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thx!!

lol!! me, too! man, i would have solved all the problems of the world with that back pay <_< thx for the clarification, folks!

oh no....no discouragement taken. it would be a nice bit of gravy, for sure but i dont honestly look for it. heck - im just happy i know i got a shoe in for a claim right now. but, i will admit that when i saw my records clearly sd ptsd diagnosis and they never made any effort to help me or bring it to my attn, i did consider the bcmr and back pay for retirement. i was furious!

lol! every time i have to go to the va for something, they come out calling "Mr. Wilson" one day, im gonna grab my crotch and ask the doc to hurry up and get the surgery over with! maybe, just maybe they will get the point. i've begged them to get it right. even told them to just simply call me by my first name if they cannot get the sex right.

if im reading this right, my psych records while on active state clear diagnosis of ptsd. i never knew it till i rcvd the records from st louis this past week. so, is it possible that i could get back pay from when i was discharged? or am i having dillusions of grandeur? <_<

im pretty anxious about it. just filed my claim so i havent had an exam scheduled yet. ur exam sounds just like the ptsd eval that i am in the process of going thru. surely they wont make me repeat that. at least i hope not. it took me from friday last wk till last nite to get more than 2 hrs sleep. glad it was pretty painless for u!!

same here....i just thought i was bat shit crazy!!! i was diagnosed with ptsd before i was even discharged. never knew it till i got my medical records yesterday. sure would have made life easier if i knew and was being treated.

im clearly a 70% according to this but who knows how they will rate me. and my prp was not denied until right before i was kicked out. and we have searched my records up and down and we r unable to find any follow up visists to mhc. they encouraged follow up for ptsd mx but never did anything about it. gee, imagine the military dropping the ball on treatment :( but, even after reading my records and seeing that i was clearly diagnosed ptsd, im not bitter now. its like i can see the light at the end of the tunnel. i can breathe now. almost relax....

PRP is something like personal readiness program. not sure of the exact translation. basically, if i was on narcotics or found unfit for duty, my PRP was denied. something along those lines....i havent filed my claim yet. i was waiting on my medical records. NOW i am going to file. i have group today so i am taking my records into my social worker for her to see first hand. my next appt with her isnt until the end of july. hoping this will speed it up. but yes, when i do get my claim in, u can bet ur bottom dollar that this will be in there!!!! right along with how they failed to do anything for me. im hoping this will get me a 100%. im sure that is unlikely but i can still hope!!!

im a little slow today :( just figured out what ur saying there.....Mx is maintenance and PRP 2 (degree sign) - well, its written as 2 degrees w/ the little degree sign. since i dont have that stupid key on my computer....

im lost, wings....i dont know what the comments in blue mean.

seriously?? omg!!! i am so happy! will they still put me thru a c & p exam? i wonder what my rating will be. i know, im putting the cart before the horse but after 20 yrs, i need some relief. thx so much for all ur guidance, wings!! (((hugs)))

thx phillip. well, im hoping this pc of paper is a home run for me since it has a clear assessment of ptsd.

wings - need ur help on this one. looking thru my med records, i found where i was sent to mhc for eval after trauma. there is an acronym on the paper (seen many times on several records) SOAP. im guessing its some kind of acronym to help make sure they get all the details of the visit, etc. my question is does the "a" stand for axis? under the "a" in this particular entry it has: A. I: post traumatic stress traits (v71.09) isolated ETOH-related incident (v71.09) II: no dx (v71.09) can u translate that? or anybody for that fact? and he continues on to state "encouraged MHC F/U for PTSD mx. squadron has responded PRP 2 (degree sign) traumatic incident. or, simply point me in the right direction to translate... thx again for all the input!!

oh, i know. that is how i ordered the medical records. took them much longer than the 4-6 wks. no big deal. just more waiting.

bcuz i dont want to bog the system down w/ an incomplete claim....figured its already weighed down enough

crap! here goes another 6 months of waiting....

thx, phillip. i was hoping for her to chime in later on. she is also guiding me on my bcmr. seems as if i was referred to mhc for ptsd, they would have certainly followed up on it. if not, then in my opinion, it would be gross negligence or something like that.

finally! i get to start my actual claim. looking over the records, i noticed at the time i reported the rape they even have documented in there that i was referred to MHC for ptsd. so, my question is....are mhc records separate from medical records? is that a specific request? if not, there is no record of me even being evaluated for it. oh, and apparently them ordering me to AA was their explanation of alcohol rehab. i didnt go all the time and that is the reason i was put out. seriously? AA? come on now....that was just comical! it hurts none the less.

bronco - i understand what ur going thru. im a single mom (only for a few more months) and had a great job, no credit cards, house in a middle class neighborhood on a corner lot (corner lots r not all that its cracked up to be!!), new truck. i was laid off 2 yrs in a row at xmas which started my downward spiral. the man i was dating at the time walked out on me when i sd i was laid off. my daughter lost the life she knew and that is hard to explain to an 8 yr old. i wasnt able to get any assistance what so ever bcuz i drew unemployment and had child support coming in. mortgage co (ocwen) would not do any refinancing and my credit had already sunk from not working for 4 months. i had to make a choice every month to put food on the table or keep the lights on. i cut out every extracurricular there was. in order to keep my child in dance, i cleaned the studio at nite in return for her lessons. i felt like i hit rock bottom when i had to make the decision to file chapter 13. the atty told me to let the house go into foreclosure. he sd, "the mort co doesnt give a rats ass about u, u dont give a rats ass about that house." so, i walked away....crying myself sick all the way. then, no kidding, a wk later i met the man of my dreams!!! we r getting married sept 5 of this year. but, i also had to convert the chapt 13 to a chapt 7 this year. so, now i will be losing my truck as well. all that said to say this: its hard to understand why we r put thru stuff that seems so hard to comprehend but it is always for a greater good. that bankruptcy was the turning point in my life. it put me in the direction of the va and i started getting help for the issues of 20 yrs ago that i never sought treatment for. i am a better person for going thru it. and yes, i still hate myself for failing financially. sometimes u have to realize that not all things r in ur control. and that is hard for me to say since i am a control freak!!! hang in there, man...ur gonna get thru it. im sorry for ur loss, i completely understand.

i have to agree that its up to the voc rehab person u deal with. i met mine at the beginning of the year and he told me to file my claim, get a minimum of 30% and he'd send me to school. i had no idea what all they offered. i just went cuz someone scheduled the appt for me. told him i was in school already to be a teacher. he actually has a masters in education so that may have been my tie in to him....but, he was a great guy and sd he would send me to school to finish out my degree once i get 30% or better. but, the down side of that was that he handed me a folder with a bunch of bullshit jobs in it that i was supposed to apply for. i did. printed out submissions for him just in case. those jobs were a freakin joke!! i was a transportation planner makin over 50k yr and i was supposed to put in for minimum wage jobs? wtf?? his advice to me was, "look like ur doing ur part. if u do get a job, dont work more than part time cuz it will help with ur claim." so, here i am 5/6 months later and still waiting on my records to file the claim.

oh, i know!!!! ive been researching the board readings to find cases similar to mine. omg! there r so many tossed out for insufficient evidence. and dont even get me started on the frivolous ones for petty things like "change SPD code so airman doesnt have to pay back bonus," geez, r these folks serious? that is their gripe? i guess it takes all kinds to make the world go round. thats why i think i will just hire an atty and go from there. i'll start compiling evidence now and wait for the c&p w/ the va then carry forward.

welcome to hadit.com. u will find many knowledgeable and supportive folks on here. it took me 20 yrs, too before i got help. just started last year. has the va offered to let u speak with a social worker for the mst? that person will do an evaluation for ptsd due to mst and get things started for treatment. i would think that there is a group for male mst survivors at ur va. have u checked into that? and if u do not feel comfy with a male doctor, can u not request a female? or maybe just have a female present during visits? are u married? maybe ur wife could sit in ur regular appts with u, obviously not the mst appts. best of luck to u. hang in there and all the answers will come to u.

thank you, phillip. i am so angry now that i have translated the codes on my 214. they just kept shoving that knife in a little more...it hurts to know that they took away a career that i had wanted since i was a young child. its the only thing i ever wanted to do. now is my chance to make them own up to it and correct it.

thx pete - im trying but it damn near wiped me out today. i couldnt even drive home i was so upset. do u know of anyone who has gone to the bcmr to get things corrected? im hoping that they could reverse it all and medically retire me. long shot but im gonna fight like hell for it.