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  1. I met with a VSO on Feb 8th 2019 and started my MST/PTSD claim. To be totally honest I am scared to death. The incidents happened during my Navy duty 88-89. I had hid it from everyone including my wife until this past December. I had went to a VSO to talk about other claims when it slipped out and I was offered help to form a claim. We filed an intent to claim in Dec 2018. She suggested I talk with my wife and make an appointment with my doctor. After sitting and having a very emotional talk with my wife and with her support I made an appointment with my personal doctor. I am very lucky to have a great doctor who sat with me and after many tears I was able to explain in detail what had happened. He diagnosed me with extreme anxiety mostly when dealing with other Males ( Authority Figures or when confronted), and PTSD/MST and prescribed an anxiety as needed. What we submitted: A two page statement from me ( Timeline form) A statement from my wife A statement from from my 20 yr old son detailing my issues with examples of my issues with male authority figures A Nexus statement from my Doctor saying he feels that my anxiety and PTSD is definitely caused by what happened while I served. The VSO said that it was the best written Nexus statement she has ever seen in her 10 years in doing Veteran claims. My Questions: After submitting a claim to the VSO how long before it shows up on ebenefits? Mine still shows as intent to file. The VSO says it has been submitted. What can I expect at my C & P exam? How can I prepare myself for the exam? This is what I dread/fear most. Is it ok if I post my journey? I also want to thank all the men and women who have submitted to the MST forum. I now know I am not alone. Being a male and reading that similar things has happened to other males and reading their journeys has prepared me to start my journey and start the healing process.
  2. Looking for some guidance. I served on active duty in the Navy from 87-90 overseas on a ship. My original plans when I enrolled was to do 20 years, Back in Dec of 2018 I met with and amazing Veterans Service Officer about a tinnitus claim which was approved. While there she had handed me a bunch papers about claims and one was on PTSD and MST. She was copying and I was reading the PTSD-MST document and it triggered a bunch of emotions where I started shacking and tearing up. The VSO walked in and noticed my state and asked me if I was ok. I tried to answer her but, couldn't she went and got a male VSO and a male nurse to come in. Once the nurse helped calmed me down the male VSO noticed the document I was reading and we talked for awhile about it and I briefly explained a little. He recommend that I file a DBA for PTSD-MST and recommended the following. I document everything I can remember about the events is causing my stressors: I wrote an eight page document in details about the events. Talk to my wife about what happened and have her write a document on what she sees and how it effects our relationship: After having an very hard emotional talk with her, she wrote a two page document. My 20 year old son also wrote a two page document on things he as seen, even though he only knows a little about what happened. Talk to my doctor about what happened: Made an appointment and discussed detail what happened and he diagnosed me with severe PTSD and anxiety placed on Xanax as needed. He wrote a Nexus letter and has sent it into the VA for me Now I explain a little about what when on when arriving on ship I was assigned to a steam generator room and assigned watch with two other sailors one was a 2nd Class Petty officer and the other a 3rd class. At the time we were doing 12 hour watches 12 on 12 off. The first few watches went well. We were getting ready to pull into Subic Bay Philippines for a few days before heading back to Japan. They both stated " We want you to come out and drink with us and then we can tag team a few girls". Now a little history alcoholism runs in my family and I don'y shy away from drinking I just know my limits. When we arrived in port I hung out with a few of my buddies instead. When we headed back to sea things went down hill. On my first watch back with them they yelled to me to come to the watch booth which was big enough for 2 chairs and a small table/chair between them the whole booth was maybe 4 feet by 6 feet with a center door and windows. When I went in I noticed they both had towels over their laps which wasn't unusual do to it being over 100 degrees in there. I was told to sit down and did then one of them stated we figured out why you didn't go out with use you must be gay and not like girls. I didn't get a chance to answer when they ripped the towels off and exposed themselves to me. I tried to leave but they held the door laughing. I was finally let out and was very shaken up. This happened many time the next few day the both continually exposed themselves to me. I would ask them to stop and would be ignored. I went to my Chief Petty officer and told him what was going and and got this remark back " Why you trying to get them in trouble they are just playing with you". I went to back to my watch and was cornered by them and verbally threatened to keep my mouth shut. With out going in two many details things escalated to the point where I wold come done to watch and they would be masturbating in the open I'd try to move away and they would chase me around. One time I was working in the bilge( bottom area of ship lots of stinky water and valves) under the floor of our work space crawling around attempting to fix a valve when I felt what I thought was water coming down on me upon looking up realized they were urinating on me. A lot more worse things happened. I was very depressed and felt helpless. I tho ought about suicide many time and even cut my wrist once when things were at its worst. Got scared and told everyone I fell and sliced it still have the scar. Other than my failed attempt to tell my Chief about it I never told a soul about it. I ask myself why didn't I fight back? Lets put it this way at the time I weighed about 125 lbs soaking wet and about 5'7". They both were about 170-180 and were both over 6 feet. I was working in a space alone with them at anytime they could injury me say I got hurt working it was my word against the 2 of them. Why has it taking so long for me to open up about this? I always thought that Sexual trauma only happened to woman. I was scared and embarrassed to admit he happened to me. How has this affected me. I have nightmares weekly. I have flashbacks. Something will trigger memories and I'll have panic attacks. I have intimacy issues. I have ED issues that started at an early age. I have issues in places where there may be Male Public Nudity ( Locker rooms, even public restrooms I'll use a stall ) Just because it triggers flashback of them and what they did. I have issues with Male authority figures. I have the tendency to back down from and conflicts even though and right. Fear retaliation And the big one still fear retaliation from them. Still fear after almost 30 years that exposing them and what happened they will find away to get me. Thank you to everyone who reads this. Now my questions: Is there anything else I should include to help my case? I'm aware that after my meeting with the VSO they will set me up with a DBA with someone from the VA. What can I expect from that meeting and how should I prepare for it? What about secondary PTSD symptoms what applies? After meeting with my personal doctor he actually interned at the VA center I going to. He suggested apply for ratings secondary to the PTSD rating for the following. Erectile dysfunction, hypertension. Do you feel that these are ok? Are there others that I should consider or be aware of?
  3. Have a few questions about a possible claim. I was in the Navy back in the 87-90. During boot camp while running our first PT another recruit slipped and fell in front of me causing me to trip over him. I twisted my left hip causing excruciating pain. I remember being helped back to the barracks and originally told to sleep it off. I remember being on the bottom bunk and anytime the bunk moved being in extreme pain. The company commander that was doing the night watch actually came in and had a few of the recruits split the bed apart in the middle of the night do to all the pain I was in. The pain was in the left groin area and radiated to my left hip. I was then sent to the on base hospital, I saw a doctor who says it was just a groin pull and gave me some pain medication and was placed on light duty. Moving ahead about 2 weeks after a few followups, and never getting an x-ray I was sent to a Orthopedic Doctor on base. At first she treated it the same way as just a stubborn muscle pull. After a few weeks of seeing no improvement she decided to run a few test, having me walk straight lines. She noticed I favor my right side. She did some measuring and found that my left leg is almost 1/2 inch longer than my right leg. I was given a lift for my shoe and was given an option of going home or pushing thru the pain and attempting to pass the last PT test .NO X-RAY was ever completed. I stayed in passed the test highly medicated but I passed. During my years in the military I struggled to finish PT runs due to pain in the left hip/groin. I never had issues before I ran many road races and played baseball and soccer during high school years with no issues have documentation to prove that. Have had issues with the left hip through the years. Moving on a few years Oct 2013 I worked as a paramedic and was involved in a significant ambulance accident. While being treated for lower back pain I started developing left hip pain. The doctor and physical therapist stated they felt my left hip was very tight, mentioned my military incident and they felt it could be scar tissue from the pull. Filed a claim in 2014 with the VA and was denied with no rating exam completed. Moving on to May 2015 things were getting worse was sent to s specialist and was found to have a very serious labral tear in my hip. Went in and had a scope surgery done and the Surgeon noted I had three tears one small one on top of the hip and 2 very severe tears at the bottom of the hip near the groin. He stated he wasn't sure if the surgery would last do to the damage and felt that the tears most likely were there from a past injury and the crash just aggravated them. Unfortunately the surgery failed and on Nov 2015 I had my left hip replaced. My question is with the new information from the surgeons should I file a new claim? And if so what should I claim? On going hip issues: Still walk with a limp. Get very tired with walking Still have muscular issues with the left hip Still have pain and discomfort at times with the left hip Any help or comments would be greatly appreciated. Thank you all for your service.
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