SCIDVET

The Topic is: "Request reader consider my story here at Hadit, as posted, and try to post PEACEFUL CLEAR TRUTHFUL AND PERTINENT what has happened to me, and therefrom, I can ask the Federal Government to STOP. Stop what? Stop naming a spinal cord disease a herniated disk.....or ELSE... Problem: The story is untold because the teller (me) just seems to stop being the clear mechanic-electrical-amateur biologist and starts being cracked up, kind of, unclear and impossible to be succinct. Why: I cannot read every readers mind, so the opportunity to make myself clear is continuously eluding me. The better you know me the better we understand each other. It used to be called "Meeting a person" (wink!!!). I have paranoia about being stupid, I dont let people around me know, they would eat me alive. I have inner rejection of any problem, even as I say it with my own lips, am in such deep denial. I have a mind that knows how to manage confusion very well, from long before this incident in 1980. My mind learns and like pushing a big log, gets stronger with years. But not about this- the pieces fall into place (what happened when) slowly and I NEVER EVER am able to tell own story start to stop. (Can you tell?) I hve paranoia about making the USA look bad, they have a way of doing to others then telling others not to. I have a file cabinet that others helped me over decades build so that all that has happened is exponentially better arranged than the C-file I do not seek to hate or impugn or harm the USA. I have written the President on over one hundred other occasions irrelevant to this topic. This topic is like my lips (mind) is caught in the bear trap (the brain injury IS the case, and IS the story and IS hiding it) I can hardly chew my leg off if caught this way. Consider. Have you ever heard of a Traumatic Savant? Nor have I! Mike

Dear Hadit, Thank you! I came here with one purpose over the years: to try to understand where I fit into VA claim system. My latest council is genius and took a relative pea-shooter and shot the truth at the court WITH GREAT PRECISION. I am burning my feet hopping up in the air, trying to get Counsel to see "Man I have an Abrams behind you, Awacs above, and half the fleet in the water to your right! (translation: I told the truth for LIFE and it is all proved now, so totally- BLAST THE LIES like so many paper napkins in a firestorm so the court understands what harm it does allowing this to continue! (with the truth, the story, the evidence) I am pretty sure I have just lost my counsel, I wrote him too much, (like in here?) about "How I got stuck for 30 years into a time-trap called VA Claim Processing" and how HE HELPED ME SEE THE WHOLE THING CLEAR FOR FIRST TIME TODAY (this last week). Now I know I just plain do not fit- there is no CFR for "Spinal poisoning and arachnoiditis by doctor" and every good or other doctor is faced with choice in my case to "overlook and treat" or plainly document what they see. All doctors document what they see. The Veterans Administration has no pigeon hole for the true disease. One member has helped me state what is happening more clear and with less confusion: "The Veterans Administration has let the monster of Arachnoiditis hide within the relatively nominal herniated disc, the original problem. They let TREATMENT hide from me as well, so money is not everything here! Please Please note! (Money can buy competent medical care though!) I have tried to explain how each email I send is relevant to "Effective date EARLIER THAN July 1990" and nothing else. But try to describe a volcano when you are at it's base- you can barely see the mountain you stand beside! It is the same with me and this matter. I need help with it. So please, everyone with real acumen, please review my posts here, see what am trying to reveal. I dont want ten grand and a new legal problem, I want the whole case resolved as any one would be entitled. Thank you I will no longer elaborate as this may cause my posts to be deleted as they are hard to follow. I understand Mike aka SCID Vet

for example i have siacitia secondary to ddd back ...its rated 10% mild..lol how do i get moderate or moderate severe.. is it just the c&p choice thier no discription about this As a newb on forum, wish to say from personal experience their perception is often relied upon without any real measurement- HOWEVER a competent doctor thinks he can trick you (and a good one can easily do so) but only if you are in an acute state. If you were in bad shape last night and dont take motrin often and packed it in (800 mg) then that offensive nerve is now pacified, and you have no symptoms to report- until you start going home. This above is an honest relay of what I found by going to literally hundreds of appointments where I was not very welcome at one hospital. WHile saving lives, at the end, they refused to get me guerney as they had force me to continue standing, and could not at Xray stand. Little indications like that tell me: Objective is Subjective if they want it to be. If your hands dirty from your car needing jump start (Because you never leave the house) that is NOT how the doc is gonna see it. Kapish? I hope this is enough to help and not get abused too much I told nothing about the tells. I loath a cheater, faker, but am amazed how well Fed has ability to make severely injured people complacent and backed into time trap- then they slam door after 27 years and 23 overturned decisions- ont he same benefit- TDIU (and underlying increase) Sorry if overwhelming. I have ovewhelming urge to perform the "Astronauts Creed" Even If It Kills Me. (It won't, probably) ""Let The NEXT guy know what got (Killed) you""

Tbird, Thanks for everything. I only wish to forward: "Jet Fuel" is actually (in years past, when I was on flightline) JP4 a mix or nearly exactly diesel fuel and kerosene (wiki it will come up fast) Why I mention: If you keep your search term to "Jet Fuel" you may not come up with much to sift. (in your search returns to work out this issue). Recommend wiki, establish what kind fuel equivalent, remember it is all from same distillation stack. This way your base of references online will be 1000 times greater, since few get jet fuel on them comparatively. Mike

Your not alone and many Veterans were delayed earned benefits not only from the time they separated but after they applied. I applied before discharge, immediately after, in a year, in two in four in five, went to school, applied repeatedly reopened claim without ever seeing a original or first decision for a decade from then. I wrote so honest my own handwriting "Further, I feel sure something is being done to minimize the severity of the problem in my back about six inches further up" (and then VA records and decides "your stomach and depression problems are personality disorder). But wait! THEN THE VA CHANGES ITS MIND AND SAYS IT IS THE HERNIATED DISC. So it all comes down to this "How many times do I have to let the VA say "oops" you're right there is 16 lane freeway wide of entitlement- here let me show you a picture of the on ramp you could be on now if you had just lied and played ball." If VA were a well intentioned drunk driver he would have wrecked (gone off legal highway and causing me harm) 23 times or more (each decision that is overturned, one by one, first in the present, then the past then decades before.. I could have said it more accurate above by telling you the truth, Pete: " A certain sergeant major and sergeant stuck me in the face with a phone so hard I got wedged between the file cabinets like butterfly on stickpins" "SGT MAJOR: "If you dont shut up we will put you in jail and we dont mean civilian and we do not need a reason. (telling me to stop trying to get appt to see navy doctor, my liason person.) So I applied. Until blue in face. And was just as successful finding a home (compensation) as the butterfly- it is gonna be a life sentence to finish playing VA game if we cannot ever approach a very ugly truth. A mans life is and will be ruined if we do not stop the bullshit. SO I get it, Pete, I should maybe not worry so much, but on other hand, what of those eating garbage, starving, homeless, hanging on NOW. Do I not owe it to them also, to fight until the last day, for the Federal Government to stop destroying its good citizens lives at whim, and ignorantly too.

But, can you cook? My beloved and muscly brain never stops cookin'. Does that count? Even when I transcend space, time, Universe, and am back in time for lunch, I shall still refuse to cook or EVER do my laundry on time. Burning of steak and other mammal type offerings is however in my repertoire. You?

P.S. Can you tell me about ARACHNOIDITIS? Addendum: It also causes changes in the brain. Maybe am just novelty but in my case I cannot tell the whole story of mental harm, and physical harm. It is as if I cannot tolerate admitting both a great physical and mental disability. It has notably been like this for decades, but figured out only recent five years (guessing). It also changes the spinal cord fluid, something about proteins and they make scar tissue not dissolve and the nerves stick instead of slide against each other. It is my opinion attacks are like MS or a bad bad body flu- there comes a point where once past, there is a series of months and months (LITERALLY) to get standing up again. Merely standing to urinate for example might use up whole day of standing time. It is my opinion that fatty cells and other stuff gets near these nerves, and when I gain weight it seems like (even if muscular weight) my back goes bad and stays that way fast. So a subtlety that is underlying the other 14 layers of challenges is if I do too good a job of getting better- I get worse. This is over 27 years now. Some things are only clear long after the fact. It is my opinion my going from "not caring about cold water" to "Absolutely resistant to anything but warm water" as I will lock up like it is real cold or have shivers. It doesnt look to bad but all of a sudden the lattice of muscles on my back all tighten, and pull me back wards a bit. It is my opinion the change between being able to have two drinks or a beer and then having no ability to drink half beer before crushing headache is organic damage from this incident. It is my experience that Motrin is a wonder drug, but after a few five gallon buckets to get work done (forcing self to work to eat, harming self in process, for decade or more) the five gallon buckets of motrin have harmed my stomach and am not able to take regularly and find like all things in life- the less you take the more powerful the effect. (Secret 9) I forgot some more but that is most- oh@ I think the 20-30 things that make my skin go nuts are all but one or two caused by the spinal cord disease. Also, I agree with neurologists who say the skin is like window to nerves- but only so much- my skin looks.... better by far- than any 48 years old I know (maybe because out of sun). I have few wrinkles. But acne. Painful shingle like things that happen. More. I guess that is the first 9 weeks of information of Arachnoiditis 101. Come back and we will try to explain the benefits of SCI when considering the human condition in the modern day. Or maybe not.

P.S. Can you tell me about ARACHNOIDITIS? There are several insults to the organism: 1) Spinal cord swells the bones it passes through does not. Like toothache but bigger. 2) Skeletal instability from errant surgeries makes causing a vast sudden incident from relaxing while standing in place. This may be recovered from or not, over days or never. 3) It is unquestionably the cause of impotence and pressure incontinence (gets worse, starts again with a brief injury event like number (2) above. 4) Pain and symptoms that do not fit under the word pain- like "Irritation" and "hyper-feeling" where I cannot let a piece of cloth touch toetips, or temperature is perceived wrong, hot and cold same time, sort of. 5) It makes disease itself and any other (original injury) inoperable and no injections either- all make more scar tissue and this expands at rate greater than spinal fluid ability to compensate. 6) Imagine a glass pop bottle. That is the skeleton holes. The nerves move through like a rope that easily slides in the hole in the neck of the pop bottle. now put rubber ball same size as hole on nerve. This keeps the nerve from moving normal and when it sticks, it swells and everything goes bad fast- I may not walk or sit or stand (stand for more than seconds) for 6 months and will recover mostly in a few years. Notice this is not a pinched disc? Note the exponentially longer recovery time? The multiplex of harm? I am not done: 7) The disease is called "Arachnoiditis" which is accurate but sort of misleading too. The swelling "itis" is only part of problem. The nerve start sticking to each other in the spinal cord, and to everything they touch (in the spinal cord fluid that is changed). This makes tiny tears and daily microinjuries that (I Believe) must be minimized over many months to recover faster than getting worse. 8) Arachnoid: Double meaning. The nerves no longer hang like a horses brushed tail- but like spiderweb of bumps junctions and random stuff. 9) The interesting part to get past is the need to respond without question to symptoms the VA and the FED (who seem rather interested in results of accidental spinal cord injection, having redirected a surgery to the best viewing site twice) (I figured this out yesterday thanks to you guys). Sorry. The interesting thing is I have to keep busy enough not to waste away physically. Proof: You can take a marathon runner and put him in air bed, never let him get up, hand feed and in one month he will be unable to get off floor or out of airbed. So dying and aging are much more about the result of sedentary activity than time. Now that sounds stupid but trust me have been studying the subject arena in general for almost thirty years. Also the Marines demonstrate quite clear how fast to whip somebody who is in good shape into supreme shape. It is the same but opposite when you dont get off the floor (mattress). So that is "Part one, Arachnoiditis, A patients view" Now is part two, "Arachnoiditis, A Political prisoners view": (tough to live up to THAT word spin, you think?) Try this: By forcing me to call Arachnoiditis a herniated disc, they have forced more disability, a lifetime of delay, physical worsening by injecting more stuff they arent supposed to, and caused the organ problems among others. Fine, you think- this many symptoms, the VA has to take note! Nope. I dont look that bad. I take great care. When I show up at an appointment, if it is 160 miles away, I leave a day early and recover and show up. Otherwise am irritated babbling idiot. (pain makes a person frantic or flat, some of both, or one and the other and repeat) The truth is I must go along with a big fat juicy proven and multiply hidden by clearly unmistakable and harmful error and in some juicier angles, I can even overcome "Presumption of regularity" because the proof is in Cfile they sent to some other guy. So am really a time-trap political prisoner. If I had colon cancer, breast cancer, skin cancer, multiple sclerosis (like one of you confirm!) but "treatment caused disease" is worse than being a murderer. After all dont murderers get fed while they delay 20 years and get out in 25 for murder? I was thinking this while eating garbage (good garbage) it dawned on me I am on lower rung than murderer. And I never committed a felonly (two no trespassings while freezing to death during or near time in question for current TDIU but evidently it is bad idea to tell truth about THAT. (I harm no body, but when you face mortality you make a call. I had just failed out of Chapter 31 education and with it, housing, that a young girl from New Zealand took the FRIGGING place of the VA and paid for me. Because she was helping me get home, helping to be kind, it was some religious thing that is now quite out of vogue.) Sorry. The worst thing is arachnoiditis is as real as a missing leg, ten times more sensitive and crucial area to employment and thriving (do you have ANY IDEA how fast I would have legs removed if it would stop the leg pain??????????????) but arachnoiditis is utterly invisible as it strikes and disappears, makes all manner of symptoms, and is partly novel because of the exact place (nerves) the needle burnt most direct with the obnoxious fluid. So arachnoiditis is the most enlightening disease a human could have. Be careful what you wish for- I wished to understand everything from "Problems of God" to "What is really at center of Earth" to "Why is the sky Blue". Well I have had more time than anybody can imagine, and I am a compendium of much more than mere encyclopedia references (wikipedia is GOLD) am living example of why God knew it was a TOTAL JOKE for the Israelites to say "We dont want a God in the sky we want a Human King". Well, here is what you get, I am only a decade or so before thousands will meet my (VA treatment, nationalized health care bait and switch) fate. So I cannot keep my benefits without at least trying to make clear what is all about to the harming people who, remember I said, they are saving lives every second across the USA (the Veterans Administration). But wait until there is a problem if you are not smart enough or whatever enough to lie and go along. You make yourself political prisoner and figure out ten-twenty-thirty years later what is really going on. That is arachnoiditis. Thank you and hope you overlook my wordiness. I have......time.

JB: Just wish to make clear the Fed does not mind if you mistakenly apply the Feres Doctrine to how you are treated or injured, physical or mental, admin or medical. Feres doctrine ONLY applies to active duty personnel. If they chose they could make it "in theater of water the Feres Doctrine only applies" and then military students could not have Carte Blanche to take hard, mean, tough young bodies and harm them and then let time cover it up. If anyone ever disagrees with me I ask you directly tell me, It has been some years since I actually was able to sit and study VA cases Mike

Thank you Wings. Speaking direct to you: 1) I Fly HAWX on Xbox. 2) There is potential to advance military ability vastly (see number 1) 3) I work on various projects (see number 2) that are FUN and EXCITING 4) I work on religious matters, am the man who discovered "the speed of Light" in the Bible to within .0000000000070813 accuracy. (" A day to God is 100 years to man" when inserted as formula (365250) into time dilation chart (The sentence explains a time variance) and you get a number within a few feet of the speed of light (per second). Just so you know. But at this juncture, Wings, my attorney is doing what he is sure is his job, but I feel like since the TDIU claim says "Date earlier than July, 1990" ANY RELEVANT FAILURES TO RECOGNIZE CLAIM< DISABILITY AND TYPE OF DISEASE PROCESS is CRUCIAL. This is where (in time) all the mistakes were! (1983-1989 pretty much!). So at this juncture, top of the TDIU claim, 23 or so favorable overturned denials, working back in time, now is at CAVC so if they make favorable final decision the past becomes more irrelevant. I can only point to BVA and how once they make a decision you cannot just say "Try again" and overturn a BVA decision?? Does that make sense? Now at CAVC, the entire claim is WIDE OPEN for all of the evidence to be POINTED TO (it is already in claim file!) and final argument made. Final argument: TDIU denied vet as proved for at least a decades as VA agrees and now it is proved that vet also wrongly denied from at least (pick which year the VA make a pile of mistakes making me and my claim ever apart and never meeting. Plus: Postal proof of wrong address they sent my claim to in Claim file 1986,7,8. See how my Attorney (helluva guy) sees his job- is done! but we havent got to the harm yet even though THAT IS WHAT THE LIFELONG CLAIM IS ABOUT! I am utterly confused now! How is this so? NOTICE: Have tried to be honest. I am genius and idiot. Please never doubt my sincerity. The difference between genius and insanity is a choice. (Secret number 5: The more you repeat an insane activity, the more insane you get, by the hour and day) I am gonna go for walk, love you all thank you for helping me feel like not alone in this. I am example, not object for your sympathy. I have a giant sword. (EVIDENCE) I simply cannot see what to do with it. I have already told Fox news will accept interview provided not live OR they pre-create a blow-by blow reconstruction of major medical evidence, like hacking my body with poison, cutting, covering up, cutting, coveringt up, discharge, ignorance and covering up for 27 years. There is no controversy like the poor Atomic vets. This does NOT MAKE ME BETTER MAN THAN THEY. IT MAKES MY PROOF BETTER. Proof use to mattter mike

If nothing else is accomplished is is a striking thing to hear someone has this same problem and the political effects of unpopular arachnoiditis (admitting is tantamount to promoting a lawsuit against FEd by FED. (they dont go for giving you evidence to convict them, is honest way of stupidity, treating vets as if felony suspects in many subtle ways. Jim, I welcome contact and comparing notes here or elsewhere. It is SO JUICY to have a Youtube bit like you showed. However it will crash me mentally to see it. So how about you? what discoveries and advancements have you made others never dream as your Earth (body) was pushed so far away from Normal World that you have unique insights? Do you notice which people it makes crazy and which recognize the truth when told? Do you get the feeling it is easier increasingly to believe in God than Science? (when examined science is like medicine, the fine print says "Subject to change at any time, effects upon human body of this rule or drug may have unintended side effects" Okay done rambling. Music helps me, Jim, and learning to sing (Rock Band) was one thing I can do to get my heart rate up and this feeds the brain as it needs or gets depressed. (See chapter on "Pulling mentality up by bootstraps on daily basis, paragraph four, of "Mikes secret view of the Universe". I thought I was done rambling...... Here is great song called "Normal World" see if it resonates with your deviation from it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YaTL6VAr2RY PS: I suddenly realize is going to be impossible to keep this all straight, thank you, person with radar concerns, the video was intended also for you- but cannot find you again. Mike

I wish to try to message all people here, I can see the thread grew, and got the "Love" and I do not wish to make others cry it is like... blowtorch on my icy life, makes me cry, inside. However the truth is the sharpest sword in existence. The secret is everyone thinks words are what are truths and they never ever are. ("I'll tell you a lie, I never lie" for example). But when I reach across this isolation and time and life gap (I am not fun to be around, but harmless and smart and typical bachelor ignoramus) and someone really convinces me "they get it" then I feel more at peace. The second big secret: Humans have parts of selves that is physical, that can be poisoned away, the brain. Truth will even heal that, not because is miracle, is a mechanical phenomenon. But truth kills anything that hangs onto a lie. So having said all the above "What is the higher calling- to use the sword or literally die (decades sooner) by holding the sword in peace (forgetting about it, as some of you aver so adroit!) Thanks am avoiding desire to say a lot more. I got impression everyone understand am not a faker. Here is bright light shining on my life: I am not supposed to work today, but even God will let a rule be bent: "If you are listening or watching our astronauts are caught with a stripped screw. A mission, a Telescope, and advancemnt of science over that screw. I worked on satellite and space shuttle (1990, rockwell, Castle) and knew decades before that there is only ONE WAY to save that project- To simultaneously unscrew, with gentle, steady, spring pressure under the opposite side of the panel the stripped screw holds. I explain this to notify is not all pickles and dill. I am given by this awful recovery and permanent pushed-aside-life things most man will never bother to put together. Or take apart in this case. See graphic shuold be what I sent to media and NASA and any email address in my stash. I have a helluva stash. I cannot say one because you will never believe it. thanks, Mike shuttlescrew1.bmp

Hello Berta, I remember you! Do you remember me? I am thankful for your attention you are pretty clear on most of it, I will italicize your words and questions below: Still the Feres Doctrine is a controlling factor in your case and yet Feres as well is being challengded all the time- Berta, the initial harm as in service, the first two surgeries immediately (week or months) after the injection. The greatest harm is the comedy of errors by VA, such that unless I lied and admitted I had a less serious (original) disease (pinched disc) I cannot to this day get benefits for arachnoiditis (a five way worse permanent inoperable painful, incontinence, nerve stick in spinal cord to each other, unexpected WHAM no walk for 5 months for relaxing while standing up. Like that. So it has been about 27 years for one thing, most clearly requested and recorded, in 1983- the exam even includes my statement about the stomach and mental problem of arachnoiditis- but then they decided it was personality disorder. Ten years later when I was able to again respond (by leaving Oregon to California they started clear record, and thigns slowly, then suddenly, changed- VA realized there is no personality disorder is ARACHNOIDITIS PAIN (at least). Now VA NEVER EVER has to admit or correct itself- it just gives a few thousand more, a few months more retroactive TDIU. Currently we are getting the one solitary benefit for a year or so prior to July 1990. After that will be the 23 through 30th (guessing) overturned decision in a row for same disability compensation (TDIU) Since 1983. The crazy thing: There is mountain of paperwork everything is quite proven. Next you said: If the BVA decision is flawed to the veteran's detriment the US CAVC can remand the claim. Remembering the brief my attorney said essentially "with this request here, (repeat three times for different events) and these exams here (same repeat) he repeats again and again "Why was this vet not granted TDIU?" But the fact is the VA NEVER EVER turns around! They just write check and say nothing. This way the case is never strengthened, I spend my life trying to prove a serious spinal cord disease. Berta, it is hard to believe: I cannot go get treatment because if they reflexively deny (and THEY DO!) the doctor-student-caused disability, and treat as pinched disk, they will AGAIN make it worse and have proven so: In 1994 they (VA) injected Depo Medrol (steroids)into spinal cord affected area. YOU NEVER DO THIS WITH ARACHNOIDITIS because it creates irritation and PERMANENT SCAR TISSUE> I believe have shown clear the harm from not getting VA to accept the harm it does me, regardless of Military. I gave up on suing military before I got out. With 100% now- what is the basis for the CAVC appeal you have? Earlier effective date for TDIU prior to 1990. This has been, as stated, roughly the 23rd overturned decision since 1991 for this case favorable always to me. But this is no reason (evidently) for Fed or VA to give in and admit error. They have me in this "Time trap" for life without possibility of competent medical care. I am assume that you do mean you have a lawyer who is repping you at the CAVC level. Yep, one of the best I hear. Still, with him, with you, I get upset, not that clear, but KNOW MY CASE. The sole function of the CAVC is to check for prejudicial errors in the BVA decision and to see if you received ypur proper rights under the VCAA. This is good stuff Berta, because I believe I did NOT GET DUE PROCESS because (in 1983-6) the local VA failed to mail me decision to send to BVA with disagreement. There never was a final decision in this TDIU case even back in 1983. The presumption of regularity (post office) is overcome as the Claim file shows they sent notices to response to some one else in Portland who lived on Stark Street. Surely this fellow is cross referenceable and I did check this out, and found a real live vet (almost 15 YEARS AGO) still at that trailer park type place. But nobody cared then. Now he is probably dead. I still need basic health care accomodating treatment caused SCI/D Sorry but you must see a snippet of one aspect, Berta, it is just so nutty to me to see it so clear (followed my claim and case and law whole adult life now! but am now old, not young 19 year old, and am losing mental faculty as is no surprise. Also the EED for retro is the date the claim was filed-for most of all VA claims. The claim was filed and ignored repeatedly over decades, we have stair-stepped back five steps from 1996- 1990 and going backwards over about 18 decisions overturned (approximately), All for TDIU back to 1983 there are written requests. Unless you filed a claim for same condition within one year after your discharge, your EED will be the date you filed the initial claim. This means if taken by itself we move forward to first exam by VA in 1983 or so. There are a avalanche of harms starting there to 1987. Presently the current attorney for the current one year back pay iteration is at CAVC. However there are 7 more years before 1990. It looks like I will win THAT Retroactive unemploment help for disability (TDIU) when I am...74. So maybe will get all benefits by 74 years old a civilian could have got in the same year of injury or one extra- 20 years old. That is a 54 year delay, Berta- can you imagine the insane spirits when they have been pushed like this: "Tell us the disability we want to hear! Do it! Do it! If you dont, we will put you in time trap of eating garbage, starvation, making SCI problems worse permanent, and make treatment dangerous to get (except in California, where great SCI clinic is- but I have to SELL MY HOME and MOVE TO CALIFORNIA or put up with bozos that "Dont need any medical records, films or any data or introduction from your last VA". I dont understand what the basis of your CAVC case is. Earlier effective date. There are many examples of request for unemployment help and VA not following through for year or two before July 1990. Your lawyer is limited to the Rules and Practices of CAVC and cannot include in his/her brief to the CAVC any new information that is tangential to what the BVA decision was about. Tangental. I believe it is Focal. Because am living proof of being on merry go round of VA Claim Processing- but am so unpopular (disease acceptance equates to acceptance of medical harm by VA and fed individuals and admin) the merry go round is MAGNIFIED. Therefore am good example of how bad the VA will fight to keep discriminating against a vet for life sentence. While murderers get three hot and a cot. It really, truly turns my stomach to see what I have said, just like earlier, Berta, it is unfathomably ugly. Behind me are countless suicides and in future, countless more, and all of us (if you will) are together wasting HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF MAN-YEARS. (If there are ten thousand of us, we all wait twenty years to life, that is 200,000 man years or more). So THAT Is how evil this is, I best go, love you Berta for your selfless devotion and calm. Mike

3 million? Let me see... half for taxes, but half for attorney first, or other way around.. ten twenty years of live, 30 to 60 percent loss of value (while you fight life away in decade increments) so you get.. Maybe 200,000 dollars cash. Thoughts? What did I miss? Future "windfall"tax? Heath care surcharge (pay cash, pay extra!)

Tbird, Graphing the incidents on a timeline may be instructive or support your claim have you compared yourself with others with same disease (perhaps Mayo or other reference) and see what precipitators and if the other unusual diseases ordinarily accompany each other. Then get a doctor to comment upon the massed information in writing. There may be more ways to relate the incidents to the invisible incident when staked out in time. As far as the intensity of the beams, it is the square of the distance. If you rubbed near the cone, (inches) this exponentially worse than far away, except you not as tall as radar cone (guessing). Also seek relationship between (if any) the level of body hit assuming a level deck (it was, I am sure) so if the beam hit your head but you have lower body problems take it to a real doctor outside the USA (email may work if you really cogent) because I swear that is one of a few events for me that change it all. For example I am supposedly cited as person who is poisoned by ten times too strong radioactive metrizamide injection... But I cannot find it online. 1980-81, metrizamide, 19-20 year old, NNMC Bethesda. Perhaps even if not helpful with some claim you could find what you can do to improve your life with the truth of what "Got" you? Am not specialist in these matter, am kinda sparky though as you mentioned it. Old Cable? Mike

Pete, We could have one hell of a class action suit if you say I am not alone. How many do you think are here on the Hadit.com website? Thousand? Ten? I think it is reasonable I would get (only referring to what is just not what I would demand) 50,000,000 dollars (fifty million) to ensure I could get all necessary med care for life and engage a staff to retrain brain and body. YOu think that is a lot, 50 mil? Half taxes, 25, half attorney, 25, takes ten years, take thirty percent off for inflation, about 12 million after any added "Lifetime Bonus Tax" is invoked and lost. FYI. Just because I have not sued does not mean I have no case, but I wish to help ALL VETS and by signing non-disclosure, I feel it would be cheezy thing to do to other vets who died by depression, pill, inacceptance, poverty, hate, anger, jail, VA Claim System, malpractice, and (what 7 more). ] I think I have great legal case- but really, money is not really worth pursuing ten twenty years down the road- that is the entire point today! See the time-trap better, Pete, and please be forward and candid, I am not here to get angry but learn how it looks to others. Frankly the last thing I expected in Hadit was "take what you can get" so am intrigued. It seems like you say "It does not matter how much evidence you have, when you presented it, the VA is known to ever slip away and dont bother other greater men have wasted decades, move on?" Mike

Pete, I could accept invitation to tell USA the story on national TV but that has long felt very embarassing for all concerned. I have a book of untold misery and "whodunit" (but you know it is ignorance, sounds like( Also could just start new website and start collecting ugly provable stories then print the website send to President of that time period when I actually accomplish suchlike. Thanks, Pete, keep em coming! Mike

Pete, Thank you. We COULD fight. Mike aka SemperFi aka SCIDvet

Fellow Citizens, The harm to me is so great and so proved. I am spine cord disabled, inoperable, 90% and yet P&T. The harm is: It took a lifetime to get it done. To make this clear: "How useful are disability unemploment benefits decades late OR MORE? People, I love my country, am not poor but hobbled by what little I have. If I got rid of home, could spend money at Mayo Clinic, as such great work REALLY was done by VA doctors and Military of keeping track of what happened when (and SO DID I). As decades past, the brain trauma from injection of metrizamide into spinal cord and brain for Xray starts to clear.(accidentally mixed ten times too strong, it appears and or defective batch in 1980, inservice)/ However, because I cannot sue (feres doctrine) military, I was explained to to turn to VA IMMEDIATELY before getting out and accepting DD214. I did so and indicated request in 1981. Let me take it from the top as 48 year old man no punches pulled AND NOTHING I SAY IS WITHOUT WRITTEN OR XRAY OR OBVIOUS UNQUESTIONABLE PROOF: 1) Minor back herniated disc. 1979. 2) injection of metrizamide causes Spinal cord disease Arachnoiditis. This makes inoperable!!! for LIFE> 3) Doctors operate to get to the disc that was the original problem that was not that bad. 4) Doctors operate incorrectly do not say so but miss and instead operate over the injection site- ironic- as the surgeon describes the harm- and is far far from he original injury (as he admits the next day in writing). They clearly describe the harm and adhesions. 5) I get very upset, having to tell Military Doctors what is wrong. How do I Know? Because am mechanic, electrician, can tell nothing had changed with the original back problem-but pain med also factor. 6) Navy trades me home and to another Army hospital they operate and record the harm from the arachnoiditis- NOT THE HERNIATED DISC- because they were halfway between the two (disc and injection). Summary: Mild back problem. Injection making inoperable. Two operations anyway, they faithfully record what happened as they "Tried to dissect the nerves apart from each other" Aside: What is really going on here is clear to any thinking person and I will not say it because I have no need to hurt your love for your own country. If you see it....Keep to yourself. Is too awful to ever say. So why I write today: I am 27 years into attempt to get minimal benefits, and have been working backwards in time since I got TDIU in late nineties. So far have worked back one year for every three years of waiting. Now we at highest court (court of appeals, I think) and for first time have attorney, and paid, and I thank all USA and heaven for a little help past my brain injury from that injected chemical in 1980. You see, I am broken man. I have reassembled self and it is not pretty but it is pretty powerful to be able to see "The king has no clothes" (government is transparent to me now, in every way I can imagine) except for this: So the decades have passed, VA has committed so many heinous, harmful permanent, physical harms to me (incontinence, impotence, then made me fight about getting THOSE benefits! HEINOUS. Now I have real citizen attorney whom I have written about how this current decision coming up will be about the 30th VA decision of my life that has always been overturned in my favor FOR THE SAME xxxxxxx DISABILITY AND BENEFIT- TDIU. So now, we at the highest court. My attorney gets a little quieter when I point out what is going on if the highest court just gives the benefit and that is all- I STILL HAVE TO FIGHT THE VA FOR LIFE> Why: Doctors have no need to recognize the actual disability (never have) because that is not the RATING. The rating says "herniated disc" (and dont believe the crap about VA not using that info- I have had (in this case, perhaps number 22 success overturn on same xxxxxxx claim) I have had a decision overturned because the IDIOT at VA CITED MY VA DISABILITY CARD as proof of how disabled I was! It is just so stupendously clear and evil and ignorant and HARMFUL TO THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA AND CITIZEN. WHy? Try this: Make the meanest toughest coolest fighting machine imaginable- A Marine- and then xxxx with his spinal cord and pretend you didnt. Then hand him into society, with a wink wink, nudge nudge, to the PORTLAND VA which immediately and for a decade makes the most beautiful recording (claim file) of error after error after error compounding error. Like not sending me notices, mixing me with other peoples claim file (and others having files in mine) and also: Refusing to put two and two together. Example: I come in for first VA physical. They say "How are you MR M----?" I see the trap (at 20 or so years old) and say tough: "I'll Live." (a true statement). The written view of that by VA is "Veteran feels the back problem is something he can live with". Example: Same examination. I could not be examined for anything but herniated disc (but they did mention the other problems I reported (symptoms of arachnoiditis- stomach, mental, etc) so I had a choice in a VA physical: 1) Lie like hell and get benefits *(herniated disc not that bad, in reality)(arachnoiditis BAD but doesnt have same symptoms!) 2) Tell the truth and be essentially rejected not by decision and notice, but by a comedy of errors that spans a state (oregon) and half a decade at least. I chose number Two, Pat, and xxxx LYING. Lying is so awful and my religion does in fact dictate not to. SO here is what I ask: 1) Does anyone dare try to summarize so that the anger and confusion of the above documentary is taken out and the sad true hateful thing can be made clear to my attorney 2) Does anyone have any idea what my rights are to speak with own attorney. Yes! I ranted to him (one email at a time, one subject, like cutting a diamond perfect case)/ I understand and it is my fault being a little cloudy of thought. Why: It is self destructive for a man to admit his own disease. It rubs his nose in it for life (the VA claim system that never says yes, but always gives ground with a few year delay in eacy denial, denial, small grant, denial chain that leads (over a lifetime of claim processing) into: The very most well documented case of discrimination (intent is not mentioned by me) ever seen by the USA. You think maybe Agent Orange and Atomic vets had it worse legally? They did not have proof! The current system is in bad shape when I can show proof and work and get NOWHERE FOR MY WHOLE LIFE except money payment decades late that is worth a tiny fraction of its original value, and further, is only a little bit as useful as when I was FRIGGING STARVING AND FREEZING AND GETTING ARRESTED FOR BEING IN A DAMNED CLOTHING DONATION BOX IN SUB ZERO WEATHER/ Is there anyone that can read this that can help me overcome this terrbile terrible thing wihout taking Fox's ability to make the USA look really, really, really bad (waterboarding has NOTHING on torturing a vet for LIFE to keep him from treatment that will help him get treatment and healing and YES compensation. I cant write any more am gonna throw up./ LOVE YOU ALL AND AMERICA. I DONT QUIT YOU SHOULD HAVE KILLED ME. AM ALSO SMART ENOUGH NOT TO ACT OUT PHYSICALLY. How many God Loved persons made THAT mistake already that are like me? (ALL OF THEM) I owe it to them and you and Constitution to FIGHT THIS> How am I gonna get my attorney to pay attention to my wants in this? A few grand is nothing (the back pay retro we currently fight for) but saving a Country and a Life is something I AM HIGHLY MOTIVATE LIKE A NUCLEAR FIRE TO SAVE If you (VA and FED) cannot deal with it- we need to replace the lot of you. As is provided in Constitution. I am sorry people I cannot read this it destroy my soul Submitted without edit.

Supposedly without REM (rapid eye movement) often concurrent with dreaming, you are not actually getting brain rest. As nutty as it might sound, I feel this is evidence "Consciousness arose from a governing system for night time dreaming, so the dreamee does not fall or make noise, gets better sleep, thus lives to mate more often" I was not kidding when I said disability indeed can create some... abilities... others do not. Not like a radioactive spider (spiderman) but by pushing your awareness completely out of the normal rut most humans are happily esconced in. Pete, and others, There is no doubt that my drinking Pepsi for a) cheap food pain relief c)energy d) depression e) water, caused me to totally avoid normal satisfaction, and a certain Australian professor indicated his observation (paraphrased): "Those who are hyper sensitive to caffeine for whatever reason tend to be those who get hooked." I would add: "Negating the normal impulses in life by a stronger chemical reaction (sugar and caffeine) in some creates a detachment from satisfaction, action, so that (for example) one might enjoy a cleaned up house, but the brain chemistry designed to have you care for yourself (myself) is overrun" Also, all one must do if having a real mental issue to capitalize is "Identify what observations you are capable of that nobody else can see the significance of- then detail the significance to others" Best to all, mike

Hello all, I got acupuncture yesterday, its intent was specifically to give me clarity. Last night I had one of those "once in a lifetime" dreams. I wish to crash through it, my purpose here is to relay, not entertain or seek advice, but if you have a thought, instinct, love to hear it: I had an extremely long, colorful, vivid and violent nightmare. I killed a lot of people, very abnormal. I choked them so hard it broke their spines and all that was left was some rubbery skin. People in the shadows were taking notes (maybe the good guys pushed aside in the prison system). I was (after catching the bad guys) handed a lot of pain pills, was showered with them, getting set up for re-arrest for having pain medications outside the bottle. Many friends helping me instantly went wild like piranhas to get the pills and forgot about me. Politely. Eventually the error was caught, was released, - and I walked right back into the prison, not caring if I lived or died, but to melt them with my glare. I felt invulnerable. The bad guards were before me. (it breaks off here crisp like a 16 mm film that breaks) Instead of the dream interpreting reality, when I awoke, in wonder, the dream rearranged itself as I looked at it to explain itself. Like a puzzle that is assembled upside down, then flipped over. Clarity, indeed! Fodder for thought: I have been fighting the VA since 1981 for being harmed by mistaken medical procedures in the military. I just finally filed a Notice of Appeal with CAVC- so I have my very first choice- to pick a REAL attorney. My brain was burnt by the accidental injection into spinal cord, along with spinal cord. The VA made so many errors it is just ignorant to pretend it was accidental (at the beginning most of all, in 1981-1986). I said to my brother yesterday "The problem with VA is it is federal (USA operated) and the only things the Fed knows how to do is run prisons, and when their """Customers""" (inmates) complain, nobody cares, they are bad guys. My point is those real inmates are really lucky- health care for what is wrong, a cot, three hots, training, and a legal system that is designed to protect inmates (felons) from wrongful action. The VA system is the opposite- but the same. They treat us disabled vets like inmates, but no hot, cot, training, and the legal system is more about protecting the VA from us. Consider acupuncture. When you say to the person "Will I still have my gifts, if I get better" have a laugh on me- I said this. How foolish. I was attached to the sickness. It is always there like my dog, a constant irritating companion, but you know how love is- whatever you are near, you grow to love. That is all. GBA. (A= "We the People")

1) please remove this post as it duplicates the other clearer one, 2) Know I am very grateful, am going to sleep now. I confess I know this (Hadit) website is monstrously cool- but it is very confusing to me. So if I fail to notice everyones help, please overlook. 3) I dropped a note with CAVC (anonymously) suggesting maybe if the NOA to CAVC was included in the BVA decision it would be much easier to co-operate and understand what is going on. Good night, morning, everyone. I feel empty but also not so stressed now. Mike