tdiu Will I Escape My Anti-Social World

[82airborne]

Well this is a new thread. I have completed a 16 week course of psychotherapy in a group of about 10-15 people. I have realized I prefer being alone away from strangers. I hate going to hospitals and it's a bunch of STrANGE individuals around me. Right now I'm feeling extra jittery lightheaded shaky all of the above. My question is how will psychs are MEDS stop these crazy thoughts that I have. Will I stay jittery. I swear I take about close to tn pills a day my primary are physician says that my liver points are up. It could be because of the pills I don't know. That's one reason I been paranoid of going to the doctor. When I didn't go to the doctor all my lab results was fine. Now that I keep current with doctors it seems my health s getting worse and worse. Ok I'm 90% disabled my income is ok and stable but it as done nothing far as my mind and the way I think. So I realize like a said months ago no money in the world would benefit you if your mind isn't right. So yes I plan on staying in therapy just not group counseling. I will only leave the house for doctor visits and psych visits. I will avoid being around strangers because I still have a very violent side that's easily provoked. This February I turn 40. Will I part I doubt it. I have no real. Desire to party with others. Even with my family I have mild desires of being with. So this is where I'm at right now. My insurance waiver has been waived for 10,000 dollars of insurance I called the insurance to check and make sure I was right because in my health right now death. Is certan to my future. I told her I was 90% disabled and my fees was waived she said the only way it was waived if I was Lund totally disabled. So I guess they got me at 10O% disable they just haven't told me. I don't know. I plan on calling the 800 number to check to see if I need to submit anything for the tdiu part of my claim. OOOOH well today starts a new chapter of my life after group therapy. Once again THANX for having me one more time. This place have helped me get through many miserable nights when insomnia reared it's ugly head after I wrote out my thoughts on here I was able to go to sleep so I guess venting helps

[82airborne]

Ambien caused me to have amnesia. I forgot parts of days. It is tricky stuff. If you take any sleep med for more than two weeks you will probably have rebound insomnia when you stop taking it. Ask your doctor about "rebound insomnia".

John

Yeah my doc said for me not to take it every night only when I need it.

[82airborne]

Well my ebenefits is in the perpetration for notification for tdiu. My claim is scheduled to be complete by January to march. I got my fingers crossed for 100%. Well only time will tell what will come of this. If it goes through my next step is to move away from los Angeles. So I will keep YALL updated on what happened. I originally filed November 2010. So I'm going on my fourth year of waiting. Last of all I want to thank everybody for their knowledge and support. Thanx

[82airborne]

Ok well I have been taking ambien. My dreams are changing. I'm starting to dream about people that's in my past from long time ago. I'm starting back fighting in my dreams. Prazosin is suppose to stop my dreams but it's like this ambien is bringing them back. I still feel KOOL I have not been having violent thoughts really. But I have not put myself in a position to get angry. I'm pretty much in the house 24/7. I'm going to keep taking the ambien to see but it's almost doing the same thing as Wellbutrin besides having frequent urination. That's what started happening with Wellbutrin I was having down right emotional disturbing dreams. So this is where I'm at today. TRUTHLY these new dreams the people I dream about do not look the same. They look twisted and wierd. Also I'm still hallucinating at night. For some strange reason. When I open my eyes at night I see spiders hanging over me. I'm not scared of critters but I'm wondering why I see these things that I know isn't real. That's all. :-)

Edited December 11, 2013 by 82airborne

[82airborne]

Well as of today I am tdiu 100 for not being employable. My battle is over. Now all I have to do is tie off some square ends in Los Angeles then I'm moving to the suburbs of California. I got to thank GOD for showing mercy on me. Also I want to thank all the soldiers who cared to give me advice during my sad days. Thanx.

[Loose Cannon]

Congratulations Big Time to you for your victory!! I hope you continue to have better days ahead. Keep your doctor well informed on how the meds affect your symptoms as they can be adjusted. I take Ambien too and it has helped me get a good continuous sleep. Also take Prazosin for nightmares & dreams but the high dose was making me very dizzy and lightheaded so my doc reduced doseage.

Stay with it and give it time to really evaluate what the medication bennies are for you. Best of luck as you move forward in your life. Thanks for your service to our country!

LC

[82airborne]

Congratulations Big Time to you for your victory!! I hope you continue to have better days ahead. Keep your doctor well informed on how the meds affect your symptoms as they can be adjusted. I take Ambien too and it has helped me get a good continuous sleep. Also take Prazosin for nightmares & dreams but the high dose was making me very dizzy and lightheaded so my doc reduced doseage.

Stay with it and give it time to really evaluate what the medication bennies are for you. Best of luck as you move forward in your life. Thanks for your service to our country!

LC

Thanx. :-)