szuhay18

Szuhay you sound excatly like me. I am service connected ptsd. Your symptoms are identical. I went through hell and as I went through this I had no support. I have personal records that document my behaviour changes. If you still have copies of your evaluations you may see a drop in your military bearing. I have nightmares of groups of people coming after me. I have the guilt also. The va has helped me. I am changed. My nickname was coolbreeze before my stressors. I never got angry about anything. Now an inept cashier can send me into full fledged life or death mode.

Like others I will never be me. My actions and perceptions are forever clouded. I can stand in asle looking at what salad dressing I want for ten minutes.

Call the va tell what you wrote above and do what they want

Just so you know it's not how bad something was but how it affected you, so don't feel that someone else should have it and you shouldn't because your service wasn't that bad. My Mom always said she'd sent a sweet, caring, young man, to the Army and she received a bastard back, when I returned home, from Vietnam. I feel that PTSD affects mostly caring individuals. Your symptoms are classic. Just know it will never be cured but it can be managed, if you get treatment soon. I no longer go into a rage, like I used to. It's taken awhile but I am soooo much better than I was before. You may need to take some meds, to help, for a short period of time, but if your family supports you, you can have a somewhat normal life.

pr

Oh yeah, you probably have it! Just so you know it's nothing to be ashamed of, either!!! I suggest you seek counseling, either thru a Vet Center, or the VA, and you should probably file a claim for it. jmo

pr

I was never in combat I have all the symptoms you state which started in service for me my VA Doc say I have all the classic symptoms of PTSD but lack a stressor for VA standards which I agree with I am service connected for Major Depressive Disorder with anxious distress. I have been thru CBT, CPT and Bio Feedback. So even if you don't think its PTSD still seek help all the recycling of emotions really becomes hard on our families seek help and support for them also.