tdiu Will I Escape My Anti-Social World

[82airborne]

Well this is a new thread. I have completed a 16 week course of psychotherapy in a group of about 10-15 people. I have realized I prefer being alone away from strangers. I hate going to hospitals and it's a bunch of STrANGE individuals around me. Right now I'm feeling extra jittery lightheaded shaky all of the above. My question is how will psychs are MEDS stop these crazy thoughts that I have. Will I stay jittery. I swear I take about close to tn pills a day my primary are physician says that my liver points are up. It could be because of the pills I don't know. That's one reason I been paranoid of going to the doctor. When I didn't go to the doctor all my lab results was fine. Now that I keep current with doctors it seems my health s getting worse and worse. Ok I'm 90% disabled my income is ok and stable but it as done nothing far as my mind and the way I think. So I realize like a said months ago no money in the world would benefit you if your mind isn't right. So yes I plan on staying in therapy just not group counseling. I will only leave the house for doctor visits and psych visits. I will avoid being around strangers because I still have a very violent side that's easily provoked. This February I turn 40. Will I part I doubt it. I have no real. Desire to party with others. Even with my family I have mild desires of being with. So this is where I'm at right now. My insurance waiver has been waived for 10,000 dollars of insurance I called the insurance to check and make sure I was right because in my health right now death. Is certan to my future. I told her I was 90% disabled and my fees was waived she said the only way it was waived if I was Lund totally disabled. So I guess they got me at 10O% disable they just haven't told me. I don't know. I plan on calling the 800 number to check to see if I need to submit anything for the tdiu part of my claim. OOOOH well today starts a new chapter of my life after group therapy. Once again THANX for having me one more time. This place have helped me get through many miserable nights when insomnia reared it's ugly head after I wrote out my thoughts on here I was able to go to sleep so I guess venting helps

[82airborne]

YES 150 acres would be too fun. shooting the bb gun, make a track to ride mini bikes and 4 wheelers and play hide and seek with my son. hunts dove, wild boar, deer, squirrels. make a cable ride from one big tree to another that spans abt 75 yards. build bon fires and roast hotdogs and marshmallow. get some wild varmit calls and see what we can call in. metal detect the land and see what kind of old stuff we could find. raise some chickens and get fresh eggs. get a few cattle, fatten them up and then go sell them. SO much you can do when u have land outside the city limits.

Yeah sounds like paradise

I live in east texas on a lake in the country and we love it. I have only been here 6 months and not fished much. We have a big 4 wheeler, and I just made a big fire two days ago, and I grill weenies for the kids. Only neighbors I have are Coyotes, Horses and Cows, and my Big Perenese brings a dead skunk to the back porch every now and then Lol.

I love fishing I would fish everyday.

[63SIERRA]

lAKE O PINES?

[63SIERRA]

I may locate to either east texas, or north louisiana if I get my loot. sick of central texas. too many rules, and conformist ocd people.

[82airborne]

I may locate to either east texas, or north louisiana if I get my loot. sick of central texas. too many rules, and conformist ocd people.

I wanted to move to Texarkana but they are to strict for me plus they cost of living is excellent. In Texas I would end up doing life. In Cali they are a little nicer to certain things. (420 friendly). :-)

[ncjoe1970]

I'm trying to get my wife to move to Colorado. Get a place in the woods, away from people, by a lake or river. One day we will head that way, away from drama (people) and try and find peace again. I read posts on here everyday, and we are all alike in one way or another. For years I didn't speak to anyone because they did not understand. Very glad I found this site and see there are others just like me. Helps in finding some sort of sanity in life with others that can relate.....

[Hollis]

well I do build a nice fire and sit outside , sort of a comfort zone for me. When the weather is right I like to go camping, I have a motor home and love to go to state, national parks and the CoE parks. I ask to get to the away from other to be along. But over the years I have found so many veterans camping with there problem and never go and ask for help. I try to encourage them to. Oh I TELL THEM THEY EARNED IT so go ask for it.