tdiu Will I Escape My Anti-Social World

[82airborne]

Well this is a new thread. I have completed a 16 week course of psychotherapy in a group of about 10-15 people. I have realized I prefer being alone away from strangers. I hate going to hospitals and it's a bunch of STrANGE individuals around me. Right now I'm feeling extra jittery lightheaded shaky all of the above. My question is how will psychs are MEDS stop these crazy thoughts that I have. Will I stay jittery. I swear I take about close to tn pills a day my primary are physician says that my liver points are up. It could be because of the pills I don't know. That's one reason I been paranoid of going to the doctor. When I didn't go to the doctor all my lab results was fine. Now that I keep current with doctors it seems my health s getting worse and worse. Ok I'm 90% disabled my income is ok and stable but it as done nothing far as my mind and the way I think. So I realize like a said months ago no money in the world would benefit you if your mind isn't right. So yes I plan on staying in therapy just not group counseling. I will only leave the house for doctor visits and psych visits. I will avoid being around strangers because I still have a very violent side that's easily provoked. This February I turn 40. Will I part I doubt it. I have no real. Desire to party with others. Even with my family I have mild desires of being with. So this is where I'm at right now. My insurance waiver has been waived for 10,000 dollars of insurance I called the insurance to check and make sure I was right because in my health right now death. Is certan to my future. I told her I was 90% disabled and my fees was waived she said the only way it was waived if I was Lund totally disabled. So I guess they got me at 10O% disable they just haven't told me. I don't know. I plan on calling the 800 number to check to see if I need to submit anything for the tdiu part of my claim. OOOOH well today starts a new chapter of my life after group therapy. Once again THANX for having me one more time. This place have helped me get through many miserable nights when insomnia reared it's ugly head after I wrote out my thoughts on here I was able to go to sleep so I guess venting helps

[82airborne]

I take a lot of meds, and some to sleep and not dream, yet I go to bed around 12 every night and I usually wake up around 3 or 4. Just so tired of being tired and sick, I am only 31 yet my mother did die at age 35, so I guess I shouldn't complain just yet. Good morning to all.

Mourning yeah I'm 39 it seems like mt health is going downhill fast

[82airborne]

Man so I upped my prazosin I don't try ambien till tonight. Guess what my dream I was right back in the army medic pack ruck sack it had to weight 200 pounds. When I woke up I see a big black spider on the door legs moving but guess what it was all a hallucination. :-/. This prazosin only work for a little bit I guess till your body gets use to it. Nightmare and night sweats. Just about every night. Only thing is I can't really remember my dreams but I know what they are about. I don't know if that make sense. OOOOH well that's where I'm at today.

[Hollis]

hang in there 82 AB, I went thru the 16 weeks also, and I still go back to the meeting every 2 months. I did enjoy the meeting as it was a learning process for me. I thought was the only one who was crazy with night mares and night sweats. I am not a real loner but I can't do crowd.s, if around a group of vets I fell better . I also moved from the city to the country to have piece. I have 150 acres behind me so I go and get loss for awhile when I am in the dumps with problems. Hang in there and looks for ways to bring you piece.

[82airborne]

hang in there 82 AB, I went thru the 16 weeks also, and I still go back to the meeting every 2 months. I did enjoy the meeting as it was a learning process for me. I thought was the only one who was crazy with night mares and night sweats. I am not a real loner but I can't do crowd.s, if around a group of vets I fell better . I also moved from the city to the country to have piece. I have 150 acres behind me so I go and get loss for awhile when I am in the dumps with problems. Hang in there and looks for ways to bring you piece.

Sounds good I wish for 150 acres that sounds like heaven. Especially if it was on a lake

[63SIERRA]

YES 150 acres would be too fun. shooting the bb gun, make a track to ride mini bikes and 4 wheelers and play hide and seek with my son. hunts dove, wild boar, deer, squirrels. make a cable ride from one big tree to another that spans abt 75 yards. build bon fires and roast hotdogs and marshmallow. get some wild varmit calls and see what we can call in. metal detect the land and see what kind of old stuff we could find. raise some chickens and get fresh eggs. get a few cattle, fatten them up and then go sell them. SO much you can do when u have land outside the city limits.

[Navy04]

I live in east texas on a lake in the country and we love it. I have only been here 6 months and not fished much. We have a big 4 wheeler, and I just made a big fire two days ago, and I grill weenies for the kids. Only neighbors I have are Coyotes, Horses and Cows, and my Big Perenese brings a dead skunk to the back porch every now and then Lol.