There Is A Light At The End Of The Tunnel

[82airborne]

Well my caim is just about finished. Now I can work on physical therapy and mental health. I promise I had no hope in the system but in the end the system proved me wrong. I'm on a long journey to undo over two decades of pure violence. My goal is to become a loving member of society. I still plan to stay in the house. I'm not ready to try to be the social butterfly. THANX again for allowing me to be here in my next level of life. THANX and may GOD bless!

[Testvet]

you are going up and down as fast as a yo-yo, meds do not work that fast, you need to stay home for a few weeks not a few days, you are AC/DC it takes most of us months to get the right meds and dosage levels and you seem to think in a day or two you should be "fixed" because you are are getting a different pill with 80 milligrams etc, it does NOT work that way some of these drugs can take weeks before they get to an effective level in your system, and you can be arrested for driving under the influence just like drunk driving if they impair your driving ability, it is dangerous for you and others for you be be behind the wheel until you know if you can safely drive or not, not out cruising the block looking for a fight.

moving out of LA is not going to help you, you sound like you can find trouble in Death Valley in August, I left southern California in 1985 and I am sure it is not any better now, but in your case I just don't think moving is going to help you, you are just plain looking for trouble with or without drugs

There is no "cure" for PTSD all you can expect is learning ways to help you cope, if you don't want that they can't force you to where you go is up to you not the VA

[82airborne]

you are going up and down as fast as a yo-yo, meds do not work that fast, you need to stay home for a few weeks not a few days, you are AC/DC it takes most of us months to get the right meds and dosage levels and you seem to think in a day or two you should be "fixed" because you are are getting a different pill with 80 milligrams etc, it does NOT work that way some of these drugs can take weeks before they get to an effective level in your system, and you can be arrested for driving under the influence just like drunk driving if they impair your driving ability, it is dangerous for you and others for you be be behind the wheel until you know if you can safely drive or not, not out cruising the block looking for a fight.

moving out of LA is not going to help you, you sound like you can find trouble in Death Valley in August, I left southern California in 1985 and I am sure it is not any better now, but in your case I just don't think moving is going to help you, you are just plain looking for trouble with or without drugs

There is no "cure" for PTSD all you can expect is learning ways to help you cope, if you don't want that they can't force you to where you go is up to you not the VA

THANX you are right. I have been spinning out of control for twenty years. I plan on staying in the house for months. If I can only control my desires. Man I swear I don't want jail. Also I like to apologize to any one being triggered by my post. It is not my intention. It seems writing about it here helps me release my anger or mischeaveosness.

[free_spirit_etc]

"It seems writing about it here helps me release my anger or mischeaveosness."

It is a good thing to write here then. ;)

Stay safe!

[82airborne]

"It seems writing about it here helps me release my anger or mischeaveosness."

It is a good thing to write here then. ;)

Stay safe!

THANX I will stay safe but it's been times where I just couldn't sleep. I would come on here and unload my thoughts I would be sleep five minutes later. I find it's all about finding out how to release your mind of the crazy thoughts then the thoughts seem to go away

[free_spirit_etc]

I hate that when it feels like your mind is all tangled. One way I used to get it out was by painting. I just got paper and water colors and painted and painted. And you are so right - putting it on the paper got it out of me - at least for awhile.

[82airborne]

I hate that when it feels like your mind is all tangled. One way I used to get it out was by painting. I just got paper and water colors and painted and painted. And you are so right - putting it on the paper got it out of me - at least for awhile.

Yup putting it in art probably works to. All that craziness just gotta leave your head by any means necessary. I do music well rap. I rap about my life and desires. By the time I finished. The whole day went by. Without any angry spells or thoughts of violence. It's only when I'm in public these thought come.