Almost Over The Edge

[Motherof3]

I am done. Nightmares increasing again, getting to where I'm checking over my shoulders when I go out, bill collectors driving me crazy, 70% barely pays bills, over drafting to make ends meet, haven't seen therapist since May, no appointments available before September, no female therapist available at VetCenter right now. I've done everything I can. Sick of VA, politicians and everyone else lying about help being available. This is enough to make a person breakdown. I don't have any family here. Even if they could get me in to therapist, I don't even have bus fare! Lord, I didn't make it to 52 years old to fall down now!

[Motherof3]

I swear I've gotten worse since I reached out for help and I can't figure out how to get it back under control!!!!!!!

[Guest]

Most VAMC hospitals have walk-ins for veterans health and most counties have DAV vans that shuttle veterans to the VAMC for free. In most cases you have to meet the van but I think they will pick you up and take you home if you need them to. Be prepared to spend a good part of the day at the VAMC

Best wishes

Edited July 26, 2013 by pete992

[Motherof3]

Thanks pete992, I'm aware of all of those. Van is only allowed to pickup wheelchair bound. It's up to driver if they take you home. Most do. I have to take a taxi to pickup point and ride bus to outpatient clinic. My point is that VA does not have enough mental health professionals and the ones I've had/have do not seem to be trained for PTSD. I just get so overwhelmed with nowhere to turn because PTSD/MDD is only understood by the ones who deal with it. Everyone thinks you can just make up your mind to feel better. And if I respond they way I feel, especially to the doctors, they want to label you with aPersonality Disorder. I even told my Primary Care that and she agreed. Little Witch that she is. LOL.

[Motherof3]

Been doing this since 1997. If I wasn't "disabled" I could conduct some of their sessions without a degree. LMBO

[Motherof3]

Probably time to take a break from hadit, eBenefits, myHealthevet, Peggy and Paul (800#), etc.

[Notorious Kelly]

I'm sorry you're in distress, Mother.

Please go to the media, the IG<picket the recruiter's office, try city resources for help.

I hate to see you suffering.