lynnga

I wrote her. Thank you, I hope it gives my family and me the help I need. I don't want to see my va dr. I'm beyond pissed at her.
Everyone is scared to leave me alone. I love my mil. She's amazing.

Ok call me paranoid or whatever. But like I said weird things are going on and I'm at my wits end and about to get rid of my POA for amvets. Here are some examples. (FYI, maybe because of my last of trust due to ptsd, I'm pretty damn good at "researching" and my dad is a computer nerd who retired from the military and now works for the state gov in computer security as the main guy).

I have gone to va oakland RO, with my mil who works for social security for the last 30 years. Let's just say she totally gets why I'm so confused. I have never spoken directly to the amvets supervisor in "charge" of my case. The people below him have limited access to it and because he's on vacation I still have no answers. The VSO was confusing, telling me my paperwork was wrong on my claims. He told me to withdraw the appeal and just do the reconfiguration. He first suggested we go to calvets, then said that he was actually the best person to go through, and said get rid of amvets. Then his supervisor after hearing my story said we should STAY with amvets, but the vso said NO, just go through him and he withdrew my appeal. We were there 4 hours and probably left more confused then when we got there.

Still don't know about my award because it was given to debt management even though the award was based on their mistake and they added the smc (that nobody else can see expect me when I got those 3 extra attached papers that I was told I should have never been given.

All of a sudden I'm getting credit card paperwork from my credit cards saying that they're being closed due to no activity, or changing to synchrony bank. Now I don't believe it's a coincidence that I've gotten 3 in the last week. None of which have any debt on them as they were paid off. But they have codes attached: s207, s206 and some other codes on bottom. I was able to look up and it basically says "for household" or one of the credit cards are from when I got breast implants and that came up as "malpractice". The one for Old Navy said I'd get a new card but would have to activate it and that was the one that stated "household".

DEERS, I've been getting notices to update but can't through computer so I physically went to base and was told because I don't have "original certified copies" to bring back. I was already so anxious being there, the girl could tell so she told me to just walk up to the desk and she'd help me when I got back, however I was able to fax it in. They had my 2nd ex under my social (who was a drug user and I left abruptly with our 2 year old and never looked back), and the had me as my sponser when I went to ER on base and I kept saying that wasn't right, he was kicked out of the military shortly after I left for drug use, heavy drugs.

Not a single person can give me answers to whats going on with my claim and what I need to do. I was called by my va dr yesterday saying they're filling out my referral package for the program I want to get into.

My access is limited on ebenefits even though I have premier account. I cannot get into my direct deposit and contact info to update.

The most terrifying thing to me is I don't trust how the military handled mental health. I mean, they sent me to the hospital because I was crying asking for time off work while my friend and only support was visiting me during that awful time and then I just sat there for four days over the weekend when the Dr wasn't even there except 2 days. I was wisked away, no idea it was coming. It was horrific.

I don't know if this is why it's a complex case as I've been told, but maybe because I was arrested for domestic violence ( I hit my husband in his right arm), all charges dropped, never got a court date. This was 3 months after our 3rd baby. I was so sleep deprived and having two babies back to back I think made things worse. Especially with my husbands long hour days and night shifts.

I went to ER on Friday, they took a ton of blood and sent me home after talking to psych. I was able to look at tricare but results weren't in. It was a whole lot of drug tests (which I know I'm negative minus my 2-3 xanax a day for sleep and anxiety, and my prescribed adderall XR for ADHD). I don't drink except maybe once or twice a month, I had a glass of champagne the night before with mil and that was one glass, I hate pot, makes me paranoid.

I've always had great BP, I kept setting off the alarms while in labor because it was low. When I went to ER it was 142/86, I weigh 110lbs my average is 130 but because of stress I don't eat often.

With all these confusing answers and feeling like I'm on trial and paranoid when I know things are happening without them thinking I will put it together... I feel like Mel Gibson on Conspiracy Theory.

Who's the best VA lawyer, attorney?

I found stuff in my medical records at my exit exam.

Doing better. Went to er and talked to the psych and all decided best not to mix me with the gen pop in mental health. Getting me in sooner. What's weird is I filed a nod based in a mistake for dependents that led to $6k debt. They fast tracked it and I was awarded $4300 + any withholdings and they added smc under code "s" for all the years I've been out. Not sure how I got that.