usmarine0311

ohhhhhhhhh ok i didnt realize that.

I have a VA psychiatric exam next month and now social security wants me to have one now. I have a big problem with this because the last one the SSA cancelled it. Why must I have two different exams when social security has been using mainly VA Medical records. What are the differences in the two exams and does the SSA have to have the graphic details? I mean SSA has letters to them from my VA docs and all, so why do I need a seperate test. I'm sorry but sometimes I feel like telling them where they can all put it. What I guess is the SSA exam like has anyone had one?

wait are you telling me that my attorney cant get more than 6,000 cause id get 3 years backpay and I had it figured shed get around 20,000. Am I understanding this right?

I have a VA psychiatric exam next month and now social security wants me to have one now. I have a big problem with this because the last one the SSA cancelled it. Why must I have two different exams when social security has been using mainly VA Medical records. What are the differences in the two exams and does the SSA have to have the graphic details? I mean SSA has letters to them from my VA docs and all, so why do I need a seperate test. I'm sorry but sometimes I feel like telling them where they can all put it. What I guess is the SSA exam like has anyone had one?

I don't drink much anymore, but I did so pretty heavy after I got back. I don't think I was addicted to it but I did drink to sleep. I drank to kinda numb everything, I guess thats how to describe it. Temporary fix. I mean when these ptsd symptoms cycle at times thats what I really want to do. I still get 2-3 hours a night if I am lucky. At times the pills don't even help, I mean when things are really bad. I'll have a good 2-3 weeks and then I'll wake up and I mean I think I'm loosing my mind for a week or so. I'm ALWAYS on edge but when things are bad it's completly debilitating. But I have notice that it cycles in and out for no apparent reason.

I know what you are going through Devil. I can't pinpoint everything either. I know that the stressors we face each day doesn't help. Bills you can't pay, not being able to work, being reclusive, anxiety is all enough to drive someone insane. I hate talking or even thinking about the past you know? I sure don't want to talk to someone thats never even picked up a rifle before. I hate complaining too, but sometimes I do have to tell then exactlyhw I feel. Yea my knees and hips hurt, we have put our bodies through alot over the years. I know not being able to sleep and the constant fatigue just adds to our issues.

I have been diagnosed with PSTD and MDD. I have talked to several Vietnam Era vets who have told me to write a stressor letter and to get buddy letters. I find this very difficult to write, because I have a tough time just trying not to think of the past. Honestly, my life has been a living hell the last 3-4 years. I remember how I used to be, and I look at myself now. I did a complete 180, and now I'm very much a recluse. I don't go see anyone, and I don't want anyone to come and see me. I have pretty much gotten rid of everyone I associated with. I don't go anywhere hardly without carying my weapon. I just literallyfeel vulnerable and naked without it. My mom says I just need to "snap out of it". She constantly tells me there is nothing wrong wth me, an that lots of men have been to Iraq and they seem fine. I don't discuss the past with her or anyone else. I can't. My marriage is constantly teetering on the rocks and I just had to quit working 3 years ago. It got so bad I got to where I could'nt think anymore. I have a c&p physical and psyc exam next month and I have never had the psyc exam before. I am worried to death about saying the wrong thing as I have been told the examiner is looking for a reason to blame it on something else. I don't drink anymore, never used street drugs, never abused. Do I need to take all these letters in there and describe what paticular trauma caused this? There were so many different things I dont think I can pin point it exactly. I know this is alot to write, but I kinda wanted to throw it all out there so you'd have a better idea of whats going on. Yes, there is the sleep deprivation, sever anxiety, startled response, and I have a very short fuse. My gaf scoresthe last couple of years have been in the mid 30's to upper 40's. Nothing over 50. In 2007 and 2007 I was in and out of the hospital withall this, and one doc from Waco said I was bipolar. I disagree because I was not like this before. Any ideas?