I am a Gulf War 1 vet. I was in Dhahran, SA from Nov 90 to May 91. Shortly after I returned home they disbanded my unit and I was on my own. I walked away from everything even remotely related to the war/military and never looked back. Friends, home, hobbies etc. I gave them up one by one and spent many years engaging in risky behavoir (partying, drinking etc). I stopped in 1999 and got a real job, but continued to avoid all and any reminders of the war. It soon got to the point that any reminder would make me feel like bolting, I would get lightheaded, couldn't speak a coherent sentence, had a big urge to get out and red flags waving Danger Danger. I had nightmares that wouldn't go away. I couldn't sleep, couldn't get to sleep and couldn't stay asleep. I was always on alert for "something". I could never relax. I was socially distant and felt like an observer in life. Life didn't seem real to me, it kind of happened in a fog. I had an irritability problem and flashes of anger. I was convinced that I was going to die at an early age and took out enormous insurance policies. Fast forward to this year and I am still the same.
On the advice of a friend I saw my county VSO. She recommended I be evaluated by a private person since you can't trust the VA. I saw this guy and he diagnosed me with PTSD and gave me a GAF score of 45. I then began seeing the VA mental health people. First I saw the intake guy and had a panic attack in his office. He assigned me a social worker. The social worker saw me for an hour and said it was all caused by my childhood and I did not have PTSD. I showed her the private doc's report. She said "Oh, Jerry _____... he gives everyone the same diagnosis and the same GAF score, all you have to do is pay him". Afterward I read her report on My HealtheVet. She had written a bunch of things that were factually wrong (I am NOT an Iraq war veteran among many other inaccuracies). She wrote that at one point I "started to cry", when in reality it was a panic attack. She diagnosed an anxiety disorder with a GAF of 65 .
I then saw the VA licensed psychiatrist. I spent an hour in her office. Afterward I read her report on My HealtheVet. Most of the things we talked about (nightmares, avoidance issues, flashbacks) were not reported. Instead she reported about my physical characteristics and the fact that I thought all veterans had the same problems I did. She diagnosed me with "Mood Disorder, Rule Out PTSD".
I was a normal 22 year old gal when I went to war. I came home another person. The war messed me up and I have lived with it for years. The VA has also diagnosed me with "fibromyalgia, maybe a GWI component". I am so confused and my anxiety is through the roof. I feel like the VA is trying to avoid admitting that the war messed up my mind. I have not yet filed a claim because I was waiting for a diagnosis of PTSD.
What do I do now? Now that the VA has officially ruled out PTSD, do i need to go to yet another private doc to get a real diagnosis? What do i put on my claim form? I feel like I am spiraling out of control and I can't think straight.
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I am a Gulf War 1 vet. I was in Dhahran, SA from Nov 90 to May 91. Shortly after I returned home they disbanded my unit and I was on my own. I walked away from everything even remotely related to the war/military and never looked back. Friends, home, hobbies etc. I gave them up one by one and spent many years engaging in risky behavoir (partying, drinking etc). I stopped in 1999 and got a real job, but continued to avoid all and any reminders of the war. It soon got to the point that any reminder would make me feel like bolting, I would get lightheaded, couldn't speak a coherent sentence, had a big urge to get out and red flags waving Danger Danger. I had nightmares that wouldn't go away. I couldn't sleep, couldn't get to sleep and couldn't stay asleep. I was always on alert for "something". I could never relax. I was socially distant and felt like an observer in life. Life didn't seem real to me, it kind of happened in a fog. I had an irritability problem and flashes of anger. I was convinced that I was going to die at an early age and took out enormous insurance policies. Fast forward to this year and I am still the same.
On the advice of a friend I saw my county VSO. She recommended I be evaluated by a private person since you can't trust the VA. I saw this guy and he diagnosed me with PTSD and gave me a GAF score of 45. I then began seeing the VA mental health people. First I saw the intake guy and had a panic attack in his office. He assigned me a social worker. The social worker saw me for an hour and said it was all caused by my childhood and I did not have PTSD. I showed her the private doc's report. She said "Oh, Jerry _____... he gives everyone the same diagnosis and the same GAF score, all you have to do is pay him". Afterward I read her report on My HealtheVet. She had written a bunch of things that were factually wrong (I am NOT an Iraq war veteran among many other inaccuracies). She wrote that at one point I "started to cry", when in reality it was a panic attack. She diagnosed an anxiety disorder with a GAF of 65 .
I then saw the VA licensed psychiatrist. I spent an hour in her office. Afterward I read her report on My HealtheVet. Most of the things we talked about (nightmares, avoidance issues, flashbacks) were not reported. Instead she reported about my physical characteristics and the fact that I thought all veterans had the same problems I did. She diagnosed me with "Mood Disorder, Rule Out PTSD".
I was a normal 22 year old gal when I went to war. I came home another person. The war messed me up and I have lived with it for years. The VA has also diagnosed me with "fibromyalgia, maybe a GWI component". I am so confused and my anxiety is through the roof. I feel like the VA is trying to avoid admitting that the war messed up my mind. I have not yet filed a claim because I was waiting for a diagnosis of PTSD.
What do I do now? Now that the VA has officially ruled out PTSD, do i need to go to yet another private doc to get a real diagnosis? What do i put on my claim form? I feel like I am spiraling out of control and I can't think straight.
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