I'm In The Hospital Right Now.

[Robertco]

Hello everyone,

I am currently in a navy hospital in the suicide prevention ward. So open doors, escorted to the bathroom, etc.

I have been diagnosed with Panic Disorder w/o agoraphobia and adjustment disorder.

I have also recently reported hallucination and severe paranoia while having an attack.

I have been experiencing a depression for about 2 years but never bothered to report it until now. I have had 4 panic attacks in 8 months but the last 2 were only a week apart during a month of heightened anxiety. I have felt miserable lately but I am unable to point out a specific cause, It just seems like everything is working against me. I have had suicidal thoughts and showed the doctor the scar where I attempted to gouge out my eye in order to get separated. Under stress I start stuttering but I can't seem to do it in the hospital because there's hardly any stressors around. My shipmates and chain of command are well aware of my stutter, how do I go about asking them to vouch for my condition?

I don't know how to word how I feel and make them understand. I habitually sugar-coat my condition and start sentences with "It's probably nothing". The doctor here seems sympathetic but she says there isn't enough symptoms to validate a medical review board and wants to administratively separate me. I'm worried about my future job applicability if my conditions never go away.

Does what I said warrant anything? Should I fight for a medical board? What should I do?

Thank you in advance.

[Pete53]

Adjustment disorder is a personality disorder and they won't pay for that but Panic Disorder they will. If you have Panic Disorder it is easy to confuse symptoms with adjustment disorder. You need a clear diagnosis and in my opinion panic disorder is a good reason to get out of service.

I have it

[Robertco]

There are plans already for separation but without disability. My question is why? Is being officially diagnosed not enough?

[john999]

Try and get medical board. You must try and not put words in their mouths like "It is probably nothing" because that plays into their hands as branding you a personality disorder. If you are discharged administratively you may have a hard time getting compensated. Obey all the regulations and don't let them build a case against you for chronic minor infractions. I would try and get a new doctor. If you are having panic disorder to the extent you are having hallucinations then you have a real mental illness. What kind of medications are you on now? You need to be on medications for anxiety and depression. You must fight for yourself or the service will just steam roll you into accepting a PD "unfit" or "unsuitable" general discharge. You don't want that. If you keep talking down your symptoms the military will be glad to screw you over and it will take years to fix it.

John

[Notorious Kelly]

Robert,

I'm sorry to hear of your struggles but glad you're getting treatment.

Hang in there!

[Commander Bob]

Did something happen to bring on your condition? I agree with John999, seek a MEB.

Please take some comfort in knowing that you are not alone. My most positive thoughts are with you 'Robertco'.

Bob

[Commander Bob]

Hello everyone,

I am currently in a navy hospital in the suicide prevention ward. So open doors, escorted to the bathroom, etc.

I have been diagnosed with Panic Disorder w/o agoraphobia and adjustment disorder.

I have also recently reported hallucination and severe paranoia while having an attack.

I have been experiencing a depression for about 2 years but never bothered to report it until now. I have had 4 panic attacks in 8 months but the last 2 were only a week apart during a month of heightened anxiety. I have felt miserable lately but I am unable to point out a specific cause, It just seems like everything is working against me. I have had suicidal thoughts and showed the doctor the scar where I attempted to gouge out my eye in order to get separated. Under stress I start stuttering but I can't seem to do it in the hospital because there's hardly any stressors around. My shipmates and chain of command are well aware of my stutter, how do I go about asking them to vouch for my condition?

I don't know how to word how I feel and make them understand. I habitually sugar-coat my condition and start sentences with "It's probably nothing". The doctor here seems sympathetic but she says there isn't enough symptoms to validate a medical review board and wants to administratively separate me. I'm worried about my future job applicability if my conditions never go away.

Does what I said warrant anything? Should I fight for a medical board? What should I do?

Thank you in advance.

How are you doing, 'Robertco' ?

Please keep us posted on how everything is going.

Cmdr. Bob