ptsd Do I Have Ptsd?

[szuhay18]

I recently separated from the Army after 10 years, I served 1 year in Korea on a 4 man DMZ patrol/monitor detachment, and 13 months in Iraq (2010) as an Electronic Warfare Systems Integrator. I had my share of convoys, rocket attacks (at least weekly), QRF casualty duties, and attempted infiltrations for attack/abductions by the enemy - usually while sleeping. I took no life and came back with my brain and body physically intact. Since Iraq, I (as well as loved ones) have noticed a difference in my personality/actions. I'm anxious all the time which leads to small panic attacks and anger to anyone/thing near me. I randomly think of violence and how society is blind to reality of it all and find myself more aggressive in nature. My mood literally goes from ok - anxiety - anger - hate - depression within minutes and will recycle itself.

I hate crowds and will avoid them at all costs, I have trouble when not facing an entry/exit point while out and about. I have trouble staying asleep at night because I feel like someone is in my house, sometimes checking on my kids in an aggressive panic throughout the night, I've even felt like I see someone's shadow in their hallway at times. Random images of my loved one's being killed in the typical terrorist fashion pops in my head randomly throughout the day...I hate it and have to shut down and force my thoughts on things that make me happy. I constantly lock any door I'm around and carry while home. I hold a decent job but have to step away to calm my anxiety and anger and at times want to give up when the depression hits. I feel too guilty to claim this since I have friends and family that have much worse experiences from the military and just can't figure out how and why I've turned out to be this way...any input is much appreciated.

[knap-sack]

I have been seeing psychologist about a year weekly. I also go to group also. It helps dealing with the family.

[WVSERVER]

How do you all manage treatment, work and homelife because it stress me out we I have to be at the VA so much for groups and treatment plus work and home I end cutting it short the VA wanted me to attend 4 groups a week plus weekly counseling and monthly doctor visits its way too much. But then they act like if I don't do that I have no chances of a full recovery. My goal has always been a full recovery over compensation I have just not been able to obtain the results.

[DejDan]

Thanks for all of you guys advice. I flied my claim and have continued treatment. Also have went to my c and p exam for PTSD. Again thanks for the encouragement