ptsd Am I on the right path?

[Dennis1989]

Hey everyone,

This is my first post on any site regarding the issues I deal with. Before I go on with my question I would like explain my situation. I am a former Infantryman with multiple, isolated, combat deployments that has lost many close friends. I have always swept my feelings to the side and told myself that I am strong enough to keep my issues to myself. I have done this for a few years now and it has gotten extremely painful.

I have left jobs to have new beginnings so that I could attempt friendships again. It isn't that I am mean to anyone or disrespectful what so ever, Its that I am so uncomfortable in my own skin I always feel awkward. I am so impatient with every thing in my life, even my wife when all she wants is for me to put forth an effort towards getting things ready for our unborn son. I try to interest myself in things but all it does is result in me pretending to care. I feel so disconnected from every thing that I don't know what to do any more. I moved across the country for a new start at life and I am constantly depressed, anxious and unable to keep relationships. When I go outside and I make contact with a neighbor my heart sinks and I don't know how to react... I end up waving, putting on a fake smile and than for an hour I think about how uncomfortable it was and that I hope they aren't outside when I come back home. I can't put a title on what my issues are but it's so uncomfortable. I don't know if it is PTSD or what but this is not how I was before the Military. Sorry to rant.

I am currently seeking attention from the VA but its taking a while. I made my claim for combat- related PTSD with hopes that the VA would schedule my appointments. (I have never done anything like this so if I am wrong please don't crucify me). The steps I have taken are as follows:

1. Claim has been made through E-Benefits with my DD- 214 attached including "combat/ time in country/ etc."

2. My claim has been accepted and a "development letter" has been sent out.

3. I scheduled an appointment with a civilian LPC therapist. That is later this week.

I have read on many sites that with a Combat Infantryman Badge, proof of a "nexus" and a Diagnosis of PTSD, the claim is usually OK. My question is, am I taking the correct steps for a successful claim? What else should I do?

Thank you guys in advance.

[flores97]

Congratulations Dennis1989, on your rating! Please take the valuable advice of the other members and seek treatment as well, especially the counseling.

[Dennis1989]

Thanks.

I am already seeking therapy which I look forward to. Thanks brother

[TALON II FE]

Dennis, the hardest part may be to continue treatment.  I have been going weekly for about 9 months.  I don't always make it to my appointments, but I have a pact with myself to always 'get back on the horse' when I miss a week.  It is easy to stop going and digress; it really is a daily battle.  Get your family, friends, etc to support you if that is an option.  If not, get a battle buddy.  Make sure you are receiving treatment from the 'right doc', someone you are comfortable with.  I wish you the best, it is not an easy road but it is still the best path available.  I am not on here as much, reading others going thru these types of issues actually triggers me sometimes, can't stand to see how people get treated.  BUT, I can always be pm'ed since that will send me an email and will respond.  I am always willing to help to the best of my ability, even if that is just as a sympathetic ear or a sounding board.

[Dennis1989]

Thanks Talon. I am seeking help now and I will be in touch if need be. I am also available at all times. Stay strong!