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i wish mine was due to meds....its just bcuz i drank like a fish and ate like a pig to avoid everything! im gonna ask today if they va will pay for lapband surgery. the worst they could say is no....

thx larry....enjoy those doughnuts. im sucking down some GGY!!!

ok, im finally filling out my ppwk for my claim. getting it reviewed tomorrow a.m. before i submit to varo. i know alot of us with PTSD are prone to obesity. is that a valid claim with the va? im labelled on my file at the va as obese. hurt my feelings.....i prefer "fluffy" myself

i know that i have seen a sample of buddy statements on here before but i cant seem to find one when i search. anyone have a sample they can share? to be more specific, it would be for someone who worked with me in the civilian sector and was present during a breakdown. thx...

berta, i guess im being remedial and i dont mean to be. what do u mean hinder me from being in the voc rehab program? he never sd anything about it stopping me from utilizing that program. and yes, my disabilities should be sc since i was raped on active duty. its thoroughly documented, too. im lost by ur post. im sorry....

met with voc rehab guy yesterday who is walking me thru my claim. showed him all my medical records and va m/h records. his words...."ur sittin on a gold mine with this documentatioin!" so, he told me how to word it as to avoid being delayed/rejected. im so excited and yet nervous and anxious at the same time. i guess the anxious/nervous comes in knowing that i have to do the dreaded c & p exam. every time i go over the details of the trauma, it sets me back for weeks. i cant function afterwards. its like it just rips my soul out of me. any way....voc rehab sd i was looking at a min of 50-70%. he also told me to file for hardship since i filed for bankruptcy. all this time and now the moment of truth has come. as of next friday, he will review my ppwk to make sure its all in order and i will fedex it to the VARO. im going to time it to see how long it takes to get awarded/rejected. im so ready for this to be over with. then again, maybe its just the beginning of a long journey. whatever it is, im just glad i found u guys to help me along the way. u r all wonderful!!!

2 wk wait? right....dont hold ur breathe on that, kiddo. i was told the same thing and had only a few months of records there. took them 4 months to simply print out the records. stay on top of them! if u dont get the records in 30 days, follow up.

that poor woman. failed by so many. i hope her name and diginity is vindicated in her death. sounds like that detective will do what he can for her. this VAHC needs to be called out on this crap. and i hope her sister gets full prosecution.

i have a combo of it. most of this week, i was so full of energy it seemed never ending! we cleaned the garage (oh, it was horrid!), bought an old car (66 corvair), took out the carbs and broke them down (never done that before), did all the yard work, went scrapbooking, did all the grocery shopping, went to the zoo all day w/ a bunch of kids under 7, cleaned house like a mad woman....then thursday this week, i was in bed all day...no eating, no drinking, no talking. just leave the room and leave me be. i just occupied space. i only get a few hrs sleep at best. been wide awake since 0300. my magic awake time seems to be btwn 0200-0300. and i take sleeping pills, too. i cant go back to sleep, i pace the floors all nite cking the front and back yard. and if it wouldnt disturb the kids, i'd check upstairs, too. better overview of the yard! so, like the others stated, it varies with the person. and, like u mentioned, im a little fluffy, too. funny how that is. all this energy and the weight just stays with ya! geez.....

sgmdae - im coming in late on this one....been in a fog of my own the last few weeks. it is absolutely worth it!!! do not ever think for a minute that it isnt. anytime u can talk to someone about all of this madness we live with daily and they do not judge u but give u guidance, it is a good thing. as for helping ur fellow brothers, u getting help for u is helping them. im sure they would want u to live the best life possible. if u get a moment of peace out of talking to someone, it is worth it! took me 20 yrs to ask for help. i just thought i was bat shit crazy. well, come to find out, i am bat shit crazy but with reason!!! ptsd and the usaf dropped the ball in helping me. hang in there - u will do just fine! u have a great support group on here.

cavtrooper, im from arkansas, too. so, i can honestly say that i think sometimes they r just set in their ways. im the only female in my family to ever serve. when i got out, it was at the start of the first gulf war and i had people treat me so awful when i went back to arkansas! i couldnt get a job (yeah, thats illegal but who's gonna stop them?) and i couldnt connect with anyone. i was isolated. im in no way comparing it to the treatment u guys got during nam but it did give me a tiny glimpse of how u were treated. i have since left arkansas for the anonymity of the big city (insert green acres theme!) and only go back if i absolutely have to. of course, unless its lake norfork then im all over it! that lake gives me such peace of mind....i sincerely hope the mentality of small town folk has now changed.

cavtrooper, im on patrol with u!!! my nightmares r different but the pain is the same. if i get 2 hrs sleep at a time, its a good nite. wish i had some comfort for u, but until then, just know myself and my k-9 baby (MOS shih tzu) have this sentry covered....btw, i like the way u put that MOS that was cute!

purple, i hope u get some relief soon!!!

welcome, dave! glad ur here and thank u for ur service!! i dont have any answers for u cuz im not that far along in mine. however, there r some really wonderful and extremely knowledgeable folks on here who will explain it to u. christy

lol!!! carlie, u had me there for a minute. thats pretty funny....

is a brain scan required w/ a dx of ptsd? im afraid they wont find mine if i have one done. lol

apparently ptsd is the gift that keeps giving, huh?

since for the last 20 yrs i just assumed i was bat shit crazy, i have not studied ptsd and all of its effects. i know that confusion can be one of the symptoms as well as short term memory issues. it seemed as long as i was working, i could blow it off when it happened. and now that i'm on my summer break from school, it seems to be worse. i have entire conversations that i cannot recall at all. i have to write down every single thing that needs to be done that day or u can pretty much assume it wont be done. i cannot even remember to take my pills when needed (3x day.) which reminds me, take pill now!!! im sure some of u deal with something similar. how do u cope with it? is there anything u can do to improve ur cognitive abilities or does it just go down hill from now? ive been lucky not to have overwhelming depression with this, well, at least not that i've noticed. then again, i waited 20 yrs to do anything about it B) but, now, with my brain screwing up, i'm getting depressed. when im around people, like group yesterday, i start crying instead of talking. its so frustrating. and i cant even tell u why im crying! makes me feel weak.

yeah, my fiance (coast guard computer geek) just informed me that he was taking care of it and it is the driver. small detail he forgot to share with me.....the one who has wedding invitations to print! grrrrr! on the upside, u guys were both correct. it is the driver. now, im gonna look for a good spot on the wall that can be easily covered up with furniture.

would the driver be in my laptop or the printer? (showing my blonde here)

just got this thing as a gift. worked like a dream for a few days and now i cant get it to work. i get the following error messages.... printer status: printer not attached to local port how to recover: non-LPT/USB port connections are not supported by this status monitor. um, well, simply put - i need help!!!! i have rebooted, unplugged, replugged, changed the port, put it back to the original port and next will be printer meeting wall. anyone got some ideas?

they sd it was requested....she sd i could look online in the next few days and see if its on there. lm gonna find out her first name and email if its not on there. thx for that tip, carlie!

good point, allan. never thought of it like that. thx for pointing that out! hopefully, i wont have any more issues like that. i always try to be courteous and go to the appropriate people so i dont waste anyone's time. i know i dont like my time wasted. the womens center in mphs is pretty good at making sure us women vets r treated with respect from all depts.

lol - well, if i can make one person laugh a day - ive done good <_< i called the womens center this a.m. and explained the situation and the chewin i got last week courtesy of nurse wratchet. they sd it would certainly be passed on to her superior cuz she called then and chewed them out, too. then they put me thru to another rn who was more than happy to help me and was very pleasant, too. but, the womens center sd i was correct to be calling my pcp at her current location. i hope i dont have to go thru that crap again! and i certainly hope i dont require any shots from nurse wratchet any time soon!! but for now, i will take my one small triumph and be content

i didnt know how to title this one so forgive me if its incorrect.....i just went to renew my trazodone online and saw that my new pcp did not renew the rx when i was in about a month ago. shes new and seemed a bit intimidated so i am gonna give her the benefit of the doubt. but heres the issue folks....i called last week to get a consult to voc rehab. since she is with the womens center, thats where i called. she is covering for another doc in oef/oif part of the vamc so i was transferred there. they put me thru to her nurse so i leave a msg like a good lil' airman. the nurse calls me back chewin my ass like a di in bootcamp! she sd i should call the womens center. god forbid this rn actually does some ppwk for the dr she's working with! i explain to her that i did call, etc. she basically hung up on me spouting she will clear it up. soooooooooo, now i am in desperate need of my trazodone being refilled and i dont want to take the chance of pissin in this rn's cheerios and she nix's my rx. not to mention i was told over and over not to go cold turkey off this stuff. and, honestly, i need the little 2-3 hrs of sleep it gives me. now my anxiety is up cuz after 2 more nites, im out! no more sleep for me unless i can get it refilled. anyone have any similar dealings like this? how can u get it refilled without going thru nurse wratchet? guess my honeymoon with the va is over, huh? <_<