I'm In The Hospital Right Now.

[Robertco]

Hello everyone,

I am currently in a navy hospital in the suicide prevention ward. So open doors, escorted to the bathroom, etc.

I have been diagnosed with Panic Disorder w/o agoraphobia and adjustment disorder.

I have also recently reported hallucination and severe paranoia while having an attack.

I have been experiencing a depression for about 2 years but never bothered to report it until now. I have had 4 panic attacks in 8 months but the last 2 were only a week apart during a month of heightened anxiety. I have felt miserable lately but I am unable to point out a specific cause, It just seems like everything is working against me. I have had suicidal thoughts and showed the doctor the scar where I attempted to gouge out my eye in order to get separated. Under stress I start stuttering but I can't seem to do it in the hospital because there's hardly any stressors around. My shipmates and chain of command are well aware of my stutter, how do I go about asking them to vouch for my condition?

I don't know how to word how I feel and make them understand. I habitually sugar-coat my condition and start sentences with "It's probably nothing". The doctor here seems sympathetic but she says there isn't enough symptoms to validate a medical review board and wants to administratively separate me. I'm worried about my future job applicability if my conditions never go away.

Does what I said warrant anything? Should I fight for a medical board? What should I do?

Thank you in advance.

[john999]

The thing about panic disorder is that it often seems to come out of the blue. Some people I know who have it were abused as kids or had very hard time growing up. You don't want to mention that or VA will say it is all due to family problems that pre-existed military. Probably half the admissions to hospitals for heart attacks are people with panic disorder.

John