tdiu Will I Escape My Anti-Social World

[82airborne]

Well this is a new thread. I have completed a 16 week course of psychotherapy in a group of about 10-15 people. I have realized I prefer being alone away from strangers. I hate going to hospitals and it's a bunch of STrANGE individuals around me. Right now I'm feeling extra jittery lightheaded shaky all of the above. My question is how will psychs are MEDS stop these crazy thoughts that I have. Will I stay jittery. I swear I take about close to tn pills a day my primary are physician says that my liver points are up. It could be because of the pills I don't know. That's one reason I been paranoid of going to the doctor. When I didn't go to the doctor all my lab results was fine. Now that I keep current with doctors it seems my health s getting worse and worse. Ok I'm 90% disabled my income is ok and stable but it as done nothing far as my mind and the way I think. So I realize like a said months ago no money in the world would benefit you if your mind isn't right. So yes I plan on staying in therapy just not group counseling. I will only leave the house for doctor visits and psych visits. I will avoid being around strangers because I still have a very violent side that's easily provoked. This February I turn 40. Will I part I doubt it. I have no real. Desire to party with others. Even with my family I have mild desires of being with. So this is where I'm at right now. My insurance waiver has been waived for 10,000 dollars of insurance I called the insurance to check and make sure I was right because in my health right now death. Is certan to my future. I told her I was 90% disabled and my fees was waived she said the only way it was waived if I was Lund totally disabled. So I guess they got me at 10O% disable they just haven't told me. I don't know. I plan on calling the 800 number to check to see if I need to submit anything for the tdiu part of my claim. OOOOH well today starts a new chapter of my life after group therapy. Once again THANX for having me one more time. This place have helped me get through many miserable nights when insomnia reared it's ugly head after I wrote out my thoughts on here I was able to go to sleep so I guess venting helps

[82airborne]

Well they have upped my dose of prazosin to 7 pills for nightmares and my new sleeping pills will be ambien. Hopefully this will help me sleep better. So here I sit inside my room until my next appointment tomorrow. Hidden from the world. It's not bad. I prefer having a choice to be able to leave than BEIN locked up in jail. I will pick up me MEDS tomorrow hopefully they work ok on me. Hmmmm we shall see.

[63SIERRA]

those ambiens will knock you out like a mike tyson uppercut. Good sleep too. you gonna like em.

I had some good dreams too, kind of damp if un know what I mean. dreamed things from long ago, but good things, ]woke up feeling like I could hike mt everlast

Edited December 4, 2013 by 63SIERRA

[63SIERRA]

DO NOT drink alchohol with those ambiens, they cause a condtion. called " driving in your sleep". several known cases of people driving , AND CANT RECALL. even going to bed, much less getting in their car, and driving.

[82airborne]

DO NOT drink alchohol with those ambiens, they cause a condtion. called " driving in your sleep". several known cases of people driving , AND CANT RECALL. even going to bed, much less getting in their car, and driving.

Wow doc said it may cause sleep walking. I only drink every blue moon. Thanx for the warning.

[82airborne]

Man I was sitting in my car I started. Wondering where did it all go wrong. If I could talk in deep about my past twenty years. I have been running wild like a madman good lord. Now I wonder why my thoughts are the way they are. I don't know how much psychotherapy group counseling is going to work. Medicine I take have not had a impact on my violent nature. I just don't get it. My head just seem clouded. All the things I had interest in I don't have it no more. My child hood friends only a few I remember they actual name. I don't even really care to go to thanksgiving Christmas dinner with all my family. I love hanging with my pops he enjoy the woods and nature like me. The rest just seem like they deal with me because I'm related to them. I feel like a emberassment to my family. I'm like the black sheep the lunatic of my family. They do not understand or have compassion for what I'm going through. I don't even truly understand what I'm going through. Why can't I feel love for people. I love my family I would do anything for them but if I don't see them for twenty years I don't think I would mind. Sometimes I feel like I'm in a coma and this is all one big nightmare. One thing that gets to me is my ringing wars. A noise that nobody hears but me. The doctors have not done anything to help me in that situation. The doctor said these nightmares I have will mist likely last forever. How do I feel about that I just don't know. Well tomorrow I pick up my sleep sleep MEDS hopefully I don't tweak out after taking them. Well till next time we meet. Have a blessed night soldiers!!!!!!

[Navy04]

I take a lot of meds, and some to sleep and not dream, yet I go to bed around 12 every night and I usually wake up around 3 or 4. Just so tired of being tired and sick, I am only 31 yet my mother did die at age 35, so I guess I shouldn't complain just yet. Good morning to all.