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Anyone can be of any assistance to me I would appreciate some advice. I have been trying to get service connected PTSD benefits for the past five years. I received a 30% level 3 years ago and since then I had to leave my employer(forced to retired) because of behavior problems, outbursts, cannot get along with others and many many more things too long to list. I am a Vietnam combat CIB vet with a purple heart. Just yesterday again I received a rating decision that sent me into a rage that each time it happens I have to take medication over and above needs to quiet down.(thank god for my wife or I probably would have ended it by now). Bottom line is this, I have a psydiatrit at VA that is a specialist in the PTSD area and he has stated that I can not work and is spelled out in plain english and need documentation in the medical file. I see him every three months. I had a C&P for a rate increase evaluation for PTSD in August, 2006 (since I was told you have to have at least 50% on PTSD to be able to file for unemployability) The c&p came out with a GAF 40 and a note stated "it is more than likely than not that this veteran will never be able to return to regular employment". She was a psychologist and remember this was a C & P. As of today I was turned down for any increase due to the fact "Unfortunately those GAF scores were provided without a complete mental status evaluation which is a requirement for evaluative purposes. You were afforded a VA examination which was conducted on 8-06 and an AXIS I diagnosis of PTSD was provided. An AXIS V diagnosis GAF score of 40 was provided for your PTSD however, this score is not consistent with your actual performance in the Mental Status portion of the examination and is therefore not considered as valid data". What the h does that mean???? I have been thru many C & P over the last five years with VA and my specialist at VA has given me a GAF of 37. C&P was 40. I have many other compensable problems, including GERD that is so bad they have to go down my throat every year, knees and ankle problems due to being blown off of my APC in Vietnam and I cannot walk with help of 2 canes. (they gave me 10% for that) I am just at my wits end with this situation. How can a "Veterans Service Center Manager" TURN DOWN MEDICAL EVIDENCE THAT TWO MD'S AND FIVE YEARS OF MEDICAL EVIDENCE AND MEDICATION TREATMENT AND CARE IS DOCUMENTED. I understand the goal is to want you to stop this whole thing, but believe me jumping off a bridge sure is looking more inviting. I don't care how long you have to fight them. I have even been denied 10% for having tinnitis and I was blown off an APC and unconsious for 2 weeks with a head injury. My ears ring all the time..... Now they want me to file a notice of disagreement again and go thru this whole thing again. Service medical records cannot be found, what a surprise!!!! If I did not have my purple heart I probably couldn't even prove I was wounded. I also had a severe case of malaria and hospitalized for over 4 weeks. This could go on and on.....I have the medical backup and GAF can anyone tell me what else would convince these ding dongs...... what they need to give me.?????? I just would like everything to go to the final stage and tell them to quit f.....king with me!!!!!! Thanks to all my fellow vets out there, I read your stories too as much as I can, it just makes me so mad.....I know I'm not the only one Richard Ervin 1st Cav/ 2nd, 8th Vietnam 70-71 CIB, Purple Heart, Bronze Star