ptsd So Confused Of Whats Going On And It Started With Nod And Visit To Ro

[lynnga]

Dx bipolar adjustment disorder with anxiety, depressed mood and sleep issues during bad/abusive and was hospitalized in 2003. Enlisted with past childhood abuse of 4 years was waived and cleared for service. When I got out of military in 06 was given 30% for above dx.

Seeking help for all and nobody else can say I'm bipolar so treated for other issues. Still getting worse regardless of seeing therapist once a week, pscych through va and my private insurance and marriage counseling.

So I went in to file a claim for increase rating because I'm so bad off now that I can't work, and I couldn't handle taking care of my 1&2 year old so we have them in daycare full time. Needed extra money to "make it". I went into my local vet office. He filed claim. During all this I had filed a claim in 2013 for divorce from 2nd husband to be removed and add on my now 3rd husband and 2 new kids. After 2 years almost was given a letter stating I owed money, but it was calculated wrong. They took my ex out and oldest son while I was still married and had my kid for 3 years. I received another later shortly after saying my claim for increased rating was denied because they couldn't get a hold of me for exam (nobody ever called).

Went back to my local vet rep who filed another nod on dependent claim because I was getting nowhere. He also asked that I be given new exam date since I didn't ever hear about geting one. He told me to come back following week to get a hold of east coast because it was closed by then regarding the debt.

Went back, he was on vacation, another rep told me I should head to regional office.

I did. . Showed them my debt paperwork and asked how to speed it up because I feared of not making mortgage and how I couldn't take care of my kids without daycare based on my mental health. Never once did I mention ptsd because I was not aware. Looking back at paperwork, the POA was checked and I signed.

Found out about ptsd, dx through private dr. Wrote va dr asking for eval she said we'd discuss at next appt. Called va number and asked how to go about getting a ptsd on the eval I was already given date for and they said the eval was for ptsd. I didn't understand because it was ordered before dx of dr, or me even knowing about it.

went to va local on monday to ask how to get temp 100% rating so I could get help through an inpatient program but we need to have money coming in to pay for my husband decrease in pay if he takes disability family leave. He told me to just wait until my appt date. But then he said my debt had been taken care of, I didn't believe him and he printed it out. I was given award money, and on top of that for all the years they added on special compensation for kids and husband.

I can no longer access certain med records. I have stuff just showing up on ebenefits but can't see anything. I can't see "appeal status" at all, says it's down until Sep. Anyone else?

There are all these codes I don't understand attached to "historical claims".

What is going on???? I called amvets and the lady said she'd have the person who filed nod for dependents and again put another letter on top of my local office about comp claim. I think they're helping me out, without getting me to do anything, maybe because it's all documented in my military record? I don't know?? But I have major trust issues so it makes me nervous. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do, I never physically filed a claim for ptsd and mst, but can they do that without me based on all the evidence that's already documented? I don't understand how I don't have to do anything, like it's being done for me or something. I have eval on 29.

[Andyman73]

Lynn,

I hope you can hold on for one more day. I am so sorry that you had to go through that after everything else. Seems no one in charge has a clue why Veterans keep killing themselves is ever increasing numbers. Stupid crap like they just put you through is certainly one of the reasons.

I will be praying for you. I can't even begin to feel or know or understand what you've been through. But my heart hurts for you.

[FormerMember]

<<<<<<Dx bipolar adjustment disorder with anxiety, depressed mood and sleep issues during bad/abusive and was hospitalized in 2003. Enlisted with past childhood abuse of 4 years was waived and cleared for service. When I got out of military in 06 was given 30% for above dx.>>>>>>>>>

I believe this is part of your problem. You may only be rated forone mental illness as a disability. You've been dx'd with 30% at discharge for what appears to be bipolar disorder. You cannot have another rating for PTSD in addition to the bipolar one simultaneously. The ratings percentage will still be the same for either disorder based solely on your degree of disability. Jumping ship in midstream from bipolar to PTSD confuses the issue and it becomes harder. Best of luck. It looks like a difficult road ahead.

[lynnga]

Doing better. Went to er and talked to the psych and all decided best not to mix me with the gen pop in mental health. Getting me in sooner. What's weird is I filed a nod based in a mistake for dependents that led to $6k debt. They fast tracked it and I was awarded $4300 + any withholdings and they added smc under code "s" for all the years I've been out. Not sure how I got that.

[Andyman73]

Well, at least it's a step in the right direction. I will keep praying for you.

[lynnga]

Ok call me paranoid or whatever. But like I said weird things are going on and I'm at my wits end and about to get rid of my POA for amvets. Here are some examples. (FYI, maybe because of my last of trust due to ptsd, I'm pretty damn good at "researching" and my dad is a computer nerd who retired from the military and now works for the state gov in computer security as the main guy).

I have gone to va oakland RO, with my mil who works for social security for the last 30 years. Let's just say she totally gets why I'm so confused. I have never spoken directly to the amvets supervisor in "charge" of my case. The people below him have limited access to it and because he's on vacation I still have no answers. The VSO was confusing, telling me my paperwork was wrong on my claims. He told me to withdraw the appeal and just do the reconfiguration. He first suggested we go to calvets, then said that he was actually the best person to go through, and said get rid of amvets. Then his supervisor after hearing my story said we should STAY with amvets, but the vso said NO, just go through him and he withdrew my appeal. We were there 4 hours and probably left more confused then when we got there.

Still don't know about my award because it was given to debt management even though the award was based on their mistake and they added the smc (that nobody else can see expect me when I got those 3 extra attached papers that I was told I should have never been given.

All of a sudden I'm getting credit card paperwork from my credit cards saying that they're being closed due to no activity, or changing to synchrony bank. Now I don't believe it's a coincidence that I've gotten 3 in the last week. None of which have any debt on them as they were paid off. But they have codes attached: s207, s206 and some other codes on bottom. I was able to look up and it basically says "for household" or one of the credit cards are from when I got breast implants and that came up as "malpractice". The one for Old Navy said I'd get a new card but would have to activate it and that was the one that stated "household".

DEERS, I've been getting notices to update but can't through computer so I physically went to base and was told because I don't have "original certified copies" to bring back. I was already so anxious being there, the girl could tell so she told me to just walk up to the desk and she'd help me when I got back, however I was able to fax it in. They had my 2nd ex under my social (who was a drug user and I left abruptly with our 2 year old and never looked back), and the had me as my sponser when I went to ER on base and I kept saying that wasn't right, he was kicked out of the military shortly after I left for drug use, heavy drugs.

Not a single person can give me answers to whats going on with my claim and what I need to do. I was called by my va dr yesterday saying they're filling out my referral package for the program I want to get into.

My access is limited on ebenefits even though I have premier account. I cannot get into my direct deposit and contact info to update.

The most terrifying thing to me is I don't trust how the military handled mental health. I mean, they sent me to the hospital because I was crying asking for time off work while my friend and only support was visiting me during that awful time and then I just sat there for four days over the weekend when the Dr wasn't even there except 2 days. I was wisked away, no idea it was coming. It was horrific.

I don't know if this is why it's a complex case as I've been told, but maybe because I was arrested for domestic violence ( I hit my husband in his right arm), all charges dropped, never got a court date. This was 3 months after our 3rd baby. I was so sleep deprived and having two babies back to back I think made things worse. Especially with my husbands long hour days and night shifts.

I went to ER on Friday, they took a ton of blood and sent me home after talking to psych. I was able to look at tricare but results weren't in. It was a whole lot of drug tests (which I know I'm negative minus my 2-3 xanax a day for sleep and anxiety, and my prescribed adderall XR for ADHD). I don't drink except maybe once or twice a month, I had a glass of champagne the night before with mil and that was one glass, I hate pot, makes me paranoid.

I've always had great BP, I kept setting off the alarms while in labor because it was low. When I went to ER it was 142/86, I weigh 110lbs my average is 130 but because of stress I don't eat often.

With all these confusing answers and feeling like I'm on trial and paranoid when I know things are happening without them thinking I will put it together... I feel like Mel Gibson on Conspiracy Theory.

Who's the best VA lawyer, attorney?

I found stuff in my medical records at my exit exam.

[Chuck75]

There are many issues discussed in your post that I have no usable advice for.

One thing that stood out to me was they you do not have full access via your Ebenefits account.

It's VA more or less standard practice to limit access when a veteran has a mental health related

history or compensation.

I would also say that the situation seems complex, and I believe that the usual service org rep is not equipped to properly deal with it.