Cbt, Is It Really That Bad?

[coastie72]

My head is screwed up enough most of the time. I don't want people experimenting on me. I am seeing a new Psych Dr., The head of the team. In his notes he has mentioned CBT. From what I have read that is something I can't do. When I get home from work I am so mentally drained that the thought of homework is sickening.

It takes every ounce of willpower, strength and determination to make it though a normal workday without showing the real me. I am not going to be able to do this much longer. I leave for work weak and tired and come home exhausted.

I know I have spoke often of suicide and the feelings are sometimes very strong, but that is not what I really want. I just want to be at peace and live out the rest of my life with my wife and kids.

I don't see how this will ever happen. All I can do is pray for a miracle.

If I could I would retire right now....to me that is what I need. The only time I am somewhat normal is around my immediate family, wife and kids........not brothers, cousins ET.

Feeling Hopeless.

Edited March 3, 2015 by coastie72

[Navy04]

Coastie, sorry to hear of your hard times. I feel the same as you, as I only like to be around my family too. That is ok, in the end the only thing that matters is that you are secure in your environment and healthy for your family. Just sit down with your family and decide what is best. Good luck and God Bless!!!