tdiu Will I Escape My Anti-Social World

[82airborne]

Well this is a new thread. I have completed a 16 week course of psychotherapy in a group of about 10-15 people. I have realized I prefer being alone away from strangers. I hate going to hospitals and it's a bunch of STrANGE individuals around me. Right now I'm feeling extra jittery lightheaded shaky all of the above. My question is how will psychs are MEDS stop these crazy thoughts that I have. Will I stay jittery. I swear I take about close to tn pills a day my primary are physician says that my liver points are up. It could be because of the pills I don't know. That's one reason I been paranoid of going to the doctor. When I didn't go to the doctor all my lab results was fine. Now that I keep current with doctors it seems my health s getting worse and worse. Ok I'm 90% disabled my income is ok and stable but it as done nothing far as my mind and the way I think. So I realize like a said months ago no money in the world would benefit you if your mind isn't right. So yes I plan on staying in therapy just not group counseling. I will only leave the house for doctor visits and psych visits. I will avoid being around strangers because I still have a very violent side that's easily provoked. This February I turn 40. Will I part I doubt it. I have no real. Desire to party with others. Even with my family I have mild desires of being with. So this is where I'm at right now. My insurance waiver has been waived for 10,000 dollars of insurance I called the insurance to check and make sure I was right because in my health right now death. Is certan to my future. I told her I was 90% disabled and my fees was waived she said the only way it was waived if I was Lund totally disabled. So I guess they got me at 10O% disable they just haven't told me. I don't know. I plan on calling the 800 number to check to see if I need to submit anything for the tdiu part of my claim. OOOOH well today starts a new chapter of my life after group therapy. Once again THANX for having me one more time. This place have helped me get through many miserable nights when insomnia reared it's ugly head after I wrote out my thoughts on here I was able to go to sleep so I guess venting helps

[Navy04]

I am going to a Trauma PTSD treatment, and times are tough. One of my best friends who was a Korean and Vietnam, died last week and the funeral is today. They wanted me to Present the Flag. I am not going and I feel bad, but I just cant deal with this today. Everyone in my life that I have loved, have died. I lost my parents as a Kid, and my wife's father and mother were killed when she was a teenager. We are all we got and that is why I can always depend on the love from my Veteran Brother and Sisters. Sorry I have rambled, just looking for meaning in life, as we all are.

[john999]

As I get older I see my Vietnam vet generation and friends dying off pretty rapidly. I don't think it is normal for a guy to die at age 62-65 in this day and age, but the RVN vets are dropping like flies. I have begun creepy habit of read the Obits and checking to see Vietnam vets who have died. I see them in the newspaper every day along with the WWII vets and Korean vets. I am writing my own obit so I can get it all right and blame my death on Uncle Sam at the same time. Another vet dies from agent orange....."huh, what dat" says the public, and "who cares anyway"?

[63SIERRA]

82 ND I was reading up on that crash at Pope AFP, what a tragedy. Its really tragic to see soldiers suffer like that in an accident. A crazy chain of events in the blink of an eye, that changes everything. Keep on keepin on, and I pray for you.

[82airborne]

82 ND I was reading up on that crash at Pope AFP, what a tragedy. Its really tragic to see soldiers suffer like that in an accident. A crazy chain of events in the blink of an eye, that changes everything. Keep on keepin on, and I pray for you.

Thanx bro I will.

[82airborne]

I am going to a Trauma PTSD treatment, and times are tough. One of my best friends who was a Korean and Vietnam, died last week and the funeral is today. They wanted me to Present the Flag. I am not going and I feel bad, but I just cant deal with this today. Everyone in my life that I have loved, have died. I lost my parents as a Kid, and my wife's father and mother were killed when she was a teenager. We are all we got and that is why I can always depend on the love from my Veteran Brother and Sisters. Sorry I have rambled, just looking for meaning in life, as we all are.

Sorry to hear of your troubles bro. Feel free to stop by any time. When you are feeling down I found writing about it seems to release my anxiety.

[82airborne]

As I get older I see my Vietnam vet generation and friends dying off pretty rapidly. I don't think it is normal for a guy to die at age 62-65 in this day and age, but the RVN vets are dropping like flies. I have begun creepy habit of read the Obits and checking to see Vietnam vets who have died. I see them in the newspaper every day along with the WWII vets and Korean vets. I am writing my own obit so I can get it all right and blame my death on Uncle Sam at the same time. Another vet dies from agent orange....."huh, what dat" says the public, and "who cares anyway"?

I been getting my things wrapped up also life insurance finances and more. I also believe death is definitely coming even tho I'm 39 I would love to see 65 ALIVE AND NOT IN JAIL. So may we all live long and prosper in the life that was given us