read...thats how I saved their lives..But if I was to tel the boss that a senior tech did those things, my fellow techs would be mad at me for telling....I respect my fellow soldiers, co-workers and tech's and still maintain my military berings and watch out for them..but the cevilian world im finding only protects themselvse...I dont see anyone in my office supporting me...I think Im Done with this...I dont want my boss to win...but my mental state isnt what it was and I know Im no match for his know how in the federal government cevilian work place and he knows all the ins and outs to protect himself from such matters as a simple vet trying to fight for his rights to be a tech...thats why im trying to reach out...
Also, I Just found out that because I havent completed this course I failed, that I wont be given whats called an SCI...(Supperior contribution insentive) or a raise this year, I also found out that there are other techs in my office that were asked, like me, to take a course and they never completed it because they never read the book for the courses assigned to them but they are receiving an SCI...(I am so upset over this..)I know most people only remember the bad even if you did a hundred good deeds)...but this is just double standards to me and Im sure is unethical.. Now I cant help but feel that there is something going on with my boss.."is perinoia a trait of PTSD?" anyways, I dont think it is right or even legal for my boss to do that..Should I file a complaint...I mean his reasoning is, (how I see it), is that other workers didnt complete the course by not doing it...and they get rewarded...where I as at least I tried but failed n get shit on..is it ok to say that...
In short...He said if it wasnt for failing the course I would be getting a raise...BUT...Other techs never tried to take the courses assigned to them and get a raise
One criteria for the raise is to "complete assisgned courses in a timely manner"..Thats It..Doesnt say, failed.
(I failed it, Yes)....But they never did their courses that is on their list...so I think that I should have let him complain about me not doing the course and get a raise like the others...Am I Wrong? I think I should call him on this double standard or report it to his boss..
Thanks again